restive sluice
I don't know what to do anymore, nothing has going my way lately, i get scolded by teachers, i get judged by people, i get humilated and made fun of by my own dad, i kept hiding in the bathroom just to cry, i started talking back when i never wanted to, i don't know anymore, i still feel uneasy, i dont feel happy at all, my ex is still spreading rumors about me, her whole class knows that i dated her before now, they even went up to find my contact. I feel so uneasy, what did i ever do wrong? Why does it always has to be me? Am i always this lucky? I got betrayed by my own friend, i have no one to trust anymore, i got sick and i still have to do this do that, my grades aren't even good, i barely passed. I feel like suiciding, although i know that suicide isn't the right asnwer. I really don't know what to do anymore. I feel useless and hopeless. Im always left behind, i disappoint my parents. No matter what i do, i can't improve at all. What the hell even went wrong? I don't know, why am i like this? 🙁 i wanna disappear so badly. Im so stressed out, im tired everyday, im very very tired. I don't even get enough of sleep, it's either 5 hours or 4 only. I feel like hell every single day.
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