why do I feel my life belongs to someone else

[past coyote]

This person in question I mentally feel inferior to and see them as some kind of superior god, I guess also afraid of them. Ever since they left me I’ve been a nervous wreck and dissociated and can’t move on or focus on my own life, it’s like I need them here to restore balance to me. Even if they hurt me I can’t really let go and leave since I feel like I can’t. I know they don’t care for me but I feel like I’m just alone badly now. Like my life alone doesn’t have any purpose and I just go back to anxiously ruminating about them. I believe everything they say as face and am afraid they’ll take advantage of me because of that, and I feel the only changes to my emotions that can resolve how I feel is through them or their perception of me. Why am I so desperate needy of this person who left me? Please help trying to explain why my emotions are chronically anxious the way it is.

[patent dragon]

It sounds like when you were with them, they were the one that made you happy, but they hurt you as well, so maybe you clinge to them in the sense of not having met some one else yet

i would say focus on what makes you you, and what makes you happy with out them, and go from there