Inktober Day #9

[vale meadow]

Nice nice, ima focus more on shading, since I its literally one of my lowest level skills

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👍that’s a good goal

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One more cool thing though,

I found that as I understand more, the face construction becomes more, hmm, I guess special?

Like, its like im seeing more and drawing the same thing

Its a completely different feeling

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That feeling is magical. Things slowly coming together n starting to make sense in context to other stuff you’ve learned

Lotta dopamine lotta serotonin

[vale meadow]

Imlied

This was a bad resource

The only thing I can get from this is some references for later study

Andrew loomis is still the goat for heads

[vale meadow]

Now actually going in and doing it, the loomis method doesn’t quite work for me, its good, but I dont feel as comfortable as with the Riley method, ik a lot of pll already say it, but I feel like the best way is a combination of the two

[vale meadow]

Yea, using rhythms with the loomis is pretty good

Loomis gives foundation, while Riley gives Structure

These are actually really small though, so I can’t actually shade anything, ill start drawing bigger

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Spend them pages😤😤😤😤

[vale meadow]

The reason I started drawing small at first was b/c I felt like my art was too bad to take up too much space in my sketchbooks, like on copy paper, I would make them huge, but now I know I need to draw bigger

The thing is, I have built up a habit of drawing small

So now i need to break it

[vale meadow]

This going to be a grind

I feel like I went back to all those years ago to the time I was a wittle lad

[vale meadow]

On another note, I tried to make some of my own rhythms, and I think it could actually work,

But, this face just threw me off so much

Like, the eyes especially, I wanna redo this one later down the line though

Im prob ganna have to watch some tutorial vids as a crutch, idk if thats allowed tho

[vale meadow]

Also, I def wont do this all 25 days

Its jus like, I have no experience drawing from photos of real pll

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Use the crutch if you need it for sure

I I find my goal w this challenge

Which is to try some new painting techniques. Capturing exact likeness will tkae a little bit of a backseat

I think allowing some room for compromises is good if it allows more focus on your goal

[vale meadow]

Yea, I don’t exactly wanna get exact likeness (for now), its more abt shading, but I can’t exactly shade a dysfunctional drawing

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True true

Balance n whatnot

[vale meadow]

@green horizon

Ima be off discord for awhile, but ill still do the challenges everyday, ill come back in like 3-4 days

Ill update my Pinterest board most likely tho

Cuz ill have to organize my references again

Im pretty sure Pinterest also has a message feature, so if you ever or someone else ever gets the need to message me for some inexplicable reason,

U can go there

But uhh, I guess my blog is going to be inactive for awhile

https://tenor.com/view/toilet-bound-hanako-kun-tsukasa-yugi-disappear-smile-anime-gif-16583534

[vale meadow]

Ok, im back

This was yesterday, I think I see my problem

Im trying way too hard to think about the end result and not go through the process, the best way I can put it is, like you say, I’m too lost in the sauce, I look at the face, then I try to recreate it, and I use less guidelines and place less structure

Two of them I did from a photo, one of them I did from a drawing, and the one in the top right I did from a video

The one from the video actually took around the dame time or even shorter than the other ones, mainly b/c I was doing it fast, but this reinforces the idea that im just good at copying, and not drawing

Got to work on that

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You should also be drawing bigger. It’s easier to measure proportions out when you have more room

[vale meadow]

Yea, I also added a lot of stuff to my Pinterest page, might use them as reference later

I actually found quite a lot of good stuff

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[vale meadow]

Uhh, I didn’t manage to get in the heads today, ill jus do 8 tmmrw, I spent most of the time doing full figures

Which I am still doing, the higher I get the more I see, the more I see, the more I know I dont know

[vale meadow]

This has caused me to constantly consider my art trash (ngl, my portraits r actually trash), and im trying to get better

Like, figures r sum I like a lot, so I cant have them bein trash

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That’s basically hitting the pit of the dunning kreuger effect

It sucks to realize “damn ion got it like that fr fr” but mesmerizing to see just how much potential there is out there

[vale meadow]

Yea, im literally watching the same videos I have watched ten thousand times before, and learning new stuff from it

Its so, whats the word…uhh, the world is just big and wonderful I guess

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Yeah i get wym

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5-8

[vale meadow]

I have noticed I need new supplies

Like, I dont like how the pencil looks anymore, its fine if Im doing a very long form drawing and shading it that takes like two hours, but

Unless I do that, it doesn’t look very good at all

Ima prob go get some lead pencils, I remember then being super good, and super cheap

[vale meadow]

Theres also a few other factors that are affecting how my pencils look, but it wud take a whole minute to explain

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What kind do you currently use??

[vale meadow]

The regular school pencil I be using for years

[vale meadow]

@green horizon

Yea, I missed yet another day, but for a reason this time,

I have gotten everything in place today, and have been consistently sleeping at 12

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Even Batman needs his prep time

[vale meadow]

I was ganna say more, but paused to get my food

So, I been consistently sleeping at 12, and this is a good thing, b/c, that was literally the first step in getting down my schedule

Today started good with me waking up and doing my workout

Now ima get to doing art

In 50min

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Where does school fall in this schedule?

[vale meadow]

From 8 30 to 1

Then I would start drawing at 1 30

Rn tho, im jus taking small steps in my schedule

The sleeping at the right time was the most important

So I did that first

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Oh i see

[vale meadow]

I actually only did it this way cuz u always be telling me to start small first

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I do be doin that

But hopefully it works. Easier to maintain consistency when it’s built up

N whatnot

[vale meadow]

@green horizon I got it

I got it

Im not going to explain what I got, nor what its affects are, but im going to have a qualitative change

Ill get those portraits out in a few hours

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say less

[vale meadow]

One down, I tried to measure the eye width by using the nose,

As you can see, that did not go so well

And it looks pretty long now that I take another look, on to the second though

[vale meadow]

I guess I need to start measuring the fifths of the face

Its like, I usually just try to look for a shortcut instead of doing that, but I need to start doing it so it can become intuitive later

[vale meadow]

Was planning to do this in five min, took a whole hour

Its a portrait now, got to work on my symmetry, on to three

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[vale meadow]

Three and four, massive quality drop b/c it was getting pretty dark and I sped through, also I was doing them without any assistance, unlike the last two

Ima go work on figures now

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My 4 for today. I hate them all in different amounts for different reasons

Also ditching all my rules. Just reach 100 is my new rule set

[vale meadow]

Every one of them is better than whatever this is

I think that wud be better as well, cuz I missed like three days already, so now we jus going to 100

Ill say these were the first 4

[vale meadow]

Bridgeman is as confusing and as enlightening as ever

The thing I say I messed up the most here is the leg, the first time I brought it way too far back, then I brought it in too far

[vale meadow]

The thing about studying Bridgman, I probably spend just as much time studying the drawing as I do copying it, which is actually a very fast way for improvement

I also just noticed, I have everything way off

I need to basically push everything thats not the ribcage forward

There are still a lot of issues, but I feel like I extracted what I wanted from this, so now ima move on, this is basically how I study Bridgman

I also read all the text, but there isn’t much rn, its just a ton of drawings

[vale meadow]

“As you can see it looks like someone is pushing down on the graph, compressing it”, no, no it does not

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I feel like bridgman is one of those resources people come across early

But only start to really understand it once they come back after a while

The three masses thing and the concept of rhythm he talks about are excellent

[vale meadow]

I actually didn’t do any bridgman until like a month ago

Its hard to say if it would have been beneficial if I would have started using his stuff sooner though

[vale meadow]

Finally got on duolingo and started the jap course

One thing that’s different from what I thought is

The u in Desu is silent

Or at least, from the pronunciations I have heard, they all say des

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If you listen to some convos, songs, or dialogue while watching something, you’ll hear that in most words that end in su, the u is silent

Though in songs, you’ll hear more of a mix since it helps with sound

[vale meadow]

The one thing I like a lot abt Bridgman is that (i think I heard this bfor too) his lines are straight, but somehow still curvy when they need to be

My drawing’s obviously dont show that very well, but it adds to the form of the drawing a lot

[vale meadow]

I thought I said this, but I didnt now that I look again,

I just noticed how Bridgman is seamlessly using the straight vs curve

Actually, now that I compare them again, thats just me off on my own tangent

Bridgman does do that, but not really how im doing it

Which is fine, my goal isn’t to copy Bridgman, its to absorb his knowledge and make it my own

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https://tenor.com/view/one-piece-monkey-d-luffy-thinking-think-interesting-gif-20107311

The curve vs straight philosophy lets you get away with so much bs it aint even funny

I love to abuse it in magma

[vale meadow]

I getting back on my workouts

Been consistent with it for three days now

This one hit hard though, I can’t believe I used to go for a whole hour with weights and be just as tired as this

But rn, im not even doing half the work, I fell off

But I can climb back up again

[vale meadow]

My brain type, I should actually make a real blog

Dominant being Tora and secondary being Kuma

The thing is, I feel like these tests r kinda bogus, cuz

They are very general

Like, when I did nine personalitites r whatever it was, it literally got everything down to the smallest habit

Like a stalker

Let me see if I still can have my results from there

It was called 16 personalities

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I’m an ISTP on 16 personalities

[vale meadow]

My personality type is Mediator (INFP). What’s yours? https://www.16personalities.com/profiles/24f137e19103a

I didnt know it copied that as well

But thats my acc, I wish I had the thing it gave u after you just finished the test tho

It was super super detailed

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My mom is an infp

[vale meadow]

Im sorry, I read this as “my mom is an imp” the first time

I found it

All this shiz

Theres still more

This still isn’t as in-depth as the one im talking abt

But

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What does it say for negative traits?

[vale meadow]

Yea, I cant find all the other stuff

Like, it talks abt a ton more stuff I know

I jus cant find it

[vale meadow]

This is basically me tho

I cant find anything I really disagree on said here

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Go to personality types n it should have the pages for all of them

[vale meadow]

Found it

I remember looking at that paragraph before the same way I looked at it just now

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Yeah i can see that being true for sure (based on ppl ik)

[vale meadow]

These two r the only ones i dont agree with

[vale meadow]

My specific thingy above basically negates these as well

[vale meadow]

This stuff

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Yeah everything they list is usually malleable, so things that your type can struggle with may not affect you atp

Main one for that in my case would be the insensitivity. I think I’ve kinda reigned that in and can filter when i need to

[vale meadow]

This is like, maybe a year + ago tho, and it was already scary accurate, I wonder if I do it again

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That’s the flaw w this test tho

I’ve gotten many different results within a short span because my answers were only slightly different

But I’m still myself and have the same flaws as before

[vale meadow]

Lol, I just took it once

It took awhile tho

Cuz I rlly be thinkin abt the answers on these

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same

[vale meadow]

I also feel like this don’t describe u too good

Tell me if im wrong tho

[vale meadow]

This self isolating stuff doesn’t go well with me either

[vale meadow]

All this stuff is spot on tho

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All of the negative traits for my type fit pretty well or have in the past

The positives kinda sorta depends really

The last three on that side i would say yeah based on how others have described me

[vale meadow]

The most accurate way to describe you is……..

You are RC, it can’t get anymore accurate than that

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My best friend and my mom say I’m very direct

My friend says sometimes it hurt a lil bit but he knew i was right

Independent to a fault for sure

[vale meadow]

“It hurt a bit….but I can take it”

Idk if u know wer that comes from

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I don’t

[vale meadow]

I dont either

I forgot the name

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But yeah I don’t think a personality test that fits itself into neat boxes, even if it’s 16 of them, can really capture the full image of anyone

So they’re better used for introspection and self improvement than “hey this is me and this is the wireframe my whole personality works within”

[vale meadow]

This one right here def happens all the time on discord for me tho

Caused a lot of laughter and a lot of problems

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Indeed

I think the traits for my personality type are way better displayed irl than on discord. I remember a lot more of them being displayed in school n stuff

Very private person irl for example. I can name maybe 5 people max who know me know me

[vale meadow]

Well, my personality thing says it pretty well, I spend so much time alone in my own world I don’t get to do much with other pll

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On discord i share a lot though

[vale meadow]

I can name like, my family

Thats it

But they dont know me know me

They jus know me

“When he sits over there drawing, he isn’t sad, he just looks like that” etc etc

It took awhile for them to get that whenever I did that at parties and stuff

But eventually they did

Especially cuz I out my head down to draw

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🦐

But yeah 2/5 of mine are also family. N i would say they know me know me but they know different sides

If that makes sense

My best friend knows me but it’s also a different image

Maybe it’s closer to 3 than 5. 5 was generous

But i happen to think it’s beneficial for different people to know different but equal sides you

[vale meadow]

I feel like everyone has at least two sides, and its not even like wildly different

Like, if you can break through my ice cold heart, I wud def joke with u

Like how I do on discord, but irl

So far, no one has managed to do that though

[vale meadow]

I was abt to put the :ras, but that one didnt make me laugh

It was kinda, uhh whats the word, melaconic , maladramic

Sumin I would have to look up on google

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Yeah maybe a dash of melancholy innat

If you end up goin to college or getting a job you might find someone that cracks that exterior though

Or they might find you. My friend found me rather than the other way around. But that exterior, I wouldn’t even say someone knows me if that’s all they have seen

[vale meadow]

The thing is, like, its not likely anyone is, its not actually a sad thing for me though

Its like I have built walls to test those who come to me

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Wait why is it unlikely though

Oh

Well someone who really wants to can see through that. Lotta people do actually. Special ones will stick around long enough to chip away at it

[vale meadow]

This may be pretty late introspection (I think its called that), but I think im afraid of people, or sum similar

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Probably

But then you could dig further into that

What is it about people that breeds those feelings?

[vale meadow]

My first thought after I saw this message was literally “no”, but I might

[vale meadow]

Hmm, now that I think abt it more, it really feels like im not afraid of people, more like im just worried that, its not abt acceptance from anyone, but im finding the words I wanna say, I basically can’t describe the feeling

Its pretty fun tryna look into myself though

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Maybe it’s understand rather than accept?

[vale meadow]

I was abt to say maybe its more abt me accepting them instead of the, accepting me,

I dont think I care enough for anyone to understand me

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Introspection os basically an endlessly tiring chain of why questions until you can’t answer one. Then, you pick at that til you can continue the chain.

So why do you think it is unlikely that there is someone out there that you could fully accept? And what does accept even mean in this scenario?

[vale meadow]

Now that we have gone this far, I actually think there are many people out there that fit the criteria, but they are extremely hard to find, im pretty sure I can only be friends with someone I admire, believe is better than me, or is on the same level as me

So this means, one requirement is basically gone, b/c

Very few people in this world do I believe are better than me

Then, I don’t admire many people, and this is like, just admire as in “that guy is amazing, he can be a goal, a target for me”

That kind of admire, it’s unlikely I will ever meet those pll for years to come

So, the last one, its going to be extremely hard to find someone on the same level as me, someone who doesn’t scroll tiktok and works out at least five times a week

Like, basically, if im ganna be a warrior, I need a warrior as my buddy, or at least someone who is working on becoming one

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How do you know if someone is better than you or on your level if you have only seen their exterior? And better than you or on your level at what? There are an endless number of things that could mean

In motivation? In development towards their goals? In ambition? In emotional intelligence? Etc etc

[vale meadow]

All of that, I can basically just feel their energy, when a person talks to me, I said it many times before, I have a deep voice, and actually some facial hair, I am also pretty built, and I make eye contact consistently, this is basically the first barrier, I find myself also being a bit harder on strangers unintentionally,

But its not to the point were you would need to run or sum

If you cant handle that, then its a pretty good indicator already, then

I also, probably unintentionally as well, look at how people walk, like just how they hold their body and their mannerisms

I dont do it consciously, but

Actually, I have a really great example of this

So, I was outside at one point, and this guy, I think he was a friend of my cousin, he was around with some other friends etc etc, and I literally took one look at him, and I know, “dont judge a book by its cover”, but my cousin is also a good for nothing, and “birds of a feather flock together”, and I just felt when he tried to talk to me, I did not want to interact with him

It was due to dislike,

But I just ignored him and kept walking

Its like, I just really didn’t wanna interact to them, cuz that is what I felt like

Maybe im digressing, I forgot the topic

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That there may be a little different since there’s the context of your cousin, someone with presumably bad company, choosing to associate with him

But i do think letting up on that judgment would be good. For example, you would absolutely 1 million percent immediately dismiss me based on my irl body language

My eye contact is questionable. My eyes tend to look right past others or dart around. I gesture a ton with my hands or fidget a ton. Posture is garbage

All of those point to a crazy amount of insecurity that literally does not exist within me, If you talked to me though, I’m just here existin fr.

[vale meadow]

Yea, I know some people do that when I make eye contact with them, I usually try not to meet their eyes as much anymore, the most important point is the first one though

If you can’t talk to me the first time, your probably ganna be written off quickly the second time

But its the opposite if u can, but most importantly, even if you could, you would need to then be liked by me

Like, I don’t need someone talking abt how big a girls butt is

Or who is the best instagram chick they got etc etc

I would probably promptly ignore you then

And, its not even that u have to talk abt things I like, jus talk abt stuff, maybe not even interesting, but as long as I know you have a goal,

Ur on the right track with me, a goal or a lot of random deep knowledge

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Then yeah school or a job would probably get you there. Most people aren’t talking about Instagram baddies within the first convo. But also, that one and pretty much done approach is definitely not lending itself to connecting with others. Most people’s first interaction is gonna be somewhat surface level or maybe even show some hesitation since people need to warm up to others. I also don’t think most people enjoy feeling like they’re being analyzed when meeting someone (and they can definitely tell that that’s what going on a lot of the time)

Unless you take the initiative and ask them about their goals or aspirations. This is much easier if someone has a job or is going to school because there’s obviously a reason why you chose a specific major or need to make money

[vale meadow]

I feel like, its more like im internally doing all the “analyzing” tho, and yea, I prob would take the lead there

Its actually very quick in real time

Not just straight up “hey, what u wanna do for the rest of your life”, but

I would lead it there

Another thing I find very good and very bad abt myself is I have a very strong control over my mind, if I want to stay focused for three hours, I will, and it’s basically impossible for me to release emotion unless I want to

Like, no matter how angry I get, I can still think rationally, which causes me to never have outbursts, like, to have an outburst I literally need to say in my head, “lets do this”

Which is quite funny

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I’m similar n i lowkey don’t understand what happens in people’s minds when they just lose control

you can’t exactly figure that out when you can’t jump into someone’s mind lmao

[vale meadow]

We jus built different

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💀

Like when my mom is venting to me n brings up some of the stuff she says when she’s angry at her husband

I’m sitting there saying to her “…but we talked about this the other day. How did that happen??” N she’ll pretty much just say she was so angry n whatnot

Ion get it

I do but I don’t

[vale meadow]

My family does not ever vent to me, b/c they basically have this idea that I will not care, which isn’t totally wrong, but def isn’t right

Like,

Usually, im just listening, and idk, but I might have a “uninterested in everything” look on my face most of the time, so like

If they actually ever come to me with a problem, I would def listen to them, and help them, but I would not be so involved that I would be full on sad with them or sum, a little def, but

Maybe im jus a bit emotionally detached

If thats the word

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Cognitively understanding the issue and giving advice based on logic and your understanding of people’s emotions rather than how you’d respond emotionally?

[vale meadow]

Yes, I would definitely be more inclined to do sum like that

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Yup. People really like that, actually. N the split is usually something like 70:30 listening:talking

Lotta people just want someone to hear them and tell em they’re not wrong or crazy for being upset at something. N if they’re not wrong, it’s good to let em know that

[vale meadow]

7/10 times, if they were wrong, I would tell them, the last three would be me jus staying quiet

Usually tho,

The world isn’t black and white, a lot of the time, both parties are wrong, or both parties are right

Or sum like that

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True. It’s not super often that I’m telling someone they’re completely right. Usually gonna give a couple possible perspectives of the other side while telling them that it’s understandable why they might feel a way

Not that i would feel that way or that they’re right about the whole ordeal

In my mom’s case though, i do have enough insight to sometimes say “no he’s entirely wrong here after he did x, even if he may have possibly had a point when y” type sh

Since I’ve grown up hearing a lot of things and seeing stuff play out right in front of me (a lot of dumbassery where you can literally see the exact moment both parties chose to enact awful communication)

Basically

Greys exist, but even those can lean closer to black or white

[vale meadow]

I have grew up basically being one of the smartest, if not the smartest (as in grades) of all my years in school, and also the most mature, I could not connect with the “kids” so I just semi observed them sometimes, I would usually sit with the teachers and talk with them when we had free time

That experience had shaped me a lot in my younger years, because now that I look at it, I was a semi-leader, yet to me at the time, it felt like I was not part of the group at all

Which, dont get me wrong, was not a bad thing

[vale meadow]

Or, I think I said it wrong, more like, I did not attempt to get into the group, and because of this, I also vaguely felt like I was not apart of it

More like I was “superior” to it

So I could not join it

I think I explained that right

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In situations like that, it’s wayy better to move the student up at least a grade. The educational content isn’t stimulating at all, they can’t relate to other students, and they even find themselves connecting more with adults

Not as rare as it sounds

But a lot of school or parents will hold back because they think the kid will struggle to relate to older kids

Or will be bullied

[vale meadow]

It was literally just me being assigned to help everyone else in first and second grade

The teachers also let me sleep in class b/c, I literally did not need the teaching

Like, I would try to listen, but

If I feel asleep, no one would wake me up

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If you’re not being challenged, why even bother paying attention

[vale meadow]

Idk if I told u abt my teacher, Ms.Campbell, I remember on a test of hers to go from I think it was 12 to 100, we had to pick like three numbers, like just write them, and I accidentally went to 1000

She gave the test back to me, and I was like “oh”

I literally made it more difficult accidentally

Thats one of the earliest school memories I have

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Yeah again shoulda moved you up a grade

Even if you’re still not being challenged enough, you’d still benefit from finishing school a year early

[vale meadow]

I would really really really benefit from that

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Eyy @vale meadow, you just advanced to level 53!

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Some students do grow out of that though. Maybe that’s what your school was waiting for? I know I didn’t grow out of being unchallenged, but i grew out of not talking to other students when i met my friend in first grade. Hell if the student isn’t growing out of stuff like that, they usually want the kid to be evaluated or label them as a problem kid (in your case, that’d probably be caused by the sleeping, which some teachers like to interpret as disrespect)💀

I spent pre k talking to a substitute teacher’s aid. I’d be flaming the 5th graders for eating so messily at breakfast n stuff Spent kindergarten playing Kirby emulators on the computer with this other kid who liked sonic

[vale meadow]

Wtf

It was actually a problem b/c I started jus not talking to people

Like, I was still unchallenged as you said though

Idk how, but the stuff u say be spot on

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In this case, I experienced enough of a similar case (though not extremely similar) to create a picture of the situation

School does a terrible job at adapting to the fact that a large number of kids deviate from their neat packages. On both ends of the spectrum, it sucks. Multiply this by 10 if your school or even your entire school district sucks

My elementary school was ranked as one of the lowest in my district (i was sweeping tf out of them students w my scores n thas not even to sound higher than or anything)

[vale meadow]

I didn’t rlly look at my rankings, but im pretty sure my ele school wasn’t the highest

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My teachers would say it all the time

That school ended up being shut down and rebranded cuz it sucked so badly (it was probably the same after they rebranded too lmao)

[vale meadow]

I remember my ele school got……hold on

So, I remember my ele school getting shut down, but idk if it got rebranded

As I to,d u 1 million times, I do not keep up with school matters at all

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Understandable

They don’t matter at all once you leave

I do have a soft spot for my elementary school though. My 5th grade class was exclusively students that had been there since prek or kindergarten. Everyone pretty much got along

It was like 4 groups that made up the chemistry of the whole class

At the end of the year, my friend and I were just doing side quests

Walking around the school doing random stuff like helping the younger students in the computer lab n stuff

[vale meadow]

When I went to a higher level school like in 7th grade, I finally really was put to the test, cuz we were doinghs level stuff already

And everyone there didn’t need my help

Like, im ngl, there was this one girl named Rachel I think,

She prob got the lowest scores, but she was funny, and I dont think she was dumb,

She jus aint put much effort into studying, and thats another thing

I still didn’t study, a super bad habit I picked up

My teachers even reminded me a couple times

And throughout my 7-8th grade, I maybe studied 3 times

I mostly could get a b and above if I just listened and did the worked

Academic ability is great, but its also a downfall in that way

[green horizon]

Yup. Ngl there are a lotta students who cruise through elementary then fall off in middle school

Because they’re not ahead of the material anymore but still don’t know how to study

[vale meadow]

These were also my gaming years, I went home and either fell asleep right away, or got on the game then fell asleep

Aka, my peak brawlhalla years

Games prob take up like 1-2hrs of my day now, if that

I dont rlly be playing games like that anymore

[green horizon]

Probably for the better

[vale meadow]

I switched that out with reading more, which I am now trying to switch out with drawing more

But, reading isn’t like playing the same few games, you have endless worlds to explore, so its pretty hard to switch it out

I been tryin tho

[green horizon]

them webtoons had me hooked back in middle school

Getting a hobby does wonders for time wasting

Not enough wonders but wonders nonetheless

It is almost 2am

[vale meadow]

Yea, I noticed awhile ago, my bedtime was at 12 and my alarm is set at 11:59

But ur mini therapy session was very cool

So I didn’t stop it

[green horizon]

Doggone blabbermouth moment

I’ll let you go now🫡

[vale meadow]

Lol, thats too late, I already got some food and cake, im literally eating rn, and after I eat, I wait at least an hour bfor I can sleep

[green horizon]

https://tenor.com/view/kurt-angle-stare-100-yard-stare-meme-gif-251436459491629941

Horrible time to be eating

[vale meadow]

I didn’t plan it either, but when you go see food at nighttime, magical things happen

[green horizon]

True. I do have some

Apple pies lying on my night stand

So👁️

[vale meadow]

https://tenor.com/view/kermit-darkside-star-wars-evil-innerme-gif-14818845

Actually, i prob been holdin u up for awhile, so

https://tenor.com/view/toilet-bound-hanako-kun-tsukasa-yugi-disappear-smile-anime-gif-16583534

[green horizon]

https://tenor.com/view/ace-attorney-trilogy-hd-miles-edgeworth-peace-out-goodbye-chat-gif-22525790

I will eat these tho

[vale meadow]

I dont like any of these

But I dislike the last one

[vale meadow]

I think I got too lost in the sauce here, I started trying to draw more like Bridgman instead of consuming his skill to supplement my own

[vale meadow]

Math for idiots, inverse section

No literally tho, I feel like anyone can firmly grasp the concept of what an inverse is after reading this, i be doing sum good work sometimes

[vale meadow]

Zig and sharko s3 ep 16 is so funny but so real

Even though the characters dont actually say words in the show, it has a lot of significance deep down, while also being just funny

[green horizon]

Yo i used to watch that show growing up

[vale meadow]

It was basically one of the cartoons I grew up on, yea

Its just under baby looney toons in the hierarchy

[green horizon]

How’s your algebra goin?

[vale meadow]

Its not going rn lol

I finished up a bit,

But, I still have more to go, planning to do more later

[green horizon]

Oh i see

[vale meadow]

Like 16 assignments to go, I know I can do like 10 or even 12 a day if I really just zoomed through it,

But I see no particular reason to do that, simply b/c, even tho im behind, I have always been behind and its like, not actually a problem as long as I get it done by the time it needs to get done

[green horizon]

True

The school year is ending soon, so a lotta students are probably on a similar wavelength

[vale meadow]

Fu, I only put zig and sharko on for bg basically, but everytime I look up at it its funny asf

I usually jus have those hrs long drawing vids on for bg, but

Sometimes I put on zig and sharko, jus cuz I rlly like it

[green horizon]

Sounds like a vibe

A show you’ve already seen in the bg

[vale meadow]

This is why I dont use abbreviations, its already confusing and im the one who said it first, like who is suppose to know JFK is john f Kennedy with no context

[vale meadow]

Im confused on what u mean here

[green horizon]

Playing a show you’ve already seen in the background while you work sounds like a vibe*

[vale meadow]

Oh, lol, I dont actually play stuff when im working except rain videos or sum and only when its night time

I usually jus have my tv off and my stuff on do not distrurb

[green horizon]

Ohh i don’t like working in silence

Cuz instead of the bg voice in my mind only being able to default to music or wtv, it can wander n get me all types of distracted

[vale meadow]

I do like working in silence, I did like to draw while listening to music, but it seems recently that im actually better not doing that as well

[vale meadow]

If I understand this correctly, im prob the opposite, I can focus really well and bg while working jus distracts me basically

[green horizon]

Yeahh I’ve seen a lotta people on both sides

But i have music playing a majority of the time. Especially lately because YouTube content hasn’t been interesting to me lately

Unless it’s art related

Been watching dance choreography lately. It’s so fun to see how everyone expresses themselves differently

[vale meadow]

Speaking of art,

I think I have realized why I have stayed a beginner all this time, never improving. Its because I treat art like I treat algebra at least very similar, basically a lot of memorizing, and thats fine, but I also need to draw, same as I do with assignments and quizzes, I need to learn the content, then learn how to use the content

I have did very poorly on the latter

[green horizon]

Mhm. It’s easy to forget the importance of application when you absorb so much info. Taking the info and melding it with everything else you’ve learned is what pushes us forward

[vale meadow]

Imwasted 15min searching for the back piece of my charger

I remembered I ripped the actual charging part out of it like always,

I looked everywhere reasonable, and when you exhaust every possible solution, only the impossible remains

It was right there, sitting in the wall, the place I looked when I first started searching for it

[vale meadow]

I knew it,

I usually dont get in my bed until its an hour or so before I go to sleep, but today, I said to myself “just for a bit”

Its never “just for a bit”

[vale meadow]

Everybody died today, my duo-lingo streak, my Bridgman study streak, my etc etc

Well, ill just have to do better

[green horizon]

It be like that sometimes

[vale meadow]

So, I was lookin through my photos,

And I jus noticed a small little detail here on this face I really like,

Its like, hinting at form, maybe its b/c I been studying the head a lot, while I have nit made any progress on that (yet), I can catch a but more stuff

I also jus duplicated these two cuz I like them

[green horizon]

The my hero one is cute

[vale meadow]

Guess im going back to the old ways

I had a literal week and plus more to get stuff done, almost nothing got done

Even if I I actually tried to do stuff, but its like I have some sort of repulsion to doing work when there isn’t actually any school

And then I messed up my sleep schedule, so now im planning to grind out 6 straight hours

If I can do that, everything is fixable

And, though it hurts my heart, ill also have to do this quickly, no spending time understanding

Time to use my the forbidden jutsu curse techniques kaioken x1million nen,

I couldn’t find any funny gifs,

But I think you get what I mean

[vale meadow]

For the first time in awhile, ima talk abt algebra and not complain or try to be einstein

I think I said it bfor, but the assignment right after the lessons are actually most of the time, harder than the actual quiz

Which I just find kinda funny

[vale meadow]

This was a problem thqt gave me a little trouble, but only b/c I was hyper focused on one thing and didn’t pay attention to the actual problem

[green horizon]

[vale meadow]

Your new pfp is quite the new pfp

Wait

No, I meant the colors, when I pressed it and saw it was a guy

Fuu

Moving on though,

Im reusing some of my old techniques

Im laying in my bed with my ipad constantly in front of me, so eventually, every five min, im like, let me work a bit more

Compared to how I regularly do it, in terms of efficiency, its quite slow, but

[green horizon]

It’s Sakuragi Hanamichi from Slam Dunk

[vale meadow]

Over time, I may get more done

[vale meadow]

Oh, I haven’t watched that yet

Is it the one with the special effects while the players r playing basketball?

[green horizon]

Nah that’s Kuroko

Slam Dunk is grounded in reality

It’s abt a former delinquent who starts to play basketball

I have a huge soft spot for delinquent characters

[vale meadow]

Have you watched Bezzulbub, ik I spelt it wrong, but u should know wut im talkin abt

[green horizon]

I’ve heard of it but never watched it

[vale meadow]

It has a ton of episodes

And is super good

I personally like watching anime with more episodes

Though cuz anime is anime, im usually watching 12 eps and its over for a few years

Or most likely, forever

[green horizon]

I’ll watch 12 ep anime in one sitting if I have the time

But I love watching stuff that’s 40+ episodes

[vale meadow]

A quick rundown of this anime,

Im pretty sure its a remake, it has like a older version, that I know almost nothing abt, but

In this one, its abt Oga, the biggest baddest delinquent in a school filled with them, then one day he just happens across baby bell, or I think he falls on his face? I can’t remember cuz its been awhile since i have watched it

Basically, its really good and has a lot of fighting

I dont watch shows for their fighting a lot of the time, but I def think of it as a bonus if its there

[green horizon]

https://tenor.com/view/one-piece-monkey-d-luffy-thinking-think-interesting-gif-20107311

My favorite delinquent anime is Kyou Kara Ore Wa

It’s so stupid but it’s so fun to watch

[vale meadow]

Ill have to look it up,

[green horizon]

It’s a 90s anime

[vale meadow]

Definitely 90’s

The oldest show that I like is probably

Yu yu hakusho

I didn’t watch much of it, but I liked it

Maybe its not the oldest tho, at first I thought inuyusha was older than it

But I looked it up and that came out in 2000

[green horizon]

There’s probably some 90s stuff thrown in your mix somewhere

There usually is

Oldest one I’ve watched is Ashita no Joe

Which goes all the way back to the 70s

[vale meadow]

I jus looked it up, and I think I seen this on yt once

The guy was a boxer or sum right?

[green horizon]

Yeah

A newer anime, Megalo Box, wouldn’t have been made if it weren’t for Ashita no Joe

You can tell when you’re watching that it’s old. Voices will peak the mic, and you can see pencil strokes in a lot of the scenes

But it’s good stuff (i need to@finish)

[vale meadow]

Fighting sharks trapped in a box underwater, is what comes to my mind when I hear that name

[vale meadow]

If some fantasy elements were added to this, and some emotional twists and turns, it wud be a banger

[green horizon]

Write that down🗣️

[vale meadow]

Trigun actually came out in 1998, I be forgetting how old that is

I was thinking 2000+

[green horizon]

Have you watched the new Trigun?

I’ve been hesitant because I fw the original so much

[vale meadow]

I think I have only mentioned this like once or twice a very very long time ago, but I actually had a list of anime to watch, and when I say “ill put it on my list” I was actually referring to my mental list, but I had an actual list at one point

Its been gone for years though, and I haven’t started a new one yet, I remember seeing the new trigun and wanting to make it again

But ill prob do it in the summer, cuz ima also have to recreate my “watched anime” list etc

Which would take forever

[green horizon]

I used to keep all of my watched anime on my notes app

Now i keep ‘em on my MAL and update it right after i finish something

The mental list will always be miles long, and choosing something to watch from it is basically a raffle system

[vale meadow]

Log functions were quite weird, but also very easy

I got a 100% on the quiz

If I did it alone, I probably would have got an 80%, but extra help come in clutch

I dont even care abt the difference between a 80% or even a 70% to a 100% tho, its just that I wanna understand everything, if I look up an answer, and still can’t solve it, a lot of the time, ill just pick a wrong answer on purpose

[vale meadow]

Also, idk why I stopped using this technique,

Like, its a lot slower, but it basically eventually forces me to do at least sum in every 20min

[green horizon]

!w

[static matrix]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/812416795255898165/926222783795580938/ArtRoomW.png

[vale meadow]

I may consider tutoring or sum at a later date to make sum side cash

I jus dont know how hard dats ganna be

[green horizon]

You’re gonna have to be able to thoroughly explain every step and probably in multiple ways since people process info differently

Simplify n allat

Doable but difficult

[vale meadow]

Thats basically what I do with myself already

Doable but difficult perfectly describes it

[vale meadow]

My first time holding a baby less than 1 yrs old

The crys r absolutely fine, its just that it terrifies me b/c idk how to hold him and he keeps wiggling around

Hold him vertically? Put your hand behind his back? I got all that, but uhh

[green horizon]

real

They’re so fragile🥲

[vale meadow]

This random episode of zig and sharko intrigued me a lot,

It was abt painting, and im always amazed that they can put like literally two different stories in 20min and make each of them feel like 20min by itself

S3 is mostly 7min eps tho

[vale meadow]

But even those 7min feel a lot longer

[vale meadow]

I might start doing stuff like this again, its easy quick and fun

That cast shadow is killing me though

[vale meadow]

I knew it,

For so long, my loomis heads have looked horrible, and I knew the reason

But, because I never confirmed it, and I never really drew high res heads, I just kept going with it

Now I have finally fixed it

[green horizon]

[vale meadow]

The more I study art, the more I appreciate the masters

Thinking back when I first started, I thought the silly among us beans were cooler than a lot of technical stuff

[vale meadow]

This may be deeper than anticipated

Maybe its just me, but i been having random small chest pain and small headaches, all this may be unrelated tho

I can attribute the headaches to me reading too much most likely, whenever I read for a very long string of hours in a row, for like two days, it does usually give me a headache

Ill keep more tabs on it, I shouldn’t die though, so everything is fine

[green horizon]

Make sure you aren’t straining your eyes (either from squinting or bright screens)

And that your neck posture is solid, especially if you’re sitting for long periods

N if you’re sitting, switch your position enough

[vale meadow]

Yea, I keep this on mind a lot more now

[vale meadow]

And yea, I basically be moving around every five sexonds

[green horizon]

The neck posture is a life saver. I messed myself over n now have headaches very often because the muscles have adapted to poor posture

Which can be corrected with stretches and exercises, but you don’t wanna get to that point if you can prevent it

[vale meadow]

Yea, I try to make my neck as consistent as possible

Wrong word, but that actually works too

[green horizon]

Yeah i get wym

[green horizon]

I watched a video today on coming up with story ideas. One of their methods was to take two existing series and combine their premises. Basically “my story is if you combined HxH and Precure” or soemthin like that

And then I thought

Why didn’t i think of that

[vale meadow]

I watched this vid I think

Was it yt manga?

Or proko?

Also, I traced a tracing of Jeff Watts drawing

This is probably the first time I have traced in like a years

The amount of times I have traced something can be counted on two hands, but I might need to stick to tracing pure construction drawings that are very line based, cuz shading is horrible

[green horizon]

Dd mark or something along those lines

[vale meadow]

Yea, that one

I got him confused with yt ,anga

Manga

Im pretty sure they do similar stuff

[vale meadow]

Though I got practically nothing from doing this, it took like 3min since all I did was trace,

I actually got some things from watching the almost 30min vid tho, it was just jeff watts drawing and talking basically

But, I realized my drawings look so amateurish and wrong, because they are just that, I usually make the mouth too small, nose wrongly proportioned, and dont try to apply my anatomy knowledge

[green horizon]

Autopilot is a killer

[vale meadow]

Alright, I just have to say, from a while ago, I have been trying to draw heads, and until now, I still can’t get one decent head drawing done without any help

Im pretty sure that means my talent as an artist is zero, trying to use the loomis method has produced little to no results so far, so now

Ill try the riley method, it has been really demotivating learning I could not even draw simple heads right, but we march on

https://tenor.com/view/star-wars-jedi-march-on-gif-15475151

[green horizon]

Been tellin you loomis method sucks (subjective but yeah it sucks). Heads are just super difficult

If you’re learning, spotting mistakes and being conscious enough to begin correcting them in your next drawing, you’re moving forward

Could also be a matter of starting points. I learned that when I start with the forehead plane or the nose, things tend to go better

[vale meadow]

I always do “outside in”

Just as a matter of habit

Also,@I cant start drawing a face from the nose or sum

I can barely draw the circle right

[green horizon]

Yeah i think that’s better once you have a shorthand for the rest of the features of a really good understanding of planes

Speaking of planes

Excellent tool for the mental library. They really come in clutch when you’re lost

[vale meadow]

I promise that @ wasn’t there, I looked away for one second and it spawned in

[vale meadow]

Also yea, the riley rythm method is basically a series of planes,

Not really, but

Actually kinda

[green horizon]

I’ve heard of tjat but have never seen what it actually is

[vale meadow]

Then ill show u once I master it

[green horizon]

[vale meadow]

I got on brawlhalla and started crushing noobs, I feel happy now

[vale meadow]

https://docs.google.com/file/d/0B7eFkpRvGx6oSzFBbDk0TzktMFE/edit

[vale meadow]

This was a student of Frank Riley, the creator of the……..Riley method, who would have gussed

I heard Frank Riley was a monitor for Bridgman’s classes, never confirmed this though

[vale meadow]

This is pretty good though, ima spent 5 hours tmmrw going through some of it

[vale meadow]

It says file too big to preview, so

I jus typed that in, pressed that, then it should switch to your drive and be there

[green horizon]

Skimmed through. I like the drawings on this page a lot

[vale meadow]

Im mostly using it just for the head

I dont really like the riley method for bodies, but I can prob take some stuff from it

I havent actually gone through any of it yet tho, so I can’t tell how much im ganna like it

[green horizon]

Oh i see. I still haven’t looked at what the method actually is

[vale meadow]

I also got a lot more lead pencils

They feel a lot better in my hand than regular pencils

And I dont need to worry abt sharpening anymore

[vale meadow]

I got to admit, I been scrolling through it for a few mins now, and I completely forgot I just wanted to use it to learn how to draw heads

The body drawings in the book are masterful

[vale meadow]

So basically, in the end,

In the end, he says a lot of good stuff, and I think this book, while it has a ton of images, is more focused on the words

It wasn’t exactly hat I was looking for, but lets see

[vale meadow]

I guess im just going to have to rely on a lot of copying and self study

Ill be back after that

[green horizon]

🫡

[vale meadow]

Nothing works, I have no trajectory, the path ahead is dark

So,

When in doubt, pull out andrew loomis and study until you see some kind of results

https://tenor.com/view/terminator2-ill-be-back-arnold-schwarzenegger-i-will-be-back-brb-gif-27347908

[green horizon]

Maybe you should post in critique

Some outside voices every once in a while when you’re hitting a wall can be all you need

[vale meadow]

I……I don’t think I can get critique on blank paper…….

I spend an enormous amount of time looking for stuff that can help me, but in all that time, I don’t actually draw anything

This is why, now im jus ganna use andrew loomis and start drawing

Making slow progress is better than no progress

[green horizon]

Yeah don’t get bogged down in looking for the perfect study material. Just dive into something and adjust things to your understanding and preferences as you go

[vale meadow]

From my basically weeks of wasted time, I have learned, the only possible way you can get the perfect study material is if you go to a master and they create the material for you personally

[vale meadow]

But alas, I haven’t a pocketh with a green bill

This is why I read manga to clear my headaches

Cuz of stuff like this

[vale meadow]

My mom walked in on me sleep with my screen still on, this is all it showed

I was literally still in like a reading posture, its insane tho cuz I haven’t fallen asleep with my screen on for a long long time, but then again, I haven’t read this manga in a long long time

[green horizon]

@vale meadow

What have you done today

[vale meadow]

Nothing, yet, im just taking it easy today, maybe ill draw today, maybe I wont, but I most likely will, it’s rare that I have days were I literally do nothing

This is sotra like a break day

[green horizon]

Oh

That’s good every now n then

I might do a concept magma session later if you’re down

Maybe get some light sketches in

[vale meadow]

I mostly jus do this once I have headaches or sum like yesterday

But yea, they r good to do every now n then

No working out, lifting weights, push ups etc

Just relaxing is nice sometimes too

Though I dont like to do it too much

[green horizon]

Yeah that’s fair

[vale meadow]

https://tenor.com/view/reverse-card-uno-uno-cards-gif-13032597

So, what have you done today?

[green horizon]

I drew a dragon in 45 mins for a prompt in another server

[vale meadow]

Dragoons?

[vale meadow]

I like this,

[green horizon]

thank

[vale meadow]

I had a mechanical dragon thingy that I saved awhile ago that looked a lot like that

But, I realized it would take me awhile to find it

It was like on a table

U can prob find it if u type in Pinterest dragon

It was cut into parts like your dragon, but it was very mechanical

[vale meadow]

This is very random, but I feel like when I have socks on I have a productivity boost

[green horizon]

That’s so

Video game-y

[vale meadow]

Rn im going back through this

But this time, im actually going through it

[green horizon]

Lmk if you have any new findings

[vale meadow]

The first few chaps abt line prob have a ton of stuff I didn’t know, but ima skip that for now

Im starting off on chap 8

After I finish that, then ill go on to do loomis

[vale meadow]

My plan for loomis is just to draw each of his heads five times each, after awhile, no matter how bad I am, I would have at least made some progress

[green horizon]

https://tenor.com/view/one-piece-monkey-d-luffy-thinking-think-interesting-gif-20107311

Repetition

Delicious

[vale meadow]

Im watching a vid rn, and idk if its just me, but I dont think a body can turn like that

[green horizon]

Looks like they wanted the body to have a twist to it but didn’t know how to actually orient the body that way

[vale meadow]

I think I finally have a set proportional guide I wanna follow, this was done by patrick j jones, I talked abt him bfor a long time ago

Until now, I have seen many ways to proportion a figure, but I feel like this way is the one I like most, but its not like it’s wildly different from others

I have found that most masters actually draw proportions very similarly, which makes sense, because anatomy is anatomy, the thing I like abt this is moreso how its done

I think I said it bfor, but this guy is a perfect balance between rhythm and structure

He also has a yt channel

[vale meadow]

This marks the end of the GodKing era

[vale meadow]

Bfor I dlete this account, I was feeling a bit sentimental, so I went back through my message holder account

Basically just an acc I send stuff to so it can stay there, this was one of the first messages there,

Four years ago

I used to be a high ranking officer, conducting tests and training soldiers

The good’ol days

[vale meadow]

I dont suppose you remember the end of the Emperor era

Maybe I wasn’t even in the server at that point? That was awhile awhile ago

Ok, I finished sorting things out

I guess its time fir me to go

https://tenor.com/view/toilet-bound-hanako-kun-tsukasa-yugi-disappear-smile-anime-gif-16583534

[vale meadow]

I found this really cool trick,

You can just add + to your email and discord treats it as a separate email, so I guess that means my other account doesn’t have to be deleted, but this is tradition

[vale meadow]

No wonder all my faces always looked so trash

[vale meadow]

100-200 assignments due in four days, im trying to lock in, but

This algebra is going to be the death of me

[vale meadow]

What I have been doing the past hour

The thing I like abt doing this, is while it might take awhile, once I break down the formula they give me and the reason behind it, everything becomes very very easy

But that also begs the question of why they dont just do that then show me, it would make life so much easier

[vale meadow]

I went back and forth for awhile on this one, but I ended up getting a pretty solid breakdown of it after like 20-30min

[vale meadow]

I do need to speed up tho, I already knew the answer but took 30min to solve the equation leading up to the answer, im going backwards

[green horizon]

Yeah ik that whole i won’t go back if I don’t have to thing but taking this long is not efficient at all when you have so much to get through

Do what you do tho

In the meantime, I’ve developed a new study thing in my head so I can actually start illustrating.

1. Pick study topic (usually anatomy)
2. Skeletal studies
3. Muscle studies
4. Place skin on top
5. Deepen understanding (angles movement n allat)
6. Form breakdown
7. Cel shading/lighting
8. Rendering forms

N I don’t move to the next topic until step 8

I’ve been stopping at 3 btw

[vale meadow]

I think im not improving cuz school is just constantly on my mind, thats my excuse for now, so im not ganna worry abt it rn

[green horizon]

One month left n you can focus on art more

[vale meadow]

I still be collecting refs all the time tho

This is from the art book of

I forgot the name

But its called…..i forgot what it was called too

If u want it ill go and grab it

[green horizon]

Thanks but i have some resources i think

I just need to choose instead of hunting for the perfect resource

[vale meadow]

Lol, we jus had a convo abt me doing that not too long ago

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I was just looking over the algebra I had left to do, and

They actually start giving me summaries after this lesson im on rn

Thats basically a free assignment, they didn’t give me any summaries in algebra tho

That means im not as behind as I though I was, like at least 5-10 freebies

The rest of the lesson look easy too, but I said that everytime and look where I am

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Let’s hope you’re right this time

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School needs to end faster

I wanna just go into seclusion for a full year doing nothing but practicing art

But instead im sitting here doing algebra

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If you’re able to do assignments ahead of time, i say do every available assignment for algebra ahead of schedule n be mostly done with that entire class for the rest of the year

…or well i would say that if you didn’t have such a mountain of assignments built up already

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Ayo how much algebra do you have left?

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30 assignments left for algebra

This is becauit has been adding as the days passed, so the original number hasn’t changed much, but its also b/c I been getting in all the other assignments I had to do, now im ahead one day in every other class, so I can focus on algebra today

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That’s actually not bad at all

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After today, it should be in the 20’s

This is counting what it will add on tmmrw

So, im likely to finish by the 19th if im locked in

Which I am not rn

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Fu it

Im jus ganna start cheating heavy

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That’s the way

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Manga/anime about little kids and their single parents make my heart warmer

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Have u watched Kotaro?

I think dats the name, its on netflix

I watched it a long long time ago

Its abt a little boy and this dude basically unofficially adopts him

I thin’ its called Kotaro lives alone

Let me check

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Yeah

That one is pretty good

Usagi Drop, Kotaro, Kakushigoto, Sweetness and Lightning

All of those are abt single dads w daughters

And I’m reading a manga now called Chichikogusa which is abt a single dad and his son

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I prob watched these, but i can’t remember rn

Have u watched babysitter club tho?

That one was also fire, but its a bit different

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Nah I haven’t watched it

It’s weird cuz

I kinda don’t like child characters in anime unless it’s a parent n child dynamic

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I c, do u know the name of the one wer

The guy is like an actor, and he is all pessimistic to the kids?

I wanted to watch it, but forgot the name

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Life Lessons with Uramichi

That one is fire. Great voice cast

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Yep

Ima watch it after I get done cheating, unsurprisingly, cheating is very effective at getting things done

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Hell yeah

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Ill jus have to force myself to go back sometime

Its highly unlikely I will, but I at least collected the material to study from if I ever do

Thats enough for me

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And even if you don’t, you lose nothing. Algebra 2 doesn’t appear on a resumé

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After this unit test, im fairly certain everything else is ganna be super easy, like

Arithmic sequence, I think ik wut it is

Its jus like…….numbers

But I may be completely wrong, as I was today

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I’m sure they’ll throw some extra spice on it

Just for you

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https://tenor.com/view/saad-gif-25758000

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Had to get some outside help

This wasn’t even like useful for the lesson I was doing, it was jus a question I had for a long long time

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bro

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Good news

As long as I dont fuu it up, it’s basically smooth sailing for my schoolwork, I can get everything in bfor the deadline

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Let’s gooooo

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Idk hiow

But I fuued it up somehow 💀

Niw this is ganna be a close call

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Cmon man

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Im cheating so heavy rn, I totally hope my teacher doesn’t notice the time it takes for me to complete my lessons going from hours to around 40min total

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Online teachers seem to care a lot less

More students, most assignments grade themselves, things like that

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My teachers r also cool asf

So even if they did notice, they prob wouldn’t care

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I just noticed something,

I feel completely fine

Usually If I were to even do one algebra lesson, I would get tired, and then I would have to push myself to go further

But,

Cheating is very comfortable

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Mans is quickly adapting

Getting immersed in the new lifestyle

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Lol, this is one of the times when I rarely laugh at these inscruction videos, im not actually watching them since im cheating, but, I happened to look at it in my side eye, and it was funny how the guy was like

“Mathematicians were able to somehow figure this out”

He said it so seriously too, like he was thinking “how tf did they do this”

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I think im in the clear now

Everything I needed to get done is done

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Your initiation into the society of cheaters is complete

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I dont know the last time I picked up a pencil and drew something

Its been many many days

Now that my school work is nearing completion, and its also the weekend, I feel motivated to draw, its just like sudden inspiration

I always knew school was one of the main reasons I didnt draw as much

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I never forgot abt the manga I was suppose to be making and giving updates on

An update on it mever came out tho b/c it was jus bad, but I feel like im making progress on it

Ill do a big reveal of all the stuff I have worked on prob around end of may

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bet

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Im having a nightmare right now

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I did this all, then came full circle

Its like saying, “why is a rock small” then going, “a rock is small because it breaks down”, then going “then why is that rock bigger?” Then continuing , “uhh, I guess because that rock is stronger” then saying, “but but I can crush the big rock easier, so its not stronger” then going, “just shut tf up”

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The first thing I ever cooked without a microwave

The texture is amazing

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Ill need to make a life achievements album or sum now

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The world slowly opens up to Huruu

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So I just completed my civics leap tests

The first seesion was 70min, took 30, the part b of that was like 40-50min I think, it took literally 6min

Then I went to take 2, part a of that was 30min, took 5, part b of that was 70min, took around 30-40

All in all, either me and my whole class failed miserably, or that test was just too easy

I dont want to think about the possibility of both happening

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I been doing a lot of free drawing recently since I been out a lot, basically drawing from imagination, and I think I now know how to improve drawing from imagination

At first, I was too ambitious, trying to draw a full body from imagination, and while Imcould, it wouldn’t look good, but what I realized is that I need to start off with body parts first, such as drawing arms from imagination etc

I have also been practicing the skulls/heads, but I am still seeing no progress st all in that, I guess I really just can’t do portraits

Lol, I just saw a “free portrait workshop” video thing on youtube after I sent this, and the live model looks like she was kidnapped or sum

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Skulls and facial structures are so deceptively complex

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The loomis method just does not work for me, it’s because like, for me it seems like the lower third of the face is actually longer than a third

So whenever I do the loomis method, the face just seems short or squished

But it also may just be me doing it wrong

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Loomis does a bad job of defining the vertical length of the face imo. I see a lotta beginners w the opposite problem where they use loomis and have really long chins goin on

Or the circle they start with has some quality to it that throws everything else off

Idk what ‘method’ is actually super solid, so ig people just have to throw stuff st the wall til somethings sticks

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Yea, my next part of the plan was to study the astro head or whatever its called for shading the face but,

I cant even find anything to find out how to draw a face

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This?

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Ima watch sum of those 100 head challenge videos I have for some reason been getting, so I can see if I can get anything from them

If all else fails, ill just copy a ton of portraits

And make my own method

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Yea, that thing

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That’s actually the closest resource I’ve found to develop a method for myself. Basically, if you can memorize a couple of the planes (even if you have to simplify them a bit), theoretically, you should always have an idea of where to go if you’re having trouble drawing a face

And copying to develop your own method is legit

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If even that fails, ill just pack my bags and go back to anime drawing,

I was actually good at that

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A great safety net

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https://youtube.com/@JeffHainesArt?si=5JVQeGPZU1X8du91

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This guy has great portraits, he is one of my most liked traditional portrait makers

Ill start from him first

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A weird thought just crossed my mind

“What would it be like for someone to read me to sleep”

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For more context, I literally just pit a peach ring in my mouth, and felt so comfortable, and I wanted to continue reading, but I just didn’t wanna move

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I moght just listen to an audiobook or sum on a later date now that idea has strung into my head

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Did you dip?? I saw but like

You’re still able to be pinged

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Dip as in?

Like leave the server?

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Yeah

I was very confused because i did see that, and ame did too

But it didn’t show up in mod logs n you were still showing up as in the server

Weird.

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Space time continuum stuff

Dw abt it

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Its killing me

I have spent so much time on trying to learn how to draw heads, with no results

Its literally killed my spirit

Tomorrow ima jus slap out a bunch of master head drawings and copy them

Which is what I should have been doing anyway, but I guess I was too focused on perfectionism

https://youtu.be/sGCSDLm0aXQ?si=jtvmx-kJsc0l4kKV u have prob seen me recommend this video bfor, but ima do it again anyway

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Very good video

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Master studies? Nice. I’ve never done those, but I bet it’d prove super useful

But also

Sometimes you just gotta get outta study mode for a particular topic n move on to something else. Practice it in the background n stuff but don’t keep it at the forefront for too long

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The end goal of me learning realism is to default back to a style sorta like david finch

Its kinda realistic, but also very pushed, and the thing getting in the way of that the most is 100% the head for me

Thats the only reason im putting in so much work for it

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Yeah i get that. But it can get to a point where you’re doin a lotta very similar things n the reason for the lack of progress is harder to see

In the same sense that you can have your eye too close to something (hyper focusing) and can only see the image clearly once you step back a bit

To put it simply: you can focus on something too much for too long and in turn have the opposite effect in terms of progress

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Tunnel vison

I c

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Yeah

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I actually wanted to give up on this for awhile and study other stuff, stuff I was actually good at , but something compelled me to keep trying

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Kill that something

And study other stuff

You earned it

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So this is where im at now after not studying or drawing anything else but heads for a very long time

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Though I did do it fast and with like one guideline, I have degraded

Time to get my skill back

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I was abt to post an update, cuz I thought this jus looked too bad, then I remembered I cant be showing anything

So u will have to make do with that

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Its kinda funny b/c when I say “u” im referring to anyone who reads this, but we both know there are only two people here

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Coaching pll on brawl is my new passtime

Its quite fun

Now all I need to do is win a tournament, so I can get sumin under my belt

But I think ill do dat in summer

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I been focusing fully on just one class to get it done quick

I can complete it fully either today if I lock in, or fully tmmrw

Then my other class, I can def complete that tmmrw since there isn’t much to do there

So thats two done, then

The third would probably take me another day

So basically, even if they all took me a whole day to complete, Ill still be around 10 days ahead of schedule

In that time I can fully focus on algebra

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Excellent

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I find myself drawn back to loomis again

When I had nothing to do, and wasn’t reading, well actually I still had work left to do, but meh

I jus made this rq

I couldn’t put something like this on my supreme high quality sketchbook paper though, so I pulled out something from my inventory

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Low risk paper

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Im absolutely loving life lessons with uramichi

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Spent two hours on algebra unit test

Failed

Went clinically insane

Now im going to cheat

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New side quest for myself: cut my 1,000 follows down to 500-700

I follow too many people and have too many inspirations meddling in my damn head. I’m frustrated

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Down to 940

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900

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Wait, didnt u already cut it down before?

Crazy u still have 1k

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I did, but I simply stopped following people or unfollowed a few people when I followed someone new

To keep it at 1k

But 1K is still far too many different people

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Oh, so its a cycle

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Yeah

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Me cutting down the number of people I follow is simply going from 2 to one

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Basically image a cup’s surface tension abt to break so you lick up a bit of water from the top n then add a couple more drops