hoary spruce
First of all, stop pitying yourself like that. White black thinking won't help you, not only that, but it also comes forward as attention seeking behavior.
Now, as what you can do about is simply ask yourself why you would care about those people who are against you?
Your life doesn't resume how people perceive you. You need to find a purpose.
Also, I'd get those hallucinations checked if I were you. It is pretty much serious and may be a condition that causes those symptoms.
hoary spruce
so what
that's not true, you decide your own life, all you do is literally pitying yourself in this moment but are you at least doing smtg to improve your life?
hoary spruce
then screw your family, I couldn't care less about my abusive parents, nobody is forced to endure shit from nobody
it's hard but when someone holds you back then you cut their hand that grips on you
hoary spruce
then figure it out yourself, my way is the easy way
drowsy merlin
The problem doesn't define your mental health and everyone. It's how you see and continue to walk the wrong way
Everyone is indeed evil and apathetic
However, you're the only one who will show sympathy to yourself.
If that's, you're only aiming to change for the better
Even if you don't have any purpose, you should still live to the fullest in your life.
Everyone who doesn't have a purpose ends up creating inspirations for everyone. It means, they created their own. Because they want a life full of tranquility, joy and beauty. You can only achieve that if you have perseverance and sympathy for yourself.
You may be lonely right now. However, to find a sound in a quiet place you have to create your own. No one can give you any hope in your most loneliness time, especially if you really have no one beside you. Only you, can give yourself hope if you have the sympathy for yourself