pulsar iris
life sucks, my friends get upset over things they say I did but I don't remember, and this memory stuff was a joke at first cuz ofc forgetting a few things can be funny, but its getting serious it's not funny when I can't remember anything. people probably think I'm doing it for attention because I laugh to mask up that I'm sad, so when I realize I forgot I laugh. I don't know what to do about the whole "talk to someone about my self harm" plan because last time I did the counselor just nodded the whole time. I wish I could cut my wrist deeper than I usually do but as a Christian I know if I commit suicide I'll go to hell. everything is a dead end, my friends hate me, my family always fights, my mom is creeping me out, school is slowly getting harder to stand, the urge to cut us getting worse, I wanna die I can't barely even feel emotions anymore
rotund leaf