#I’m not completely sure but I would like help to understand this. (DMs are also welcome)

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thorny wolf
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This is more of a general vent but please be pairing and bear with me because I rarely have the words for anything.

TL:DR (Is something wrong with me or am I just looking for a reason to be a semi bad person?)

So I don’t want to be a ||victim|| or mentally ill but I want to know where I stand. I’m not always a good person and I know something is wrong with me. I don’t know if I’m looking for a solution or an excuse to be this way but no one will listen and I feel like such a brat with a victim mentality. I lose so many fights that I literally cling to the pettiest of wins to the point it’s pathetic. I was too young to be doing the things I was doing and I think it ||fucked|| me up really badly. I can be neglectful, quick to pick a fight, maybe a little ungrateful and selfish but I don’t know, It’s just what I’ve been told. I’m just not sure what to do. I want someone to tell me what I am. This is kinda my only option since not many will listen to me. My mom knows about… a lot (not my own doing, I never wanted her to find out) but I don’t think she takes it very seriously and I can’t really ask her too. I probably seem a little over dramatic to her asking for a therapist. Am I a ||victim||, unstable, normal, attention seeking? So much has happened to me that I was upset about in the moment and a lot of it was very F’ed up but am I processing it right or is it all in my head? I need a concrete answer but I can’t even write a straightforward question so that makes it difficult. I’m not sure how to do but oh well…

acoustic dune
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you were jst too exposed to things that werent up your alley

thorny wolf
acoustic dune
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having a victim mentality

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"vicitm"

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you may think it is but it could mean many other things

thorny wolf
acoustic dune
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thats not a bad thing tho

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it js means that you like to do more things

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you have to remember that its natural to make mistakes and fail

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mistakes are what makes you special as an individual

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So its not bad that you put yourself into things you cant handle

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your brave to go into those situations in the first place

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sorry i cant type

thorny wolf
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No worries, my phone died.

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Anyway, this is where my poor communication comes in. Your advice is perfect for some of my lesser mistakes but for the bigger situations I "put myself in", I mostly mean ||opening myself up to older and women and groomers||

acoustic dune
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Well yes those are "bigger" mistakes but its not your fault

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the trigger of your experiences could easily be one of the bigger reasons you are wired differently to someone else in your life

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while you have to know that opening up to ||groomers and older ppl|| is wrong its good that for a first step u identified that

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And while yes these mistakes are damaging and taxing on yourself you have to know that it still makes you a different, more mature person no matter how ||fucked|| it is

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its a steeper learning curve that you just have to take

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while im just someone behind a screen you can easily open up to others on this server and reach out to them

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everyone here wants the absolute best for you

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i do too

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so feel free to dm me whenever something like this happens

thorny wolf
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Honestly thank you. I didn't know what to make of myself. I sometimes thought I was just creating problems for the fun of it or something sometimes so this does help

acoustic dune
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im glad it does 😭

acoustic dune
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whether big or small they help shape you as you

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and people can help you in that way

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to guide you onto a better path

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or to try resolve something else

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stay safe