Ive given up on life atp

[candid venture]

ive lived your life, i am somewhat still facing similar situations, and i highly reccomend having self confidence and knowing you know exactly what you need to do and do it. its fine if u still dont know the main material for heavy subjects, uve got time, just start focusing on ur own terms and ur own time. studying and prep becomes useless when u dont sleep well, so prioritise that aswell. when my parents pressurised me i lowk just lied and said i was done with stuff until i actually did the stuff. as for the ur mom wanting to go to ur school, i went through that asw. just get ur books urself, and show her the ones ur done with/ completed work and stuff so u can avoid her meeting ur teachers asw. and the whole comparison, friendship issues, and the ur mom accusing u been there done that. ive lowk js learnt to tune all that stuff out and avoid getting ragebait. however, it does get to u at a point, u just need to u have faith in urself that what ur doing is right and ur sure of urself and that ur not doing anyth wrong. comparisons suck, believe in urself and prove them wrong cause u can do it trust me. friends come and go, its a part of life, the ppl ur describing right now arent ur friends and its easier to lose them than keep them. and if someones out of ur life, they r out of ur life for a reason, dont think someone/something better isnt waiting to not replace it, but litr improve ur entire life. anyways good luck

[tropic nest]

you don't need to worry, itll all work out you just have to be patient, it all works out at the end- no matter what, the fruits of patience are the sweetest. At the moment try talking to your parents and make them understand your condition and even if means breaking off your friendship; take a social break from everyone, let your social battery sort of hibernate and let it recharge, trust me when i tell you this patience is your only solution, try your very best and your parents will see that- besides they are parents, they are pressurising you because they care abt you and they love you, trust me itll all be over after you're done with your IGCSEs and you will look back and laugh and be happy. Just be patient