hard stag
i hate this man with a burning passion when i was younger like age 5-11 he used to call me slanina and that is a pork which is more fat then meat. also i remember he would say "you promised you would clean up your room/after you finished cooking" what about when you promised that you were going to change? when i was like 6 years old idk but around then my parents were going to divorced my dad lived with some other people but my dad moved back in because i was crying so much. i remember my mother telling me that hes not going to stay for long so i need to enjoy his stay, it has been years and i think hes been here a little too long. my first pet, joy i loved her so much and i still do, one day when i was 5 he was about to leave for work and he said "joy doesnt like the house, say goodbye to joy" so i pet her and my dad put her in the carrier and left for work. i now have her grandson, ashty, hes not as affectionate as joy but i still love him even though id still do anything to have joy back and i will never forgive myself or my dad for joy. because of my dad constantly fat shaming i now refuse to eat in the morning and at school, after school, the temptation to eat gets me and then i get really mad when theres no food. also i now only drink water (airup or just regular water) or diet coke. my mother made that photo for joy but never used it anywhere (the attachment) but she did put joy on a missing cat website - i looked joy up on some websites last year and i didnt see her. im still thinking that she took it down and shes on my dads side about joy. a few times my parents talked bad abt each other and i caught them having the devils tango. i have started sh and got a diagnosis for depression (taking anti depressant pills as well) because of my dad.
clever ermine
. Now, regarding your father, if he actually loves you, which most biological fathers do, than I'm pretty sure he isn't hateful only. Please, for the love of god, never take seriously bodyshaming from your father. Idk what is it with these slavic fathers, but mine did this to my sis aswell. I told her to not mind it, it is PERFECTLY NORMAL to be fat around ages 8-11 (Although I am in my best condition, when I was 10, I was a shining example of that aswell). Remember that there are always some clashes and misunderstandings in relationships. They mostly never last forever. But definitely remember, that sh is never the answer. I understand you have to somehow numb the pain by doing that, but remember, you live only once, and honestly, with that in mind, I think that life is way too short do deal with people that just let you down. If anybody in your school or in your family is actively letting you down, just distance yourself from it. Never take their words to your heart, and please, do what makes you feel best and what makes you feel right.
lost dune