hey. just so you know, i dont need cliche advice. ive heard it all, ive tried seeking help and reaching out to my friends and family. im waiting for better days but they never come. im thinking about committing suicide either by falling or stabbing myself in major arteries or in the neck sometime this week.
i really dont want to make everyone feel guilt. i love my girlfriend, family, and friends all so much. and i know they care about me. i wish i could just "check out" on life. like i never began to exist. what do i even do?