I'm diagnosed with severe depression. I feel like a burden to my parents. I've been cutting my arm with my box cutter, I've been crying for no reasons, I've been starving myself and I can't sleep. I'm afraid everyone will leave me. I'm hopeless about my future and my only plan is to die. My head and stomach constantly aches. I don't know what's the point in living anymore. My mom and dad keep suffering, I can't bear to see this anymore. I want to die. I don't want to see my parents suffer. Call me selfish. I can't help it. Why do they expect me to understand them? I can't help it. I can't do it. I can't take this anymore. This is too much for me to handle. Please kill me. Please let me die. There's nobody I can rely on. Nobody I can talk to. Nobody I can trust. I've tried talking to friends, therapists, ... None of them are able to help. I'm hopeless. I'm in pain. It feels so suffocating
#My issues
lost arch
I can't even get help online, can't I
Both the real world and online world
Nobody can help me
In my country euthanasia isn't legally available, too
What can I do other than talking to myself
I might as well jump off the building tomorrow, I've been holding on for too long now
Why do people expect me to understand them?
Yeah I don't understand people either. I can't sympathize with them.
If we all can't help each other I might as well die