Today my freinds feel like they dont even want to reach out to involve me with their lives. They don't involve me in the conversation like they used to. I'm an abomination I hate myself. I wish i was a girl or something because my personality does not match a man. I try so hard to get their attention and try to talk to them first but they never ever ever ever talk to me like they used to. They are my only good freinds I've ever had in this life. I wish I knew how to be a more loveable, respectable, person so people want me to be apart of their lives. god damn it I hate this world. I HATE HATE HATE this world. I wish i loved myself. I wish I was confident for other people to like me. But no one likes me. GOD DAMN IT. This makes me so god damn angry. I wish I was never born. I wish I was loveable by my freinds, but they never involve me in their conversations. Whats wrong with me? HELP ME
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rustic steppe
fringe whale
I just talk to myself