I live in a dung-hole and it's making my life worse. (If I swear I'm sorry)

[rancid yarrow]

Part I. Isolation
I live in a village with less than 100 people. Although we do have somewhat frequent public transportation (once every 30 minutes) it starts quite late and ends relatively early (last bus to my place is at 6:25 PM). It costs far to much to drive here (even getting the drivers license) and the bus has a major impact on friendships, work, education and almost all aspects of life.

Maintaining friendships has become near impossible for me. In order for me to meet up with my friends (who all live relatively close to one another) I must travel a little over 1 and a half hours to our usual meeting point, this means on average if I meet my friends one day I must spend around 3 hours just travelling to and fro and with the bus times being so restrictive often times when we do meet I can only join them for 1-2 hours before I have to leave to make it home on time and not get stranded. My friends often don't want to come visit me because they don't think it's fair for all of them to travel 3 hours to meet me in the middle of nowhere when I could instead meet all of them and at least get something to eat (a sentiment I completely agree with). Since moving here the most anyone besides my mother and I have visited in twice. It's now gotten to a point where my friends often don't invite me to activities because they know I won't be able to stay long and don't bother.

Work is also nearly impossible. Obviously in such a small village there's no work in-village and so I must travel for work. The last job I had (waiter) ended up ending after only two shifts because it just wasn't worth the money for me. not only did I have to commute 5 hours a shift (2.5 hours one-way) but I ended up getting home so late the only option for me was an overpriced taxi. When accounting for all forms of public transportation roughly 50%-60% of my wages were eaten by transport alone and I didn't feel the remaining 40%-50% was worth the stress and hassle. Although this job was a rather extreme example of how I can't find work here I have similar issues with other jobs.
My solution to the work-issue was to try get a job where I could function online. I don't live in an English-Speaking country so naturally gravitated towards online teaching / tutoring jobs for English as I'm a native speaker (but I also looked into other tutoring jobs and sectors). Sadly every single time I found a job I was qualified to do I was rejected on the basis of having too poor an internet connection (I will get into later, just know it's BAD). Because of this I have no money to move out, get a drivers license, go do stuff with friends or anything really

[rancid yarrow]

These issues is also what's currently preventing me from being able to get Therapy. Not only can I not afford a therapist but even if I could visiting them would be near on impossible due to time schedules and how far away it is. I legitimately feel so isolated being here but have no way out