come to me if you have a problem but not to him, it just feels like she wants to spil us up
#a journal of my life
manic jackal
wooden oxide
ugh people who do that 😭
manic jackal
ugh people who do that 😭
i wish i knew omg
wooden oxide
come to me if you have a problem but not to him, it just feels like she wants to...
EXACTLY
manic jackal
EXACTLY
shes supose to text me tomorrow
il tell her what i think, i dont have too much too loose ngl
wooden oxide
shes supose to text me tomorrow
oop a nice christmas present
manic jackal
just a little sick of her not gonna lie
wooden oxide
il tell her what i think, i dont have too much too loose ngl
as you should
manic jackal
oop a nice christmas present
for real tho
manic jackal
as you should
yeah, i felt bad for my friend because he got in between it all because of her. so i got first mad at him
manic jackal
that made me realise it is christmas tomorrow
real, i just got all my presents
and it still doesnt feel like christmass
wooden oxide
real, i just got all my presents
ooo did you get anything fun?
wooden oxide
yeah, i felt bad for my friend because he got in between it all because of her. ...
awh that is sad
manic jackal
thats lowkey why i dont like it, people hype it up way to much for it to not feel special at like
like babes stop the crap
manic jackal
ooo did you get anything fun?
yess i got a new record player!
wooden oxide
thats lowkey why i dont like it, people hype it up way to much for it to not fee...
true like it’s fun but acc not that fun
manic jackal
true like it’s fun but acc not that fun
for real tho
wooden oxide
for real tho
have a fun night though! i gotta go sleep 😭
manic jackal
have a fun night though! i gotta go sleep 😭
goodnight!
manic jackal
Help were getting a rat if we keep our room cleaned for a year😭
manic jackal
ugh family dinner tomorrow, im lowkey nervous
il probably get overwhelmed (its with 8 people), go quiet. people talking to me and me not wanting to talk back at all
its really amazing
and dont get me started on all the freaking arguments😭
manic jackal
help someone is arguing with me just because i told them to stay nice💀
''youre tone policing''
NO I WASNT?!
I JUST SAID FROM MY POV YOU SOUNDED DEFESIVE
SHUT UP
i cant with people these days
how do i explain that im not rude to someone who turns my words around
and like
can i ping staff for this?
cuz lowkey yeah?
but its nothing too abd
bad
river please look here
i need advice but i dont want to ping you
me rn
oh yeah i can send gifs now
ive found my power
anyways
shall i tagg river or not
thats the question of the day
imagine they see this
river if you just saw that typo
whoops
lowkey felt badass doing this
i dont even care if i get warned
its so worth it, i needed that anger out
this is about to be good af
theyre typing again i cant
manic jackal
lowkey felt badass doing this
i know that this wasnt the right thing ot say, but dont mess with me today i cant handle it rn
at this point id be bumped if they dont awnser
means i left them speachless tho
river if you still see this
please dont warn me, they started
i vented to early
they were in my dms
apperantly im a wrong autistic person idk i didnt read it fully
brb
omg theyre so sweet
(im crying rn)
very great
me thinking to help people and then get called slurs and being told to go to hell
thanks love!
anyways
my knees hurt
and tomorrow christmas diner
i just realised, they told me i was a freak to autistic people, i didnt even know that. AND IM THE ONE BEING TESTED>
why would i be a freak
yk what i feel like yapping but idk what about
oh yeah merry chistmas
manic jackal
apperantly im a wrong autistic person idk i didnt read it fully
(you can now see here i read it wrong)
''micro chrocet is the most fun thing'' dont lie like that
manic jackal
Just learnt that I have mutism or how you call it:)
It's basically not being able to talk but being able to understand it all
Not too sure still, but its what described it the best
I basically have this😭
It honestly brought me back to some memories, when I was in the car my grandparents would say 'ph she has it again' I was zoned out, wasn't interested in speaking at all, and then they tried to get me back to the real world haha
Tried to fake it a few times because I liked the reaction never worked tho🫣
wooden oxide
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1123691417567498362/1320914582579183647/B...
YOU TOO GIRLY!!
wooden oxide
@manic jackal hrruu??
manic jackal
<@456226577798135808> hrruu??
I'm good! What about you?
manic jackal
enjoying my free time
Reall
wooden oxide
Reall
alsoo can I ask you sm?
idk you seem like the person to know something abt it
manic jackal
idk you seem like the person to know something abt it
Ask away:)
wooden oxide
Ask away:)
if you have read girl in pieces, is it smart to read it in one go? sorry if you haven't read it
manic jackal
if you have read girl in pieces, is it smart to read it in one go? sorry if you ...
No I wouldnt recomend that. I've read it but I did like 1 max 4 charters and then I stopped and did something else yk
I've been reading it for like a year or so now because I keep forgetting I have it, but because of that it hasn't been heavy at all for me
wooden oxide
I've been reading it for like a year or so now because I keep forgetting I have ...
ohh so you still haven't finihsed it?
manic jackal
ohh so you still haven't finihsed it?
Nope haha, but I'm nearly done:)
Yk what I hate
WHEN ARE YOU JN LOVE?
wooden oxide
WHEN ARE YOU JN LOVE?
OMG WHAT DID I MISS SOMETHING??
manic jackal
WHATS HAPPENING
Well😝
Okey so
I'm in a server, and I've been just talking and making friends etc. And that server is just lowkey flirty with eachtoher and it's just all fun and games etc. Then me and 3 other girls just start flirting. Now me and this other girl have been talking in dms, playing fn, flirting etc. AND NOW IM NOT SURE HOW SHE MEANS IT AND STUFF
And like I also don't know what I mean😭
wooden oxide
I'm in a server, and I've been just talking and making friends etc. And that ser...
WAIT THATS CUTE BUT ALSO CONFUSING
FIRST OF DO YOU LIKE LIKE HER?
manic jackal
FIRST OF DO YOU LIKE LIKE HER?
Idk if I do like her like that yk😭
(She makes me blush smile and giggle and stuff(
wooden oxide
(She makes me blush smile and giggle and stuff(
okay that is a sign
wooden oxide
I don't want to
awh why not
manic jackal
awh why not
Because she lives far away, and it's like idk? I'm scared
wooden oxide
Because she lives far away, and it's like idk? I'm scared
aah yeah understandable
manic jackal
Yeahy
wooden oxide
long distance sucks
wooden oxide
Il just crush on her for the rest of my life🎀
good idea tbh
manic jackal
good idea tbh
Not really😔
Well that took a turn🎀
I basically told her I was like 'what I'd I tell you I do' (crush on her) and she said 'then I'd be very happy'
I hate but love this😭
She says she has butterfly's when she texts me
I'm in shock? But I also don't really know
ITS CONFUSING
manic jackal
so...
she confessed towards me
then she felt so much emotion then she got into a really bad anxiety/panick attack
wooden oxide
she confessed towards me
that's cutee
wooden oxide
then she felt so much emotion then she got into a really bad anxiety/panick atta...
awh is she alright now?
manic jackal
awh is she alright now?
I think so yeah haha
wooden oxide
We decided to let things the way they are rn
ohh to get to know eachother more?
manic jackal
ohh to get to know eachother more?
Yeah and also just idkx I'm not ready for anything
wooden oxide
Yeah and also just idkx I'm not ready for anything
completly fair
manic jackal
I'm lowkey scared
When my friends repost a tiktok that says 'I lie to my therapist so she doesn't send me to a mental hospital'
I can asure you they won't baby
💀
My biggest regret in life?
NOT LEARNINF VIOLIN
OR GUITAR WHEN I COULD
LIKE OMG
One is just hella cool
Otherone is just hot af
Real
Damn new pfp
And banner
Ate
tired jetty
@manic jackal how much better are you doing since the beginning of the year
manic jackal
<@456226577798135808> how much better are you doing since the beginning of the y...
What begining pf the year
Ph wait
Ncm I'm stupid af
Uhm
tired jetty
i read a bit of the thread at the beginning
manic jackal
Like idk
tired jetty
seems like you were struggling a bit
manic jackal
seems like you were struggling a bit
Yeah still am🥲
tired jetty
😔
manic jackal
Omg my parents are so sweet, they're like 'if it gets too busy for you just step away alright?' (Were going to Germany for fireworks and it gets like really busy, and I get overwhelmed a little too easy'
wooden oxide
When my friends repost a tiktok that says 'I lie to my therapist so she doesn't ...
😭
wooden oxide
Omg my parents are so sweet, they're like 'if it gets too busy for you just step...
That’s so sweet
was it fun?
manic jackal
was it fun?
yess it was, my parents said i was pretty unavaileble all day tho (still little overwhelmed and tired)
wooden oxide
like i dont want to judge, but like
We listen and we judge
manic jackal
We listen and we judge
YES EXACTLY
wooden oxide
yess it was, my parents said i was pretty unavaileble all day tho (still little ...
Thats good! Pretty understandable
manic jackal
Thats good! Pretty understandable
yeah!
wooden oxide
YES EXACTLY
YOU JUST GET IT
wooden oxide
like ''pretty girls dont judge'' guess im not pretty then<:Avadayumm:12409298963...
you are though 😔
manic jackal
you are though 😔
so are you tho
wooden oxide
so are you tho<:BZslayna:1269278406437109771>
awhies 🫶🏼
wooden oxide
<:lovee:1258346295282765864>
🫶🏼🫶🏼
manic jackal
Just got my results of mu blood work back, everything was normal except for vitamin D it's like way too low
😭🙏
stark flume
Just got my results of mu blood work back, everything was normal except for vita...
Has this journal been going on for the full year? That’s impressive
manic jackal
Has this journal been going on for the full year? That’s impressive
I think sinds april
stark flume
19/01
stark flume
You rode a bike and had problems breathing
manic jackal
Then yep
manic jackal
You rode a bike and had problems breathing
Oh yeah I remember that
stark flume
How’s your life changed since then? For the better or worse?
manic jackal
How’s your life changed since then? For the better or worse?
It's about the same
It's hard to pinpoint if something is better ig
stark flume
Nothing mentally changed?
manic jackal
Nothing mentally changed?
A lot has changed, but I think I'm still the beginning again, which is alright?
Or not still, but again
stark flume
Well we’re going into a new year, do you have any goals in your life?
Like mines staying committed to the gym
manic jackal
Well we’re going into a new year, do you have any goals in your life?
Not really, they're stupid cuz no-one really completes them😭
manic jackal
Like mines staying committed to the gym
That's a good one:)
manic jackal
No goal is stupid, they’re unique to you and what you want
I never said the goals are stupid
manic jackal
What are your goals?
Passing this year, that's about it
stark flume
People complete passing years
manic jackal
Passing this year, that's about it
(I meant for school btw haha)
stark flume
Getting through the year 😭😭😭
manic jackal
😭😭😭I’m sure you’ll be okay
Never say that, life sucks and its unpredictable🙏
manic jackal
What year of school are you in?
Uhm wait let me see cuz America system grading sucks
Grade 10?
Idk not too sure, or 10 or 9
manic jackal
I’m in the UK
9th then
stark flume
Never say that, life sucks and its unpredictable🙏
Life is definitely unpredictable but everyone can still power through
manic jackal
Wait are you from America ?
No haha I'm from the netherlands
stark flume
I can’t really relate to you school wise because every place does it differently
manic jackal
I can’t really relate to you school wise because every place does it differently
True
stark flume
No haha I'm from the netherlands
Oh yeah that makes sense from your first language, duhhh
I went through my big exams last year
manic jackal
Americans schools are frwking easy😔
stark flume
Well this year but we’re nearly next year now so
manic jackal
I went through my big exams last year
Nice
manic jackal
Well this year but we’re nearly next year now so
True
stark flume
Are you still doing your journal to the following year too?
manic jackal
Are you still doing your journal to the following year too?
Definitely, I'd be doing this till this server gets shut down
stark flume
Definitely, I'd be doing this till this server gets shut down
That is a lot a lot of dedication but I like the idea I’m gonna start doing it in my notes app on my phone and compare my life in a years time
manic jackal
That is a lot a lot of dedication but I like the idea I’m gonna start doing it i...
Goodluck with that!
I'd also do that if I didn't have 10k messages💀
stark flume
😭😭just sort your messages by like time in the search thing
Wait can you do that on phone
Idk how to do that on phone I use PC
manic jackal
😭😭just sort your messages by like time in the search thing
What do you mean??
stark flume
You can like search for messages by a certain person and sort by time I think
I don’t even know I don’t use discord too much now
manic jackal
You can like search for messages by a certain person and sort by time I think
Yeah but not with these journals sadly
manic jackal
Since they're not a separate channel
manic jackal
That’s dumb
Yeah
stark flume
They need to change that
manic jackal
They need to change that
Yeah it's a discord thing tho
stark flume
Yeah it’s stupid smh
manic jackal
True
stark flume
Does it not show up anyways if you search via all channels?
manic jackal
My messages in thus journal don't
stark flume
Discord need to sort it out
manic jackal
Discord need to sort it out
Yep, but oh well
stark flume
You gonna be scrolling forever if you wanna find something. 😭😭
manic jackal
You gonna be scrolling forever if you wanna find something. 😭😭
Yep😭
But honestly I never really had anything that I wanted to search
Up to now tho, have to write some stuff for my psychologist (reason why I basically made this btw, to see what's wrong and why stuff happend)
stark flume
Up to now tho, have to write some stuff for my psychologist (reason why I basica...
Aghhh it’s not a bad thing to be fair
manic jackal
Aghhh it’s not a bad thing to be fair
Why would it be a bad thing?
glad wigeon
"There's no right way or wrong way to work. There's only your way"
manic jackal
"There's no right way or wrong way to work. There's only your way"
True, expect they all can be wrong, you may never know🤷♀️
glad wigeon
Life’s a ticket on a one-way ride,
For some, it’s long; for others, denied.
A single journey, no chance to rewind,
Each day a fight, each night unkind.
Knocked down flat, still craving more,
Dreams may shatter, hopes hit the floor.
But we’re never defined by the scars we bear,
Every fall’s a lesson, a chance to repair.
When the world drags you down,
Grip tight, don’t drown.
Stand your ground; let the winds howl,
The storm reveals what life’s all about.
stark flume
Why would it be a bad thing?
No I was just saying it isn’t a bad thing to do, like it’s a good idea
manic jackal
Life’s a ticket on a one-way ride,
For some, it’s long; for others, denied.
A si...
lowkey ate
manic jackal
No I was just saying it isn’t a bad thing to do, like it’s a good idea
ohhh
manic jackal
It's so funny how many people say this
wooden oxide
Just got my results of mu blood work back, everything was normal except for vita...
Isnt that the sun vitamin
manic jackal
Isnt that the sun vitamin
Yep
wooden oxide
Well this year but we’re nearly next year now so
I still can’t process this
manic jackal
Ooh couldn’t that be because of winter
No idea tbh
manic jackal
I still can’t process this
'Well I graduated this year, but the year is nearly over'
wooden oxide
'Well I graduated this year, but the year is nearly over'
that is a weird realisation
wooden oxide
OHH THATS WHAT YOU MEAN
WAIT WHAT DID YOU MEAN
manic jackal
WAIT WHAT DID YOU MEAN
I THOUGHT THAT YOU DIDNT UNDERSTAND THE SENTENCE
wooden oxide
I THOUGHT THAT YOU DIDNT UNDERSTAND THE SENTENCE
OHH NO I COULDNT PROCESS THE FACT THAT TMRW IS THE LAST DAY OF THE YEAR
manic jackal
OHH NO I COULDNT PROCESS THE FACT THAT TMRW IS THE LAST DAY OF THE YEAR
OHH YEAH REAL
manic jackal
New year already
Wierd ngl
Lowkey hating the fireworks, how long will it take fr someone to call me a 'watje' because I don't come outside when they put on the fireworks
Yall can translate🥰
(The way it will probably say cotten pad is lowkey funny)
My friend said she would be afk (she's at New years with her friends) so I was okey with it yk but then she went live on insta with someone else. Idk seems wierd
Hateeeee this
I'm probably just overthinking it and I know it but still
Her friend added me on insta💀
manic jackal
'I miss you' proceeds to go online imidiatly after I awnser her a second after her message
😔
manic jackal
I told her I was sick, she probably didn't read it but yeah she didn't awnser, lowkey hurted. But o also gotta understand that she's hella busy atm
Anyways I'm hella cold here (it's 21 celcius) headache and my throat hurts (which could be because of me sleeping with my mouth open)
opal rover
Gelukking nieuwjaar
manic jackal
Cried for full 30 min💀🙏
manic jackal
Gelukking nieuwjaar
Happy new year!
manic jackal
Cried for full 30 min💀🙏
I LOVE fireworks but jts also just ew, cuz of the loud bands and they're all at once yk
I was inside which was luckily very good, then I went outside for a little and imidiatly started to shake💀🙏
opal rover
Oh
manic jackal
Just woke up, my throat hurts like 10 times more, went to the bathroom to look in the mirror and it looks like it was bleeding st some point (great) I lowkey started to panick got super nauseous and had a complete vision black put, laid myself on the ground and here I am. No one is awake yet and all I could find is that il die💀
manic jackal
2026 will be my year🥰
manic jackal
Just woke up, my throat hurts like 10 times more, went to the bathroom to look i...
Also update i probably wont
manic jackal
Calling the docter rn✌️
manic jackal
Okey so we have to call tomorrow again
wooden oxide
Just woke up, my throat hurts like 10 times more, went to the bathroom to look i...
😭
Google always tells you you’ll die
manic jackal
Google always tells you you’ll die
It was an official docter site tho😭🙏
manic jackal
WHY WOULD THEY TELL YOU THAT
IDK?!
but like i made an appointment at the docters, i think il be okey
and the girl im talking to was so concerned she was like ''im so worried about you'' ''what if it gets worse'' i was legit like 10 minutes just trying to convince her that im okey and stuff
it was so cute
wooden oxide
and the girl im talking to was so concerned she was like ''im so worried about y...
Awhh thats cutee
manic jackal
Awhh thats cutee
i know right, shes so cute
inner granite
wow this thread is so active despite just being created less than an hour ago
manic jackal
wow this thread is so active despite just being created less than an hour ago
uhm this was created a year ago.....
idk how id manage 10k messages in an hour
inner granite
uhm this was created a year ago.....
oh so the last message was an hour ago
mb 😂
but anyway what's been up
manic jackal
oh so the last message was an hour ago
yes😭
manic jackal
but anyway what's been up
nothing much to be honest! wbu?
inner granite
nothing much to be honest! wbu?
just siblings stuff
brotherly stuff
i have an elder and i gotta endure his short-tempered ass
manic jackal
i have an elder and i gotta endure his short-tempered ass
ah that sucks
inner granite
ah that sucks
yes but i'm not so worried now
i have captured something that i can share with so i won't have to endure that much
manic jackal
yes but i'm not so worried now
i get that
manic jackal
i have captured something that i can share with so i won't have to endure that m...
thats good
inner granite
thats good
hell yeah, and i only let them out whenever i need to share something
hella convenient for me
manic jackal
manic jackal
hell yeah, and i only let them out whenever i need to share something
im concerned
inner granite
im concerned<:emoji_123:1232839605057749143>
oh do not worries
manic jackal
im very worried
inner granite
i don't keep them for me only
inner granite
what did you capture
a so called therapist
manic jackal
inner granite
i just got warned for telling a joke
manic jackal
L
inner granite
hell no ill find a server i can talk normally in
manic jackal
💀
bro got warned once and is already done with the server
idk how many times i got warned, i still dont know what word i can and cant say ngl
inner granite
the dude warned me didn't even talk to me
he just used commands
i didn't say i'll leave but i'd rather not talk much
manic jackal
he just used commands
ohh you got he automatic warning
dw bud youre save
i get those all the time
inner granite
ohh you got he automatic warning
bruh it got me sweating
i find people here are nice and calm
inner granite
so like it's nothing
manic jackal
yep
manic jackal
anyway i need to sleep it's late
real
manic jackal
i will definitely come back and maybe lurk or say hi
alright haha
manic jackal
go sleep
no
i need to take my pain meds in half an hour
and besides im talking to my girl
manic jackal
im talking with the girl, and my stims are crazy
me litarly
(all from happines)
this is like me
manic jackal
also lowkey realised that i havent had happy stims in like idk months
very happy that ive found a person that can bring them back:)
manic jackal
this is beautiful
wooden oxide
very happy that ive found a person that can bring them back:)
awhh that's rlly cute
manic jackal
awhh that's rlly cute
Ikr
She's learning Dutch since we met, I told her I was eating and she told me 'eet smaakelijk' whitch means like eat well? Idk how yall say that
opal rover
Haha thats awesome
manic jackal
Yess
manic jackal
Lowkey eating polish
manic jackal
<@456226577798135808> ms. sophie
Read the 10k messages I have🥰
inner granite
Read the 10k messages I have🥰
i think it breaks the purpose of lurking
like what if one day you decided to send a text "I have this creep coming to my channels randomly just to read my diary"
manic jackal
like what if one day you decided to send a text "I have this creep coming to my ...
Nah I enjoy when people read ny journal
inner granite
Nah I enjoy when people read ny journal
are you also gonna write "this creep actually smiling when he knows i enjoy it"?
nah just kidding, i hope you're doing alright and happy that's all
keep doing what you're doing
manic jackal
are you also gonna write "this creep actually smiling when he knows i enjoy it"?
What😭🙏
manic jackal
keep doing what you're doing
I definitely will do that haha
manic jackal
wow very scary, i was talking to my girl again and it felt off she didnt say that anything was wrong tho, for some reason it really botherd me even as far as me having ||self harm|| thoughts again, turns out shes deeling with those kind of thoughts with those, idk found it so wierd how i just also had them after not having them for so long
(no her name wont be used anytime soon so she will be called ''my girl'' because i can)
i find it hard to sometimes see like what can i write and what can i not write, idk i still find it hard
anyways im crying rn because talking to me helps her
idk it makes me happy that i can help others
manic jackal
yk i just thought about little me, and the fact that she wouldnt be disepointed in me at all, she would be sad for me, she would feel bad and try to help me. thats how ive always been, i tried to protect myself
manic jackal
i feel bad,
we talked about everything we started with her problems and then we just started talking about mine? which i dont mind at all, but because of that my ||sh urges|| came up, instead of talking about it and bothering, triggering her etc i bottled it up, i told her she should go to bed (because she should get some sleep) and after that i ||relapsed|| i feel really bad i promised il ''survive'' the night when she was asleep, i guess i didnt. i hate this
now my thigh burns
manic jackal
THEY REMOVED THE COLOR ROLE
NOO
imma need this back like asap
I LOVED THAT COLOR
I LOVED THE GREEN
now i gotta look for a new one
okey black slays
its as black as my soul
me rn
r.i.p to my green tho
thats criminal
i thought limited edition meant i would keep this
no they made me fall in love with a color that would get deleted like a week after😔
looking in venting and seening mostly new members was shocking ngl
me lowkey
i dont want the day that my nitro stops
and then i wont be able to send gifs again
like THATS my nightmare
help for the reaction emoij the third one are ✂️ does that say enough about my conversations lately😭
i cant
i dont want to loose my gif privledge
imagine i meet someone here who just likes my journal and my gifs so much that they just yk sponser my nitro
BRO I JUST SAW THAT THEYRE PROFESIONAL THERAPISTS HERE?!
WHAT
i came from the time that you werent even really allowed to say that, crazy
manic jackal
my pings for this server are still not working they havent been working since like last year june
and i never really botherd to solve it, but i lowkey want it solved now but idk how
pings are on, i got the role and the server pings are also on
manic jackal
OMG THEYRE WORKING AGAIN
YESSS
I COULD CRY
THEYRE WORKING IDK WHAT I DID BUT THEYRE WORKING GUYS
i can finally be in my active era again
okey 3 minutes in and already 3 pings....
when i was in my active era i didnt have friends
so it didnt matter i got pinged
BUT NOW I WONT KNOW IF ITS A DMS OR NOT
shoot
but its okey
anything for my active era
jees i yap a lot when its late
manic jackal
oh yeah btw the docter said my tonsil thingy was inflamed
or is
but it doesnt hurt anymore so its fine
yk ive been wanting to deep dive into religion again, but there is so much going on atm
i might should get some sleep
me
okey that was my yap session of the day
wait ew
tomorrow psygologist
i did infact not do what she wanted me to do🔥
okey now i gotta sleep
manic jackal
I hate to lie to her but I also don't want to tell her why I went to sleep so late
wooden oxide
i feel bad,
we talked about everything we started with her problems and then we...
are you alr?
manic jackal
are you alr?
Yeah that's for asking
manic jackal
a message that she had send to me, ive been feeling pretty bad today so she started to talk about my intrests ''I'm glad we talked about hockey and I try to talk in a way that you can talk about it more than me so that you don't think about your bad mood or the fact that you feel bad.<333''
i love her
(now im lowkey crying)
omg shes so cute haha, shes so exited that her plan has worked
manic jackal
i spamed her with reels
but like she didnt watch them for like 2 days
goodluck watching 40 reels now🥰
also i now call her my little pink starfish
(shes shorter then me and in a reel i send her there are 2 starfishes laying on top of eachother and its says like ''us (you're the pink one)''
manic jackal
Sweetheart, remember that you have incredible strength, determination, and talent that make you truly special. No matter what happens on the field, the most important thing is that you play with heart, passion, and full commitment. Hockey is something you love, and it’s that love for the game and your hard work that have brought you here, ready to give it your all.
Believe in yourself and your skills. You don’t need to be perfect; you just need to be yourself, because that’s your greatest strength. No matter the result, I’m with you, and I will always support you. I know how hard you work, how much effort you put into what you do, and that alone is something to be proud of. Enjoy every moment on the field, because this is your time,your place, and your chance to show the world how amazing you are. I believe in you with all my heart. Good luck!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
A note she send me this morning fir my hockey game🥹
wooden oxide
Sweetheart, remember that you have incredible strength, determination, and talen...
AWH NO THIS IS GETTING TOO CUTE
manic jackal
AWH NO THIS IS GETTING TOO CUTE
IKR
manic jackal
Playing fortnite with her🤭
wooden oxide
Playing fortnite with her🤭
CUTEE
wooden oxide
UGH YOU AND HER ARE SO CUTE TOGHETER
manic jackal
UGH YOU AND HER ARE SO CUTE TOGHETER
IKR, IF ONLY SHE LIVED CLOSER
istg id cuddle her till she's death
God knew we would be too good of a couple so he placed us on long distance
wooden oxide
God knew we would be too good of a couple so he placed us on long distance<:Hams...
werent most your relationship/crushes online/long distance?
manic jackal
anyways now im debating if i should send her a long sweet message or if she would then think i killed myself
its a 50/50 change
manic jackal
werent most your relationship/crushes online/long distance?
my last one was, but that one was just shit
God knew better then to put us together
wooden oxide
anyways now im debating if i should send her a long sweet message or if she woul...
id say do it
manic jackal
id say do it
which one?
cuz she was like worried about me before she had to go (her phone gets taken at night)
and i dont want her to think im gone
manic jackal
but make it clear you arent dead
BHAHAHHA
my little starfish, before you read this no im not death❤️
imagine💀
wooden oxide
my little starfish, before you read this no im not death❤️
BAHAHA THATS WAY TO FUNNY 😭
manic jackal
BAHAHA THATS WAY TO FUNNY 😭
IMAGINE YOUD SEE THAT THO?!
(yes i call her my little starfish)
oh wait i think ive said that before
frigid lodge
HAHAAA LMAO (I'm trying to enter the conversation normally)
manic jackal
not ssure
wooden oxide
IMAGINE YOUD SEE THAT THO?!
i would laugh my ass off tbh
manic jackal
HAHAAA LMAO (I'm trying to enter the conversation normally)
you're a vibe already😭
manic jackal
i would laugh my ass off tbh
for real
wooden oxide
oh wait i think ive said that before
you did i think
wooden oxide
also i now call her my little pink starfish
HAHA YOUU DID I KNEW IT
manic jackal
(yes i call her my little starfish)
(in case i dint its a refrence to a reels i had send her about 2 starfishes cuddeling)
frigid lodge
you're a vibe already😭
Good or bad?
manic jackal
HAHA YOUU DID I KNEW IT
I DID WHAT?
manic jackal
Good or bad?
good😭
frigid lodge
Uhhuh
wooden oxide
I DID WHAT?
SAY YOU CALLED HER YOUR LITTLE STARGISH
manic jackal
i still havent asked her to by gf, but it all goes so fast
(avrege wuh luh wuh relation)
frigid lodge
what's the context of this convo
manic jackal
SAY YOU CALLED HER YOUR LITTLE STARGISH
YESSS, SHES SO CUTE JUST AS A STARFISH
and she cals me her sun (as in sunshine)
wooden oxide
and she cals me her sun (as in sunshine)
i could understand that
manic jackal
ive always hated petnames, but she lowkey made me fall in love with them
frigid lodge
and she cals me her sun (as in sunshine)
Sun and moon 🌚
wooden oxide
from what i read here you are a pretty sunny and happy person
manic jackal
what's the context of this convo
my not girlfriend
frigid lodge
my not girlfriend
What
manic jackal
Sun and moon 🌚
im more like the moon ngl😭
frigid lodge
her situation ship
OH
wooden oxide
wait i think thats it called
manic jackal
What
so like, girl i met like a week ago. we flirted as a joke but then lowkey fell inlove and we are just lowkey doing more then a normal couple is doing😝
wait no its been two weeks🥰
lowkey emberasing but its okey😝
frigid lodge
so like, girl i met like a week ago. we flirted as a joke but then lowkey fell i...
it's giving me lesbian vibes
manic jackal
wait i think thats it called
i also think so
manic jackal
it's giving me lesbian vibes
BHAHHAHA IT IS
frigid lodge
i also think so
It is yes
wooden oxide
OMG YES MY BRAIN CAN THINK THIS LATE AT NIGHT
manic jackal
from what i read here you are a pretty sunny and happy person
eh, im better online
manic jackal
OMG YES MY BRAIN CAN THINK THIS LATE AT NIGHT
frigid lodge
wait am i now a hour before you or after you
An hour after
manic jackal
wait am i now a hour before you or after you
idk
wooden oxide
An hour after
WAIT HOW DO OYU KNOW
frigid lodge
WAIT HOW DO OYU KNOW
There's more to me than meets the eye
manic jackal
@warm otter what you mean purple doesnt exist🤨
manic jackal
There's more to me than meets the eye
how do you know where she lives🤨
wooden oxide
There's more to me than meets the eye
im scared.
manic jackal
im scared.
SAME HAHAHA
also manny (the editor, shes like a queen) is in a server i mod for, had a fangirl moment
😝
frigid lodge
how do you know where she lives🤨
Theres more to me than meets the eye.
frigid lodge
im scared.
I would be too.
manic jackal
Theres more to me than meets the eye.
WDYM BY THAT?!
tell me some more about myself
frigid lodge
tell me some more about myself<:imjustagirl:1237841684323369063>
you are breathing
manic jackal
<@456226577798135808> I FOUND IT
WHAT DID YOU FIND?
manic jackal
I AM AN HOUR AFTER YOU
WHY ARE YOU STILL UP
wooden oxide
wait does that mean it is almost 11 for you
frigid lodge
https://tenor.com/view/billie-eilish-billie-shocked-gif-26505859
beewee eeeewish?
wooden oxide
WHY ARE YOU STILL UP
IT IS MY LAST NIGHT BEFORE SCHOOL
manic jackal
wait does that mean it is almost 11 for you
yeah
wooden oxide
IM GOING TO ENJOY IT TOO MY FULLEST (staying up way too late)
manic jackal
IT IS MY LAST NIGHT BEFORE SCHOOL
WHAT?! MINE IS STILL 2 DAYS
manic jackal
IM GOING TO ENJOY IT TOO MY FULLEST (staying up way too late)
real
frigid lodge
IT IS MY LAST NIGHT BEFORE SCHOOL
"like it's the last night"
wooden oxide
WHAT?! MINE IS STILL 2 DAYS
MINE ISNT TMRW IS SUNDAY SO I GOTTA SLEEP EARLIER
wooden oxide
"like it's the last night"
yes
manic jackal
MINE ISNT TMRW IS SUNDAY SO I GOTTA SLEEP EARLIER
😭
manic jackal
"like it's the last night"
it might be😝
manic jackal
jk il be alive for my starfish
frigid lodge
it might be😝
I sure as hell hope so
manic jackal
your going to get shanked at school
TF
manic jackal
I sure as hell hope so
i dont but like popoff
manic jackal
I can predict the future
tell me some stuff about me
frigid lodge
i am scared
there's more to me than meets the eye.
manic jackal
i am scared
i get that, id be looking over my shoulder all the time at that point
manic jackal
there's more to me than meets the eye.
STOP WITH THAT
frigid lodge
tell me some stuff about me
Your alive.
wooden oxide
what if i will be the killer first and do it myself. :3
wait no take that as a joke
manic jackal
Your alive.
why so boring shit for me
wooden oxide
that is supposed to be funny
manic jackal
that is supposed to be funny
😭
frigid lodge
what if i will be the killer first and do it myself. :3
Still would technically be shanked, never specified if it was self inflicted or not
manic jackal
AT SCHOOL?
wooden oxide
Still would technically be shanked, never specified if it was self inflicted or ...
this is getting scarier
frigid lodge
AT SCHOOL?
Yes.
frigid lodge
this is getting scarier
There's more to me than meets the eye.
wooden oxide
nah me neither at least in my room
frigid lodge
broski i wouldnt be found death at school
You sure?
frigid lodge
yes very very sure tf
Wouldn't bet on it.
wooden oxide
wait now i am thinking abt this STOP IT
frigid lodge
there's more to me than meets the eye.
manic jackal
Wouldn't bet on it.
well i will bet on that shit, i aint killing MYSELF AT SCHOOL?!
frigid lodge
well i will bet on that shit, i aint killing MYSELF AT SCHOOL?!
it could be yourself, or by someone else. You won't know.
manic jackal
im depressed, but not that depressed
wooden oxide
im depressed, but not that depressed
BAHAHA SORRY BUT REAL
frigid lodge
im depressed, but not that depressed
Time will tell.
manic jackal
it could be yourself, or by someone else. You won't know.
i aint dying soon thank yew
manic jackal
Time will tell.
WHAT
wooden oxide
i get the scarry in your name.. this is scary
frigid lodge
i aint dying soon thank yew
Time will tell.
wooden oxide
DUDE LET THE GIRL LIVE
frigid lodge
i get the scarry in your name.. this is scary
There's more to me than meets the eye.
manic jackal
Time will tell.
Lord let it be painless or not
frigid lodge
DUDE LET THE GIRL LIVE
Once again, time will tell.
manic jackal
DUDE LET THE GIRL LIVE
NO DONT
WAIT YES LET ME LIVE
WHAT ABOUT MYGF
I CANT DIE
il be dodging bullets
its fine
frigid lodge
I CANT DIE
Time will tell.
manic jackal
i can survive its the gf instinct dw im safe
frigid lodge
il be dodging bullets
Time will also tell.
frigid lodge
i can survive its the gf instinct dw im safe
There's more to me than meets the eye.
wooden oxide
wait now that i am thinking of it (sorry midnight brain) but sophie aren't you afraid irl people will find this journal?
manic jackal
bro tried to join the conversation then basically told us we will be death in like 3 minutse
manic jackal
wait now that i am thinking of it (sorry midnight brain) but sophie aren't you a...
lowkey yeah? but no why?
frigid lodge
bro tried to join the conversation then basically told us we will be death in li...
I'm a gay bestie 🤪 😌
manic jackal
idc, what will they do with this journal
wooden oxide
lowkey yeah? but no why?
idk tbh just thought of it
my brain thinks of random stuff at night sorry
manic jackal
I'm a gay bestie 🤪 😌
wait this lowkey scared me more then the shit before
wooden oxide
😭
manic jackal
I'm a gay bestie 🤪 😌
who are you
frigid lodge
wait this lowkey scared me more then the shit before
There's more to me than meets the eye.
manic jackal
my brain thinks of random stuff at night sorry
nah dont say sorry
manic jackal
There's more to me than meets the eye.
do i know you
this made me scarder then anything
wooden oxide
I'm a gay bestie 🤪 😌
okay.. what the switch up
frigid lodge
do i know you
You'll find out eventually.
wooden oxide
WAIT FR? ALL YOUR FRIENDS ARE GAY?
manic jackal
You'll find out eventually.
istg if youre alysha il come for your ass
manic jackal
WAIT FR? ALL YOUR FRIENDS ARE GAY?
YEAH THEY ALL ARE HAHHAA
wooden oxide
istg if youre alysha il come for your ass
alysha as in the co owner of your serer
server
wooden oxide
okay thats creept
frigid lodge
istg if youre alysha il come for your ass
I wish I was scary tbh, I'm your average ugly white boy who gets bullied a bit too much.
manic jackal
one friend isnt the one cuz she just send me a snap
manic jackal
I wish I was scary tbh, I'm your average ugly white boy who gets bullied a bit t...
then i dont know ya
thats good to know😝
frigid lodge
then i dont know ya
Indeed.
wooden oxide
FOR NOW?!
manic jackal
rip to us both
wooden oxide
Watch your back.
NO WAY I AM NOT GETTING KILLED BY SOMEONE
manic jackal
Watch your back.
this shit would send me to a psyc ward
frigid lodge
WHAT HAPPEND WITH ME?!
You are socially unstable, you'll meet fate sooner than later if I don't intervene.
manic jackal
You are socially unstable, you'll meet fate sooner than later if I don't interve...
what does that mean🤨
wooden oxide
this shit would send me to a psyc ward
YES BC I AM ALREADY PARANOID SO THIS ISNT HELPING
manic jackal
my english isnt englishing atm
wooden oxide
LIKE I AM LAYING IN THE PITCH BLACK IN MY ROOM RN DUDE BACK OFF
manic jackal
i dont even know what he said, guess im safe😝
frigid lodge
what does that mean🤨
To explain it, you have hyperlink deiteresim.
manic jackal
You are socially unstable, you'll meet fate sooner than later if I don't interve...
WDYM IF YOU DONT INTERVERE
if i die then i die
idc
manic jackal
To explain it, you have hyperlink deiteresim.
bro is a walking add
frigid lodge
WDYM IF YOU DONT INTERVERE
Fate will come soon either way.
manic jackal
To explain it, you have hyperlink deiteresim.
tf is this
frigid lodge
tf is this
idfk I just made it up lmao
manic jackal
LIKE I AM LAYING IN THE PITCH BLACK IN MY ROOM RN DUDE BACK OFF
REAL
frigid lodge
lowkey lame
I've heard that too many times, be unique with insults
manic jackal
I've heard that too many times, be unique with insults
nah its not worth the energy
im sorry but why do all polish girls have blode hair and brown eyes?!
wooden oxide
im sorry but why do all polish girls have blode hair and brown eyes?!
now that you say it.. most do
although i know a polish girl with bright blue eyes and bright ginger hair
manic jackal
now that you say it.. most do
EXACTLY
wooden oxide
all natural
manic jackal
like i talk to a friend of my starfish
frigid lodge
im sorry but why do all polish girls have blode hair and brown eyes?!
Polish people are beef on sticks imo
manic jackal
AND SHE LOOKS LIKE ANOTHER FRIEND OF HER
now she send her crush
AND THEY ALL LOOK ALIKE?!
manic jackal
although i know a polish girl with bright blue eyes and bright ginger hair
crazy
wooden oxide
Polish people are beef on sticks imo
is this a insult
manic jackal
is this a insult
i think so?
wooden oxide
i think so?
idk i am so confused by him 😭
frigid lodge
is this a insult
Yes
frigid lodge
what is the insult supposed to be, my brain isnt working
Idk tbh, my brain never works
I'm a peanut on legs
manic jackal
idk i am so confused by him 😭
real
manic jackal
Idk tbh, my brain never works
wooden oxide
wait you just made a insult but you don't know what you meant with the insult
manic jackal
wait you just made a insult but you don't know what you meant with the insult
BHAHAH FR?!
frigid lodge
wait you just made a insult but you don't know what you meant with the insult
Yes.
I'm a peanut on legs.
manic jackal
weve seen that
frigid lodge
🥜
🦵
manic jackal
wow
manic jackal
inspirational
😭
frigid lodge
inspirational
I'm glad you think so
manic jackal
it is 12 rn
alright goodnight!
warm otter
<@1087906771424784454> what you mean purple doesnt exist🤨
I said what i said
wooden oxide
alright goodnight!
goodnightt!
manic jackal
I said what i said
it exists tho🤨
warm otter
The color purple is a psyop
frigid lodge
anyways ima go to sleep i think idk
Goodnight random person
manic jackal
The color purple is a psyop
nah ah, its an amazing color
you just havent seen the right purple
manic jackal
Purple isn’t on the light spectrum
many colors arent😭
warm otter
A hallucination
manic jackal
A hallucination
damn
warm otter
many colors arent😭
Plaid is special mkay
manic jackal
have been delulu all my life
manic jackal
Plaid is special mkay
plaid?
manic jackal
Also all colors are on the light spectrum lol (except plaid)
really?
manic jackal
Also all colors are on the light spectrum lol (except plaid)
thats a patern
what are you on
manic jackal
a little pink starfish🤭
warm otter
BRUH
manic jackal
plaid
manic jackal
Straight up
no?!
manic jackal
A color
are you okey?
any substences that you took a little too manyo ff?
to much meds?
anything?
🤨
warm otter
The holy Bible is all i consume
Speaking of
You do any Christian things recently
Praying
manic jackal
The holy Bible is all i consume
i wanted to make a joke but nvm😝
warm otter
i wanted to make a joke but nvm😝
Angry npc emoji
manic jackal
bu t like thats besides the point
manic jackal
Angry npc emoji
😭
warm otter
arguble still a sin💀
Bruh what
manic jackal
Bruh what
its gay love😝
so like some will be mad
i lowkey love making those people mad
its fun to argue with them especially cuz 9/10 times they dont have strong arguments, so they just get mad about nothing just to win
warm otter
Idk if we’ve been over this before, but i don’t think there’s really enough biblical reasoning for either side
manic jackal
Idk if we’ve been over this before, but i don’t think there’s really enough bibl...
real
but people will get mad either way
they just use God for hate and then its okey
they clearly need to read that bible again
warm otter
its gay love😝
Okay but like
Nothing s*xual i hope? Relationships dating fine, but keep room for Jesus
manic jackal
Okay but like
Nothing s*xual i hope? Relationships dating fine, but keep room fo...
first of WHAT second no, just flirting
its long distance again😝
God knew we would be good of a couple to be together
manic jackal
Ok keep the flirting PG15 plz
BHAHAHAHA
warm otter
The other day
manic jackal
The other day
tell me about me it
manic jackal
Ok keep the flirting PG15 plz
(this is lowkey funnier cuz im listing to oxytocin rn)
warm otter
Bruh i saw an image and it reminded me of you but i can’t remember what the image was
Lemme look thru my images closet
Closer
manic jackal
Bruh i saw an image and it reminded me of you but i can’t remember what the imag...
you think about me🤨
creepy (jk)
manic jackal
Lemme look thru my images closet
okey haha
warm otter
BHAHAHAHA
You laugh but i did some Jesus unapproved activities at 15 and highly regret it
Save adult activities for adult she’s
Ages *
manic jackal
Save adult activities for adult she’s
WHO SAID I WAS PLANING ON DOING THAT?
imma wait till 16 for kissis
manic jackal
NO WAIT NO
YOU GOT IT?
manic jackal
german
french
polish
and
english
warm otter
NOT YOUR ENGLISH SKILLS LMAOOOOO
manic jackal
Because you asked that person to ship internationally that one fine
you mean for the vinyl
manic jackal
NOT YOUR ENGLISH SKILLS LMAOOOOO
WHATS THAT SUPOSE TO MEAN?
im sorry but i can speak better english then most people in my class
warm otter
german
french
polish
and
english
POLSKA
manic jackal
(most of the times i know that i can say a sentence better but im just too lazy to rewrite it ngl)
warm otter
you mean for the vinyl
Yeah
manic jackal
Sigh
dont sigh at me, im a 14 year old girl who doesnt have responsibility's
im saving up tho
warm otter
Wait
manic jackal
for more merch
manic jackal
Soooo what happened to the praying
i stopped
warm otter
Last we talked like a year ago i could have sworn you said at least like 15
manic jackal
Last we talked like a year ago i could have sworn you said at least like 15
NO?
(i mightve)
whoops
but no i think ive told you im 14
(dc please dont ban me, im just a girl)
manic jackal
I think you did
i dont think so, i only lie to wierdos
warm otter
But go pray
manic jackal
i dont think youre a wierdo
manic jackal
I will be departing this conversation now
😔
manic jackal
But go pray
i might
manic jackal
IT IS LITTERALYT MULTIPLE COLOURS
EXACTLY
manic jackal
Today idk felt a little down wasn't sure if she really liked me anymore yk, I asked her (I hate asking stuff like that) and idk she told me like 'girl my heart is beating so fast right now' and 'I made a voice message today to my friends telling them how happy I was that you won your matches'
manic jackal
Lowkey want to get this
manic jackal
OMG OMG OMG OMG9MG
MY FAVORTIE ARTIST
Sofia isella
WILL BRING A NEW SONG OUT JAN 24TH
She posted that on her private account😝
warm otter
yea imma be hitting the x button on this thread but you can ping me if smthn goes down
final reminder- pray without ceasing
manic jackal
yea imma be hitting the x button on this thread but you can ping me if smthn goe...
What?
manic jackal
final reminder- pray without ceasing
Will do
Life hasn't been feeling real lately idk it's wierd af
In my hockey matches I felt nothing, and saw blurry
And idk just emotion seems like a foreign thing atm
I have to think really hard about how I feel. And most of the times I just lie because it's easier
Starting to loose faith, I'm questioning of I even really believe atm. Maybe it's just the habit of believing that has me rn
It feels like I'm betraying everything tho, letting little me down once again
Stupid religions
Why can't we just decide all on one
One where people can be who they are
But no every religion has hate
Its wierd, it's never really God that drives people away it's the people in the religion
I sometimes question who will go to hell at that point
I mean it only seems fair that that's for the person who made that person feel so hated they had to leave
wooden oxide
It feels like I'm betraying everything tho, letting little me down once again
you really aren't betraying everyone
manic jackal
you really aren't betraying everyone
It feels like it tho, I've practiced Christianity my whole life basically
wooden oxide
It feels like it tho, I've practiced Christianity my whole life basically
I get it, but remember God is always waiting for you, everyone struggles with faith sometimes, you really aren’t alone
And it isn’t easy with this moment of christians because they are always hating
When they should be sharing love and care
manic jackal
I get it, but remember God is always waiting for you, everyone struggles with fa...
but what if i will never yk have faith again?
manic jackal
When they should be sharing love and care
for real tho
manic jackal
OMG OMG KMG KMG LMG KMG KMG OMG OMG OMG
THESE ARE THE SONGS
YES
OMF
WHAT
THIS IS LIKE MY DREAM SETLIST
wooden oxide
Well the school day atleast
yay! good jobb
manic jackal
yay! good jobb
Yess
manic jackal
When she looks so good you gotta hit her with this
Why are people unliking🤨
What did I do to you🤨
Is my life looking too good rn🤨
The way she may come across my journal lowkey scares me👉👈
wooden oxide
The way she may come across my journal lowkey scares me👉👈
who is she? the situationship?
manic jackal
who is she? the situationship?
Yes😭
manic jackal
is she in this server??
Yes😝
manic jackal
I Invited her before I thought about the server further then the fun people💀
manic jackal
when like my lowkey favorite artist (she's behind finneas and billie duh) drops a snippit of her new song (i started to cry)
ITS SO GOOD
I NEED THAT SONG INJECTED ALREADY
I NEED IT LIKE NOW
''only a women has seen everything and must act like she's seen nothing'' OMG WHAT A MASTERPIECE
so like yeah
thats my day
wooden oxide
''only a women has seen everything and must act like she's seen nothing'' OMG WH...
That sounds amazing
manic jackal
That sounds amazing
It isss
manic jackal
Alsoo how are youu??
I'm not the best tbh, how are you tho??
manic jackal
wooden oxide
I'm not the best tbh, how are you tho??
awhh is there something you would want to talk about?? and im fine! just busy with school
ashen oracle
I'm not the best tbh, how are you tho??
11,918 messages is insane...
manic jackal
11,918 messages is insane...
Hihi😝
ashen oracle
Keeping my goal<:be_elmofire:908812898221060116>
Next goal is 15,000
wooden oxide
Keeping my goal<:be_elmofire:908812898221060116>
you go girl
manic jackal
Next goal is 15,000
Fr gonna get that in like 2 years dw
manic jackal
11k its only been a year
Wait what🤨