hi , my names noah and this is about an injury i suffered at the end of last year. i am going into my second year of college and i also play baseball for my school. i was supposed to start as a freshman but during an exam i had at the start of this year i realized i slightly tore my UCL and was unable to play in the season. i’ve never particularly been good at anything besides video games and sports so i take a lot of pride in it. but this long break away from baseball has made me realize that it was the only thing keeping me from falling apart. i haven’t talked to my dad ever since he left when i was 12 (19 now) and me and my mom have hardly any contact whether it’s a check up or a special occasion. i live out of state from my family and i’ve been in physical therapy for a few months now. i won’t be able to play till january of next year , but all this downtime from baseball made me realize that without it i’m really not all that special , i’ve been trying and trying to find other purposes in life but i can’t seem to grasp one , i would like a relationship but feel as im too nonchalant from being heartbroken in the past and everything with my family that i don’t even bother. does anybody have any advice on how to find yourself again ? i feel like im the type to be really dependent on someone else and when there’s no one there to depend on , i feel like i’ll lose myself at any moment.
#I feel lost after i tore my UCL
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keen siren
Having a talent isn’t a bad thing. It’s part of what makes you different from others, in a way.
I understand you seem to have a bit of a heavy attachment towards baseball, however. While yes, you shouldn’t endorse of having such an attachment, don’t say that you’re not special. Nonetheless, you should also work on diffusing that heavy attachment. Distance yourself from it, keep your mind off baseball. Focus on other things.
You are special, in your own way. You don’t need multiple talents to succeed or be original, because we’re all human. Outside of our abilities and skills, we are people with completely different thoughts, characteristics, and such on. What’s so bad about playing baseball? Yeah, you’re good at it, and you enjoy it.
Anyway, why not go for a more casual relationship? Just something simple. Try work towards a close friend or something, if you feel like you’re not all too concerned about romance right now.
Finding yourself can take a long time, actually. Because people change all the time. But, explore your identity. Find hobbies that aren’t video games or sports, like art, photography, etc. There are various things you can occupy yourself with. Music, your pet peeves, likes and dislikes… Take this small break as a chance to approach something new.
Oh, yeah! I think having a pet might do you good, if that’s possible. If you want company, a dog or a cat could work. Hamster, etc.
Sorry about your injury by the way, hope you recover soon !
unique root
hi , my names noah and this is about an injury i suffered at the end of last yea...
Hi Noah. I don't really know how to reach a conclusion from your situation without sharing mine, so I hope this helps. Around 2019 when covid begun I was abruptably taken away from my only (as I considered back then) personality trait aside from being a high achiever because of my parents, my life engine as I used to call it, volleyball. It not only made me feel like I had a big goal ahead of me but also that I was truly needed in place that was not my home. I tried working out at home but gave up completely as I couldn't experience the feeling of coming from training and being satisfied with my legs hurting or the grace of being part of a team, I was totally hopeless you could say watching videos constally and missing it. After covid finished I got back to it as happy as ever, but now that I'm about to go to a college that requires a lot of my time I as athlete can't live without constally living on the adrenaline of working for something, to compete, to feel the ball in my hands(don't think none of us can), but then again I realize my burning love for it was at some point toxic, feeling like my daily work wasn't worth did not feel great. After all the rambling of me, I would really suggest finding a goal even if it's little but daily or in long term periods(because that's what we live off) and lastly don't let this time go to waste, your not done yet, you said you playing again in january, sports are also and relay a lot in mental strength, this is a test, take it or leave it, learn new techniques to practice later, eat healthy and take this as a good rest