Mindfulness changing my relationship with my best friend

[hardy merlin]

Hello Everyone,

I started practicing mindfulness and ACT with my therapist 6 months ago after a chaotic period where I lost my dog of 13 years, and my other dog became paralyzed waist down due to disease, I have dealt with a breakup, and 2 failed graduate courses due to these events. Mindfulness has brought me back from a dark state of mind where I hated literally everyone. Now as the fog clears, it feels like I’m losing my best friend who was my only supporter during my down period. Idk what to make of it to be honest but my first instinct is to think that the new me offends him in some way although he’ll never admit it. I used to be grandiose with intensity behind everything I did. Now I’m more calm and decisive, and I’m beginning to wonder if I’ve become boring. Idk can anyone relate to something similar? It’s been tough, I’ve lost a lot this year and I definitely didn’t want to lose my best friend. But we might be there I guess.

I honestly have broken out into overthinking to find fault on anything I did. And looking back at everything, I didn’t really emotional dump which is a big no no. I think the only thing that changed is that I became more interested in him and began taking a bigger interest into finding out about his life and thoughts bc I wanted to be a better friend. Perhaps I overdid it, and perhaps bc I had to fill many voids I bothered him for too long idk. This guy is basically my clone and my best pal, but the difference is, I feel like mindfulness liberated me and my connections to different people is off the charts, but it almost feels like I’m leaving a soldier behind.

The only other thing I could think of is I probably showed too much appreciation by sending nice texts thanking him for being a great friend. Maybe it became much idk, or maybe I’m just destined to move on and find a new group of people