My mother left us shortly after she gave birth to me and we've been mooching off my grandmother most of my life. The trauma and abuse stunted my emotional development and it got to the point where I honestly don't feel anything, like I'm completely empty all the time. Even when I know I should be sad about something, it's like I just... don't care anymore. I have to wear a mask everyday and pretend to be normal and its exhausting. I don't think I'm depressed because I still have moments of occasional short-lived joy and I still have the energy to get through my day and do my job effectively.
I find it difficult to interact with people without seeming like a creep due to being so emotionless, so my question is how have you guys gotten past your trauma? Could you give me any tips in the right direction?