Okay honestly im not sure if im the best person to give advice, so take it with a grain of salt.
Personally I genuinely believe I own the world. Like im not sure how to explain it either, but to me, I kind of just see everyone as a side character I can choose to put in or take out at any point of my story. And if you see it that way, no matter how high of a pedestal you’ve put anyone (in this case, your senior), you kind of just realise that in the end they’re just like any other person. You are in a sense, superior, since you get to have a say in how your relationship with him goes depending on your actions + fate ofc. If u think about it he doesn’t rly have a choice.