I’ve been feeling so bad about myself lately. I feel like a failure and overthink everything. I deal with (what I’m 99.9% sure is ocd) where I think crazy things and can’t escape them (I’m currently trying to escape it right now by going on my phone at 2am) and my brain forces me to do things I don’t want to do but I can’t stop them. I also have random panick attacks sometimes about death, etc. or overthink a lot. I can’t concentrate on anything I do. I feel so alone. I hate when teachers give a few minutes of free time because there’s nobody I can talk to so I just sit there awkwardly. I sit alone during my study hall period. I’m always too anxious to speak up or talk to people so I just take what comes to me. I hate school because I feel so alone there and I’m forced to do a ton of work because my parents make me do honors classes. But I also don’t like being at home because I feel alone there too and still have to do work. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong and why im so different from everyone else (I’m the wrong way). It feels embarrassing typing all this but I don’t have anyone I can talk to in real life
#life
fathom cobalt
fathom cobalt
Aw 🫂 I'm sorry you feel like something is wrong with you. I've felt that way a lot of my life. It's not fair that people's comfort is always the last priority, making us feel like something is wrong with us when we're actually just human beings (and not robots.)
wicked frost
wow, this feels like you’re describing me. just know you’re not alone as i go through the SAME thing. today i just had a whole panic attack. i’m thinking about going to therapy soon and i’m on medication. maybe u should try too? maybe it will help u get through & learn how to manage ur emotions better.