I need some advice. It's been a couple of years since this began, but I began hating myself due to trauma. I thought that no one would ever have any sort of relationship with me because of who I was (my true personality). This continued for a few years and it worsened over time. I lacked confidence and adjusted my fake personalty. I started to blame myself and have dark thoughts that led me to many mental breakdowns. I kept thinking that I was not good enough and soon enough I found myself becoming suicidal. Because of this I lost some precious friends. I want to be better. I don't think I can ever be friends or be in a relationship unless I become better. I was wondering if anyone knew how to start loving themselves.
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arctic smelt
You have to stop it with the "Im not good enough" or the "Its my fault" Or the "if only i was better" thoughts. Thats a start, and another great start is to accept who you truely are. You are a human being with feelings and emotions. You matter and just like every human we make mistakes, fail, fall, but its what we do after these hiccups that make us strong. We choose to get up. In order to Love yourself you must believe in yourself, believe that you can be lovable, caring, and that you do matter! No need to keep a fake personality. Begin this new year by throwing that faker in the trash. Start this new year with a new you and be the person you want to be, so stop torturing yourself over pleasing those around you with something fake. Friends will come and go but those that stay are true friends and those that leave you when you need them the most arent friends. Whatever heavy burden you carry, I hope you let go and live. Whatever it was please understand that if you want to improve youll have to lessen this burden. Ask for help from those you trust, start journaling, take walks, learn a new skill, anything that you enjoy doing. The important thing here is not to use them as escpaes but ways to help you keep going. I hope this helped, I tried my best because I was in your shoes not to long ago. So please, I hope you continue to live so that one day you can see yourself happy