dusty hazel
Hi, it's my first time writing in this forum.
So basically, for these past few days, I've been suffering yet again in the depths of depression and intense loneliness. However, this time, I've experienced/had mental break down for the second time after 4 years. I've done self harm again and I want to stop it
So I planned to go to a psych ward after next week (during our Easter break: 2 weeks).
I'm in England, currently, and this is the first time I can...possibly (?) go to a psych ward. I already have the idea and knowledge how psych wards work and what not.
However, my main concern is my Aunt.
You see, we had this argument and big rivalry last year. In simple words, I went to a police station to report her. We are okay now. But, she has this massive thing for her 'reputation' here in England after living for 2 decades already. And I understand because she only has one job. And the only person sustaining our whole family.
The point is, this worry of hers for her own 'reputation' going to be broken causes her a paranoia because once her reputation is damage she can lose her only one job.
I understand but I really need that help. And if she finally heard about my mental health problems and my self harm, she might convince me not to go to a psych ward due to them questioning my living conditions, reasons to why I feel constant loneliness etc.
And she doesn't want this questions because, the truth is, she leaves me alone often.
In one week, she has 4 night shifts which leaves me in the house only. I've been really neglecting myself and I don't have any ways to help myself due to my constant addiction to gadgets and more of indulging into my coping mechanisms. It's hard
So, like how do I admit myself to the psych ward?
Of course I need to tell the school about it. I'm gonna inform my Aunt just in case any kind of concent is needed.
That's just my main question to be honest. If you have some advice, please give it, thank you
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