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i need help for love reasons:
heyyy i’m back, for those who’ve i’ve interacted with one on one thank you so much for helping me. this is a different problem though, not as huge as my accident but it’s something i’m trying so hard to let go of but can’t seem to find a way to situate. I work at a pool as a cashier in the snack bar within my pool facility and there is a lifeguard i talked to for a little bit (about a week) like i got his number and everything and he was so nice, he genuinely seemed interested in me as i was him. he’s ask me questions about myself, what my favorite things were, he’d compliment me and say such nice things about me. the only thing that threw me off is how he never ever talked to me at work. let me add that another coworker who i’m friendly with i’d oddly friendly with him, she has a boyfriend too so that’s why i’m thrown off. but recently i messaged him and just mentioned like ‘hey if you don’t like me the way i do you just tell me now cuz you seem to avoid me a lot but show great interest in messages and it’s confusing me. i don’t want to be less on anymore.’ he replied and said that we should just stay friends. it’s going to sound horrible of me but i just think that its awful, the nerve he has to lead me on and expect to be friends again — it made me so upset and infuriated. so i wallowed and did that and then i got over it, i’ve been avoiding him ever since but that’s not what this post is truly about. it’s the fact the girl i mentioned earlier (that has a significant other) seems to want me away from the lifeguard dude — we both talked and discussed he probably has a little thing for her due to unmentioned events but it’s just the fact she’s not making it clear to him that she’s dating him. it’s beginning to drive me crazy because i still have a love for him that’s incomparable to any other. here’s the conclusion:
- i wish he gave it a chance rather than just a week and dissing me
- i wished he had told me he wasn’t looking for anything or couldn’t guarantee anything so i could expect disappointment
- i wish my coworker could emphasize my feelings more towards the guy
my final question for the people of this server is:
Q1: is there anything i can say to my coworker? like in a way i can sit down and just let her know how i feel about her actions?
Q2: what do i do about lifeguard bro, i want to talk to him again and ask if he’d be open to revisiting another shot but I don’t think it’s appropriate after i just blew up on him.
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