knotty seal
my relationship ended around 1.5 months ago. it was a long distance relationship of 1.5 years, i went to go see her twice in real life before all of this ended.
she ended up cheating on me after everything i did for her. i met her family, she met mine, we hung out together a lot, were so happy together, and even after all of this she still cheated on me. but i blame myself for it a lot. i think i'm a huge part of the reason of why she cheated on me.
after she cheated on me, i thought back on a lot of things. i thought back on how i could've been better on so many things
how i shouldn't have taken out my frustration on her by accident that day
or how i shouldn't have been mad at her for losing in a 2 player roblox obby with me
all those small mistakes i made
i realized i was so horrible to her at times
but i was mostly really kind to her. i sent her gifts, gave her the love she needed, always reassured her when she needed it, played tons of games together, we laughed so much together. we had so much fun activities to do. the good things definitely overshadowed the bad things.
but now that we broke up, 1.5 months later i'm looking back at it, and i'm starting to blame myself for all of this, that she only saw the negative things and she decided to cheat on me.
does anyone have advice for me or perhaps any reassuring words?