Gang I feel absolutely fucked

[normal radish]

This reminds me of a line from a poem

"O' Night of reconcilation, for when do we meet?"

Some people would kill to meet them - though some shiver at its mention

The past is something that remains in the past, though, your past remains with you, if not with your brain; though with the heart

Instead of being wary and criticizing yourself from negativity, from those thoughts, make yourself a better person

And remember

"Comparison is the thief of joy"

From your past mistakes LEARN rather then beating yourself over it