losing my love | The Therapy Center | Page 1

About a day or two ago, my long time ex partner broke up with me. It really hurt, mostly from the perspective of not knowing what I did wrong. Before we were like two peas in a pod, but lately she didn’t feel like herself. I wanted to ask and talk to her but she was never clear and open to me. I got scared and thoughts took place in my mind of what I did as little as taking too long to speak or talking a certain way. We were long distance as it is but we made it work, occasionally seeing each other irl when we had the chance and it was amazing but stuff in her changed. She wanted more affection, she wanted more time to talk and more effort. With me, it’s hard to express my feelings and this relationship was a new experience, I’ve had others but not one that I cared so deeply for. Problems with her also occurred, trauma from her past relationships, issues with her family, disorders she had, I tried my best to be there for her, I never denied her feelings or belittled anything she told me, I was there for her 100% of the time and when I couldn’t I would try my best to get whatever I was doing over with and straight to her. She broke up with me because she didn’t want to be in a relationship where I gave her love but she didn’t give any back and I understood but it didn’t make it any better. The feeling of doubt in us were new for her so how is it good to judge our relationship when her mind wasn’t 100%.
I learned so much from her, how it love myself, how to take compliments, how to find myself attractive. So much self love I felt from this one person but now she’s gone, those feelings flushed away from my body and all I see now is a hideous mess that feels like a mess up even though I tried my best for her

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