#I'll never make a friend. It's impossible.

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exotic lynx Apr 24, 2023, 6:46 AM

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I know it's my fault, I'm one massive problem. But how the fuck do I fix it? The only advice I get is cliche and empty, nothing from personal experience, which makes me feel pretty fucking alone.

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Is there someone in the world who has had zero friends up until the age of almost 26, and actually gone on to have a friend? Because I can't find a single one.

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I have never been hugged, I've never loved or been loved.

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I've never felt comfortable or safe.

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I don't understand what the point of living is if I can't share any meaningful time with anyone.

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I live in an imaginary world in my head with imaginary friends because that's the only thing that'll get me through my day.

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But it's not always enough. Every now and again I realise how pathetic it is talking to myself 24/7 and get so fucking sad that I sob and scream and meltdown and hit myself and my furniture and walls.

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I'm not going to live for a very long time if this is the experience I'm destined to have.

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I'M IN AGONY

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I'M IN AGONY

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THIS HURTS TOO BAD

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I WANT A HUG

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A REAL HUG FROM SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT ME

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I always get ignored

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Always

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I'm still just fucking talking to my pathetic self

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I'm not surprised I'm not liked, because I'd detest anyone like me too.

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I detest myself

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I hate who I am. It's my own fault. Which makes me hate me even more.

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Even my family doesn't want me around

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I went on a family holiday recently and I decided to go home without telling anyone on a Monday and nobody noticed until Thursday.

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I'M SO PATHETIC

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I'M AN ANNOYING FUCK AREN'T I

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I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I'M DOING THIS SHIT

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I'M OUT OF CONTROL