my life

[lament anvil]

it’s a fucking long story

[placid marsh]

Start writing the chapters

[lament anvil]

doing self harm as done a big thing that can never live my head when i don’t feel sad it there when i feel sad it there like i don’t know why u resorted myself in stuff i dint mean to do i thought it was fun to hangout with them i have done so many shit including suicide attempt or self harm i don’t know my head is going drop out of school ur use less there don’t like u walk away i just wanna rest pls i beg of u am sorry for any shit i’ve done in the past im sorry i just want to have the thing is that

when i was young i used to have trauma of a dark person like doing bad things to me then from there it all began i would smoke drink or at least get drunk do shit then i was nine years old around that time i remember i was losing it i was going sad upon sad sad then i decided to move to the uk not knowing the past had done it major i would have lots of sadness in my mind i never taught of mike telling my parents or in stufff i just like never taught of killing myself nor doing self harm it was hard for me i was going aggressive i was doing shit i had ed i was vaping i was watching i dont wanan go there it all came down to as of currently i had a very severe depressing time of my life

when i saw shit like sh and suicide all come up to my mind then i promised my self i would die young no one liked me like my mom told me to kill myself and i was down bad down i’m getting haunted by same stuff and my solution to solving this was to die young as like kill myself ! some times i would act stubborn i just don’t want to anymore i want to live a life of fun but i knew that in life man must suffer i dint face up to the fact and i was never listening to my parent or my family neither my freinds or teacher

i feel everything is falling apart