I'm 26 years old. Seen Over 40 psychologists and psychiatrists. I have been on lexapro, mirtazapine, pristiq, risperidone, straterra, prozac, zoloft, valdoxan, cymbalta, amitryptaline, parnate, efexor, seroquel, luvox, ritalin, vyvanse, olanzapine. I have done CBT, DBT, ACT, interpersonal therapy, EMDR, hypnotherapy, ECT, TMS, ketamine, and various naturopathy options. As a child I was diagnosed with ADHD, ODD, conduct disorder, autism, OCD, anxiety and depression. At 19 I was diagnosed with BPD (bullshit). At 23 I was diagnosed with bipolar (also bullshit) and "pseudopsychosis" (I just saw it written in my records, I don't know what it means). I was just diagnosed with NPD and I'm just about to lose my shit.
Every psychiatrist and psychologist winds up telling me "I can't help you". I have never seen anyone for more than 6 or 7 sessions before they boot me. My GP doesn't know what to do. I can't figure out how to help myself. I can't figure out how I'm feeling. External there's nothing wrong, I'm not traumatised like all the professionals seem to want me to be. I'm losing my mind. I can't focus on anything. For my entire life, when I'm at my best I'm completely bored. Every other time I'm just angry, miserable and in agonising mental pain. I'm tired of being told I don't want to help myself, because that's all I want to do, but trying lexapro for the sixth time isn't going to help me, yet when I refuse it this one time I'm accused of refusing treatment and being difficult. I can't live anymore. I'm bad for me, I'm bad for everyone.
#What am I supposed to do when all depression/mental illness treatment continues to fail?
grim summit
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@grim summit My dms are open for you. I won't be able to message straight away, but I am genuinely wanting to hear your story. I have plenty of sources, mindsets, and personal experiences that I have been through to also help through this if sought out.