rapid hinge
Basically i dated this girl long distance for 2 years she is my person ive never loved someone so much and have it returned back so genuinely. We broke up in the beginning of june bc we had the argument phase and the distance was too much so we agreed to split until we can date irl next summer.
I have bipolar disorder, and the break up was REALLY hard for me. First i was in a severe depressive episode, my guy bsf stayed over almost everyday bc i couldnt be left alone or else itd get really bad. But eventually that depressive episode switched to manic and i made some regretful choices i need help getting out of.
When i got into my manic episode i impulsively slept with my guy bsf tbh i dont even know why and i regretit sm i dont like the sex i hate kissing him, and to make it 10x times worse when we agreed it to be a fwb (friends with benefits) he confessed his love for me and then i kept sleeping with him bc he made me feel like i owed him with things he would say when wed fight abt it. I had never had sex before this so he took my virginity and i hate that sm and i hate myself for doing this to myself but im too scared or feel to bad too say no.
in between that shit i started talking to this sweet girl. i dont really need advice on her bc i have already had the "im still getting over my ex" talk withcher bc i feltcshe deserved to know.
To top this istill talk to my ex not just as a friend but romantically. as i have come out of my manic episode all i want is to fix things and hopefully eventually get back together.
I guess my main issue is how to get out of my predicament with my guy bsf. TW ||he has cut himself in front of me and dismissed me when i tried talkin abt it to him|| hes also told me i act almost identical to his mother. That in itself is just weird to me bc why are u attracted tocsomeone who reminds u of ur mother, and idk if this adds to that point but me and her are both gingers too 😭 idk tho please give whatever advice u have