I feel like I should end myself

[hearty thorn]

1.I feel like I'm worthless
I feel like if I die no one will care

2.I'm depressed everyday even if I do something that makes me happy
A lot of things give me depression like school toxic relationships and many more

3.I fake who I really am
I fake who I really am cause I'm scared I will get make fun off

4.I have a toxic brother
My brother always hurts me in every single way physically and mentally. When my mom is around he acts soo sweet.

5. My family is kinda mean to me
   Everytime I show them a score I got they always compares it to others

6.People Bullying me
People bully me for my appearance and how sensitive I am

7.Trauma
Trauma always happens to me physically and mentally

8.Being an outcast
In my school there are groups But I ain't a part of any

9.I like being alone then with anyone
Idc if people think about me

10.people
People say I'm fine, people say I'm okay, but inside I'm dying

11.suicide thoughts
I always think "maybe if I die none will be there, maybe all my friends would just laugh, maybe everyone will just jump of happiness"

Someone please help me

[blazing flax]

please dont kys im sure there is some one who u will meet who loves/wants to be friends cuz of your personality

[craggy jackal]

Hey, it's totally okay you feel this way. Don't take drastic action though.
All of these things are probably true, and you feeling depressed is not helpful to go through this. You can ask for help. Is there any teacher at school you really like and feel comfortable with? Or an aunt or something?
Reach out to someone irl. Even your mom is okay if you feel safe to.