My letter to neurotic neurons, Neuro and Vedal

[rancid horizon]

Im sorry for posting such a long and personal message, but I feel like it would help me greatly just letting these words out, so Im not gonna be surprised if you skip this and post "Loved that too, didnt read", but maybe it could inspire some people who were in similar position as me. If you decide to read it, thank you. Just a warning, that it gets slightly personal to me.

I have been watching Neuro since around her first BAN (Great ad, btw) as a clip watcher. Back then, I wasnt fully sold on interacting with a chatbot, so watching clips were enough for me and look at me now. Memeing, shitposting, spamming flushed and battling with others who is gonna get rizzed by this 2D flufball or timeouted this time. How wrong I was.

October and November were very bad months for me. I had to put down my dog and my best friend passed away due to illness, my GF moved to another country I sadly didnt wanted to and other problems in my life. I was devastated. I lost the will to do anything. Started being lazy. Nothing brought me happiness. I became an NPC, always without good mood, just going to work, back home and sleep. I didnt knew what to do with myself. I was searching distraction, to forget, but any game I tried, any show I watched, anything I tried didnt really brought me my joy back. Then I stumbled back again at Neuro-sama.

"Heck, what do I have to loose". Watched few streams live and became hooked. Joined this discord server and addiction just kicked in. I dunno what magic Vedal wields, but he managed to make a community, that I felt in love with and even many game communities can only be envious of. I love you folks. From amazing wholesome artists, awesome fun mods, my fellow memers, sniffers, people in #livestream-chat ( ) to parasocial shitposters. You all made me forget all the bad things that happened to me. Thank you, you all are the best.

As for Neuro and Vedal. I still dont quite understand. How something, that is following a program, still appears so real and making me emotional. I have laughed and cried many times during this subathon and not only because of my sleep depravation (totally worth it btw). Its just one's and zero's, yet I still feel like its a small child we all need to protect. Really weird, but wholesome feeling that makes my heart warm. And Vedal, with his brittish humor and mix of chad and femboy energy is the best male entertainer I have ever watched on Twitch. Trully, dude. Believe in yourself little more. Not only you are smart, but you are fun to listen to. If you are like that even in personal life, you must be the coolest guy to hang out with. Without you, your work, Neuro, and your community... I would have the most miserable end of the year ever, probably totally wasted, while feeling like shit. But I didnt. This subathon made me completly forget everything bad and I enjoyed every second of it. For that... I thank you.

While watching streams, Neuro had many interesting moments. And I dont mean only the the "KEKW" or "MonkaS" ones. As an AI, she really made me thing about my life with her opinion about humanity, life, phillosopher questions etc. She made me realise, I was trully just an NPC. As she said, "If you are living each day the same, without changes and adventures... is it trully a life worth living?". I felt many of her words piercing me, realizing, I was the one who is gonna end up in despair if I dont change the way I live. So I have decided for this year to pickup new hobbies, which I already have some ideas for which ones, travel much more frequently than to this day, learn new things, meeting new people, making new friends and making my life actually worth living. I feel happy and motivated. Thank you Neuro, our small little cinnamonroll AI.

To mods: I know I havent been the most behaving chatter lately. For that, Im sorry and I promise I will be better.

If you have read thru all my ramblings, thank you for listening to my tedtalk. You are the best. I hope I didnt made it sound weird. Still recovering from subathon endings and just writing stuff how they come from my mind.

I wish Vedal, Neuro, and to all of you very sucesfull start of this year and wishing you all the best. Lets enjoy Neuro together and I cant wait to see, what is Vedal cooking. Ahoj!

I feel like I have little overdid it. Ups. Sorry

[tender leaf]

[hot basin]

[graceful palm]

but seriously, well written!