#venting | ZNotes | Page 88

grave jolt Oct 25, 2020, 9:40 AM

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@mild compass I’m so sorry I know how that feels, maybe it’s more than one thing piling on each other ya know? And she just kept her feelings locked now they’re exploding, I know that’s the case with my parents. But everything will be fine, just maybe try and be like extra good with her, she might be feeling alone

dusk thorn Oct 25, 2020, 10:58 AM

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@grave jolt you're not cruel at all :( is there anybody you can give the puppy to?

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@mild compass I'm sorry about your home situation right now, I really hope things smoothen out

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Maybe you can try what Mercury said and talk to her

grave jolt Oct 25, 2020, 11:36 AM

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@mild compass I'm sorry about your home situation right now, I really hope things smoothen out
@dusk thorn dad doesn't want to "lose money" on her

dusk thorn Oct 25, 2020, 11:48 AM

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On the pup?

grave jolt Oct 25, 2020, 5:01 PM

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Yup

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We have her now, mum is furious

mild compass Oct 26, 2020, 5:40 AM

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thanks so much guys.. and yes.. I treated her to some shopping and well, she is better but yk.. the impact still remains.. tbh im scared of even talking to her now..

grave jolt Oct 26, 2020, 6:33 AM

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@mild compass it'll all hopefully be ok, just try and talk to her, know what's wrong, or even talk to your dad to see if he knows something

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 1:40 PM

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@grave jolt why is your mum so mad??

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@mild compass you have every right to feel scarred tbh

grave jolt Oct 26, 2020, 2:09 PM

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@dusk thorn cuz she’s a neat freak and dogs aren’t the most tidy....
she also never wanted one

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 2:40 PM

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Yikes.

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 4:46 PM

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I'm honestly just kind of upset rn because my so called friend just tossed me away

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Just need to kinda vent it out

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I can't believe how much of a horrible person he is.

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 5:01 PM

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sure, knock yourself out

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 5:29 PM

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I'm honestly just kind of upset rn because my so called friend just tossed me away
@dusk thorn damn that sucks

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 6:30 PM

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It really does man

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He always singles me out and treats me differently with an ego as big as my ass

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And he constantly embarrasses me and I endure him

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And time and time again I've confronted him and told him yo I'm not okay with this, why are you doing this to me

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And he always acts dumb or makes me feel stupid when I confront him

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Last week was my breaking point and I just left the server I was in with him with our friends bc I was so stressed out with externals and personal things

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And apparently came to the conclusion that I didn't care about him or our friendship because I didnt talk to him????

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A question that has been coming up recently is, why am I always expected to do the mature thing instantly even when my mental health is at rock bottom?

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Point is I eventually confronted him, which was today

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And I have never heard someone be so rude and heartless and egotistical

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And it makes me angry that I let this toxic person invade my life for so long.

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 6:51 PM

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well yh it rlly sucks, but now u know the people you should never get into ur life
if u see someone starting to act like that just kick them out immediately before they have time to do any damage

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u know, u shouln't force yourself endure ppl like that man, rlly.
I guess it simply sucks that people like that even exist

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 6:53 PM

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Wouldn't suddely kick them out but take precautions first hand

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 6:54 PM

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Point is I eventually confronted him, which was today
@dusk thorn im telling you, probably best decison of ur life

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 6:54 PM

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Agreed

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 6:54 PM

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Wouldn't suddely kick them out but take precautions first hand
@naive skiff yh guess so, but don't let them affect you. If they do, step back, u never know their intentions

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 6:54 PM

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It was good you confronted then

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Else you'd be with guilt for a huge amount of time

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 6:55 PM

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He was horrible honestly

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He made me feel like shit

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Especially as the only girl in a guys group (which is a bit different here where I'm from)

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He was such an incel honestly

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 6:56 PM

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don't let toxic ppl get to you
before you know it everything is bullshit

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 6:56 PM

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Yeah you right homeboy

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 6:57 PM

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lol Imma have to tell u tho im a girl : )

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 6:57 PM

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Heh

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 6:57 PM

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Oh you right homegirl

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 6:57 PM

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y does everyone always think Im a guy lol

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 6:58 PM

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I never judged

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 6:58 PM

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Oh you right homegirl
@dusk thorn ✌️

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I never judged
@naive skiff my bad🙌

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 6:58 PM

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I just say homeboy to everyone

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 6:58 PM

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don't let toxic ppl get to you
before you know it everything is bullshit
@raw ermine gotta say i was already screwed up for a year or two due to them

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Wished i never met them in those year

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 6:59 PM

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yup
my best friend for two years ditched me a while back, and it's just kinda scary how common toxic ppl are

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 6:59 PM

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Yikes...

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 6:59 PM

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Ouch

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 6:59 PM

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Mine was 2 years too :/

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 7:00 PM

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We never ditched each other in my case

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 7:00 PM

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Wished i never met them in those year
@naive skiff guess we should learn how to recognise before the damage...

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Mine was 2 years too :/
@dusk thorn damn...

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 7:00 PM

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Its hard to find friends

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 7:01 PM

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yh i mean, ppl to trust are hard to find now

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 7:01 PM

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Even if i have friends

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I'm not fully trusting em 100%

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Due to what happened

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But i never make it obvious

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 7:02 PM

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yh, tho sometimes, u gotta talk to someone :/

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I mean otherwise everything inside is gonna snap on the wrong person

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which sucks too

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everything sucks nowadays

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which sucks...

naive skiff Oct 26, 2020, 7:04 PM

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It sucks

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 7:17 PM

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y does everyone always think Im a guy lol
@raw ermine on the internet everyone thinks everyone is a guy for some reason

raw ermine Oct 26, 2020, 7:26 PM

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lol ikr

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 9:56 PM

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@raw ermine on the internet everyone thinks everyone is a guy for some reason
@unreal oak I think it's because it's somewhat seen as neutral? I've no idea how that works

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I mean personally everyone is just an amorphous blob to me unless stated otherwise

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Dude/boy whatever is for everyone

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But back to the previous topic

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Honestly fuck that guy

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:02 PM

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yeah dude seems like a shitty person

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sadly that kinda guy is one im a bit too familiar with

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He was such an incel honestly
@dusk thorn what does that have to do with it tho?

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:13 PM

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The way he treated me

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That's why I'm calling him an incel

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It was honestly gross now that I think about it and I'm mad at myself for withstanding it

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@unreal oak

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:17 PM

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did he try hitting on you or something?

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or was he one of those bastards that does manipulative shit to girls in the hope of getting with them

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@dusk thorn

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:18 PM

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Nope, 2nd one

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I dont mind guys hitting on me as long as they're cool about it

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I mean honestly they're just shooting their shot

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He was weirdly manipulative and it was super lowkey

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Trust me I'm not saying it bc I'm mad at him, I've known for years

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Just never wanted to admit it to myself so that I wouldn't cause a fuss

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:19 PM

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dw i believe you

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i know the type all too well

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:19 PM

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Thank you, though it's reasonable to think I'm just fuming out anything

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Yeah

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I mean

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I was going through a really rough breakup earlier this year and I hugged him for emotional support

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And he was

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So

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Weird

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About it

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:20 PM

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ohh godd

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:20 PM

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Thing is he LET me hug him

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:20 PM

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why am i physically cringing rn

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:20 PM

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And for a week straight he couldn't look me in the eye and kept telling me "I cant stop thinking about it"

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LIKE BRUH I AM MENTALLY DESTROYED RN AND YOURE INCELLING????

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💀💀💀💀💀

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Dont even make me go on man

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:21 PM

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And for a week straight he couldn't look me in the eye and kept telling me "I cant stop thinking about it"
@dusk thorn ughhhh

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:22 PM

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coolpepe

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:22 PM

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i wasnt even involved but im feeling the embarassment hard now

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:22 PM

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Ikr man I just

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👁👄👁

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What's worse is that the breakup was with my first and only significant other, and he was a really bad incel too

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So I was like on god not this agaib

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N*

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The friend always felt the need to boost his ego in front of the others by... berating me and embarrassing me???

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:24 PM

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What's worse is that the breakup was with my first and only significant other, and he was a really bad incel too
@dusk thorn I really admire your tolerance if you were actually willing to stay with an incel type

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:25 PM

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Dude he scarred me for life

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I'm glad I'm tolerant but

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Gosh dont even get me started

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I felt the need to stay with him to "fix him"

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He drained me

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Objectified me a LOT

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He made me so uncomfortable man

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:25 PM

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is it weird that i get EXACTLY what you're talking about?

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:25 PM

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I was just a pretty trophy he showed off and he believed he loved me because I was decent to him :/

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Damn

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We communicating telepathically my dude

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:27 PM

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lmao yes

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:27 PM

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PepeHands Spain but the s is silent, very silent

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:28 PM

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im ngl, fuck those kinds of dudes

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:28 PM

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Hell yeah

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:28 PM

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thanks to them, you wind up having a bunch of girls that automatically distrust dudes cos trauma

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making life harder for other guys as well

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arseholes

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:29 PM

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This is 10000% true

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The aftermath of my ex made me so cold and distant it was crazy

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Every guy I met I wanted to puke because all that went through my head was everything my ex did, and I felt even worse for assuming that about the guy you know?

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So I just distanced myself entirely

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I honestly dont remember how I was post breakup but I was a mess for a very long time

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:30 PM

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yee i get ya

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:32 PM

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Thanks for letting me vent and listening to me and stuff

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It means a lot to me

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I hope you have a good day/night uwu @unreal oak

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heartlove

unreal oak Oct 26, 2020, 10:32 PM

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eh its alright, just being what I never had back in the day

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I hope you have a good day/night uwu @unreal oak
@dusk thorn thankuu

dusk thorn Oct 26, 2020, 10:32 PM

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:((( ❤️

raw ermine Oct 27, 2020, 6:03 AM

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The friend always felt the need to boost his ego in front of the others by... berating me and embarrassing me???
@dusk thorn yh, and if someone does that to him he'll act as if he got stabbed
he probably should try feeling like that sometime

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I was just a pretty trophy he showed off and he believed he loved me because I was decent to him :/
@dusk thorn he wants show off, acted like bullshit to showoff and I bet he thinks he's a gangster rn for everything

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man u know ppl like that suck, wish I could make them feel what I felt

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lol I feel like Im the one venting now

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point is, u know there are good ppl around u just gotta learn to trust the right ones

naive skiff Oct 27, 2020, 8:03 AM

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Which is hard

raw ermine Oct 27, 2020, 8:37 AM

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yh, but we can't rlly do much about it, rlly

naive skiff Oct 27, 2020, 9:07 AM

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Mhm

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The ones that left me wanted to see me suffer and how I'd coop with no friends or company

raw ermine Oct 27, 2020, 10:36 AM

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man I don't get how ppl think sometimes... what's so fun in breaking someone :/

woven lark Oct 27, 2020, 10:51 AM

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Do you guys also feel lonely after a break up, like even though your ex was not great, and was not the right person, you still wish you had that special someone?

dusk thorn Oct 27, 2020, 11:33 AM

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@woven lark 10000%

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I know that feeling

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@raw ermine you're so right and thank you so much for the support

raw ermine Oct 27, 2020, 11:46 AM

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Do you guys also feel lonely after a break up, like even though your ex was not great, and was not the right person, you still wish you had that special someone?
@woven lark So FKN true

woven lark Oct 27, 2020, 12:07 PM

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@woven lark 10000%
@dusk thorn sucks horse balls

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i end up distancing myself from everyone because its not the same

exotic elm Oct 27, 2020, 12:09 PM

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I'm sorry, you guys

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but good riddance ig

raw ermine Oct 27, 2020, 12:23 PM

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i end up distancing myself from everyone because its not the same
@woven lark hope u meet someone that isn't a full on jerk

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but good riddance ig
@exotic elm oh hell yh

dusk thorn Oct 27, 2020, 12:41 PM

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i end up distancing myself from everyone because its not the same
@woven lark trust me you'll feel better soon. I was going through that throughout February to June and now I'm.better than ever

woven lark Oct 27, 2020, 12:52 PM

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That’s so nice! I hope so. It’s been so long tho. And I still feel like that sometimes. Ig it’ll go away

exotic elm Oct 27, 2020, 12:57 PM

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That’s so nice! I hope so. It’s been so long tho. And I still feel like that sometimes. Ig it’ll go away
@woven lark it takes longer for some. How long has it been?

woven lark Oct 27, 2020, 1:09 PM

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almost 11 months

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it sucks because i spent almost my whole teenage life with her, not physically cause we were in two different places, but all i did was talk with her.

raw ermine Oct 27, 2020, 3:03 PM

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@woven lark trust me you'll feel better soon. I was going through that throughout February to June and now I'm.better than ever
@dusk thorn same, although it does pop out of nowhere sometimes and ruins the entire week

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it sucks because i spent almost my whole teenage life with her, not physically cause we were in two different places, but all i did was talk with her.
@woven lark damn.. things like that r pretty tough ngl... hope it gets better tho. No one deserves to feel like that

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but time does heal. Even if u dont forget about it won't feel like that, if they used u u gotta prove the jerks they're wrong about u

woven lark Oct 27, 2020, 3:46 PM

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Mhm, yeah I guess. It’s a touch sitch. Thank you @raw ermine and @dusk thorn

dusk thorn Oct 27, 2020, 9:41 PM

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Good luck man :)@woven lark

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Sorry for not replying to your messages on pm

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I'm currently crying about the outdoor kitty we now have

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I'm so heartbroken to leave her outside

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I gave her her blanket and tried to make her comfy

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But I'm so sad I cant keep her inside and now I cant stop bawling

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She wanted to stay and sleep on my lap

raw ermine Oct 28, 2020, 7:11 AM

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that's so sad... :/......

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She wanted to stay and sleep on my lap
@dusk thorn cats are super cute....y cant u take it in tho? not being rude just asking : )

dusk thorn Oct 28, 2020, 7:13 AM

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My parents :///

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Both of them hate animals and my dad is allergic

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They only just about warmed up to Elvis

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(Elvis is my cockatiel)

raw ermine Oct 28, 2020, 7:15 AM

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oh.....

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well at least u can feed it, I feel so bad for these kittens always outside

dusk thorn Oct 28, 2020, 7:16 AM

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Yeahh

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Yeah me and my relatives feed her a lot

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And my sister goes out every hour to play with her lmao

raw ermine Oct 28, 2020, 7:18 AM

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that's one lucky cat then lol

dusk thorn Oct 28, 2020, 7:18 AM

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Hahaha yeah I guess so

woven lark Oct 28, 2020, 10:34 AM

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thats cute

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ELVIS WHAT A NAME

raw ermine Oct 28, 2020, 10:55 AM

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sounds like an elf

naive skiff Oct 28, 2020, 11:31 AM

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Sounds like a bird who'd want to shout every moment they got

raw ermine Oct 28, 2020, 12:29 PM

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sounds like ✨waffles✨

woven lark Oct 28, 2020, 1:20 PM

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😉

dusk thorn Oct 28, 2020, 3:24 PM

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Sounds like a bird who'd want to shout every moment they got
@naive skiff YOU RIGHT

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He screamed at me today for walking into the room after I kept booping his head

woven lark Oct 29, 2020, 6:52 AM

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does he fly around in your room?

naive skiff Oct 29, 2020, 7:11 AM

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I'd imagine a screech followed by a headbutt

raw ermine Oct 29, 2020, 7:25 AM

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or a "GIVE ME FOOOOOOD" while scratching the curtains

naive skiff Oct 29, 2020, 9:18 AM

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Why do people like to vent their anger at others instead of the actual person?

dusk thorn Oct 29, 2020, 12:43 PM

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@woven lark yup when need be

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Why do people like to vent their anger at others instead of the actual person?
@naive skiff sometimes we seek validation or a go sign for our feelings so that we make sure we're in the right

dusk thorn Oct 29, 2020, 1:01 PM

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What happened in France is stressing me out so kich

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Much

finite flower Oct 29, 2020, 1:11 PM

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wait what happened

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ohhh

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just saw the news

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so sad

dusk thorn Oct 29, 2020, 1:30 PM

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Yeah

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It's really tarnishing Islam

finite flower Oct 29, 2020, 1:32 PM

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ikr ):

mild compass Oct 29, 2020, 1:47 PM

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ik this gonna be weird but imma rant about my crush (im angry at him)

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ok so like bruhh I started on this challenge that he put to me which is to make him like me (Idk if he likes me but He surely doesnt know that I like him A LOT) okie so like we started out with this shit which is supposed to go on for a month, so im religiously sending him cheesy emails and like just todays email, like fuck, I jokingly said tantrums (to say that he is sometimes annoying) and now just cuz of this simple one word, he is now refusing to talk to me?!?!

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wtf is this crap.. i mean should I pull outta this challenge or whatev?

hardy halo Oct 29, 2020, 2:07 PM

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tantrums... to say that he is sometimes annoying

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you've noticed that yourself

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the description suits that sort of person perfectly

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just pull out from the challenge - no need to waste your time on such a person anymore

raw ermine Oct 29, 2020, 2:15 PM

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Why do people like to vent their anger at others instead of the actual person?
@naive skiff venting at the actual person will make me more mad : )

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It's really tarnishing Islam
@dusk thorn ikrrrr I mean it's so heartbreaking ...

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wtf is this crap.. i mean should I pull outta this challenge or whatev?
@mild compass tbh....he seems like he picked it up, I mean wtf is that crap, who gives a challenge like that?

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he probably got offended I guess

dusk thorn Oct 29, 2020, 2:51 PM

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@mild compass if they're childish LEAVE GIRL

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Don't waste your energy

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Life is too short to spend your energy on people who are half wits

raw ermine Oct 29, 2020, 3:01 PM

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yup

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overly sensitive people are pretty tiring

dusk thorn Oct 29, 2020, 3:16 PM

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Hell yeah

abstract niche Oct 29, 2020, 4:03 PM

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I totally agree @raw ermine

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@mild compass I agree with @dusk thorn that if he’s childish leave his a** bc you don’t want a big baby in your life

dusk thorn Oct 29, 2020, 4:06 PM

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@abstract niche hell yeah

abstract niche Oct 29, 2020, 4:10 PM

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@DEUCE#3249 yeeeeeee

raw ermine Oct 29, 2020, 6:03 PM

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oh hell yh
man even if he likes u back usually these type of ppl would break a relationship if anything bothers them

mild compass Oct 30, 2020, 3:16 AM

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I mean I really like him, I've been having a crush on him for two years now and I finally thought this might a good chance..like what if its not

naive skiff Oct 30, 2020, 3:25 AM

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Might I ask

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Why do you like him?

mild compass Oct 30, 2020, 5:41 AM

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He's fun, like a bit cute and even tho he's annoying, I always have a good time when I'm with him.. And like until now, he's probably the only friend who's been honest with me forever.. (Like i was going a movie and he would outright say whatever I was wearing doesnt suit me, and boy was he right!)

hardy halo Oct 30, 2020, 8:36 AM

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there's a rule of thumb

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if everybody else except yourself is telling you to end a relationship/crush

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end it

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 9:07 AM

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^^I agree with this from personal experience

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I regret not listening to all of my friends about my first love

raw ermine Oct 30, 2020, 10:27 AM

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me too, even tho Im 14
when u have a crush, ppl see the things u dont

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it's best if u listen

mild compass Oct 30, 2020, 12:29 PM

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Hey Guys, im bit struggling, my school is forcing me to take English as a First language (EFL). Currently im studying English as a Second language (ESL). I have no idea about EFL. Should i take EFL?? what's the benefit, advantage and disadvantages??

tribal sparrow Oct 30, 2020, 12:32 PM

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In quite a lot of unis they accept EFL as an english requirement

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So it’s more convenient as you don’t need to take an additional IELTS/TOEFL

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 12:52 PM

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EFL is hard, that's all I know :(

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Ielts is a bitch tho

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Also my mum is driving me absolutely insane??? I told her I want to study microbiology and genetics bc it's too late to apply for medicine in the UK (I was interested in dermatology)

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And she immediately flipped out saying theres no way it's too late and I was say there like damn who said I'm doing medicine for sure I was just interested

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And she's still flipping out about it and I'm trying to tell her like dude I didnt decide on being a doctor?? And then she's like oh well what DO you want to study then?

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I told her microbio and gen

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And she flipped out even more saying that I'm not going to get a job ????

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And I tried to tell her my research on the degree and the average pay per year and employment rates

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And she isn't listening at all??? And saying things that dont make sense??

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And at some point I said I dont want to talk about this anymore and I wanted to leave the table

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And she keeps saying how I'm only listening to myself and not wanting to he wrong????

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be*

cosmic ginkgo Oct 30, 2020, 12:57 PM

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try to give her the numbers and job options yourself instead of asking her to see it could help

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and also emphasise the fact that if youre not dead set on doing medicine, its hard to get through it if you lose motivation

mild compass Oct 30, 2020, 1:14 PM

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studying EFL is absolutely hard but i think ill go with EFL. I need some pro tips and will be able to complete whole syllabus within 5 months??, without a teacher i mean ill have a teacher but he/she wont give me much time. And i think there is no such thing as core or extended in EFL right??

haughty ibex Oct 30, 2020, 1:55 PM

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@mild compass I don’t think so

naive skiff Oct 30, 2020, 2:23 PM

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only esl has that

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Tip:You'll have to work realllllly hard for the leap

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 2:34 PM

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@cosmic ginkgo I fucking tried I swear

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And she just gave me a mental breakdown

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Shes actually insane and I just want to leave this house

mighty heart Oct 30, 2020, 3:02 PM

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Do any of you think that being a student-athlete is worth it in college? (if you have the choice)

raw ermine Oct 30, 2020, 3:41 PM

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Also my mum is driving me absolutely insane??? I told her I want to study microbiology and genetics bc it's too late to apply for medicine in the UK (I was interested in dermatology)
@dusk thorn u know maybe u should just not talking about it rn, ur mom is pressuring u coz she wants the best for u but sometimes she isn't rlly always right
and if she has a problem well I guess all u gotta do is keep going, in the end it's ur choice and Im sure she'll realize it..

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@mild compass Im taking EFL, idk I heard it has a lot more advantages and ESL can get complicated when it comes to college or smt like that.

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 3:46 PM

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@raw ermine I know you're assuming the best about my mother which is nice but unfortunately she is not a great person

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Her ego is gigantic and she wants me to study medicine to show off to everybody that her kid is a doctor

finite flower Oct 30, 2020, 3:47 PM

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all parents want their kids to be the best

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 3:49 PM

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She might want the "best" for me but if her ego didn't get in the way then I wouldn't have such a bad relationship with her

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And I think I should clarify something

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She's abusive as hell

raw ermine Oct 30, 2020, 3:49 PM

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yh true
I guess ur mom (and all adults) grew up in a time where they didn't have the means to show off?? She does want u to be happy and u should make it clear

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 3:49 PM

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Especially emotionally abusive

raw ermine Oct 30, 2020, 3:49 PM

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if she doesn't support u, u shouldnt take risks in things u dont really care for

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 3:49 PM

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Not saying it for sympathy

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Saying it so that nobody tries to defend her or assume that there's nothing wrong with her

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yh true
I guess ur mom (and all adults) grew up in a time where they didn't have the means to show off?? She does want u to be happy and u should make it clear
@raw ermine yeah I thought of that but no matter what it doesnt give her the excuse to do what she always does

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She hates my art to the bone but shows it off to other people

raw ermine Oct 30, 2020, 3:50 PM

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well then in that case, either make ur point clear or just shoot ur shot at microbiology

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 3:51 PM

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She hates my voice and tells me how ugly it is but to others she's like oh my kid has such a unique voice

naive skiff Oct 30, 2020, 3:51 PM

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Wat

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 3:51 PM

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Yeah I cant explain either Waffles

raw ermine Oct 30, 2020, 3:51 PM

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:/

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 3:51 PM

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well then in that case, either make ur point clear or just shoot ur shot at microbiology
@raw ermine dont worry my dad is on my side luckily

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Shes just insane

naive skiff Oct 30, 2020, 3:51 PM

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Then let your dad help

raw ermine Oct 30, 2020, 3:51 PM

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all I gotta say is, it's ur life : )

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 3:52 PM

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He is actually, he's going to set me up with one of his cousins who specialises in stem I think

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So that I can talk to him and know more about the field

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I also have a cousin studying genetics who I can ask

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all I gotta say is, it's ur life : )
@raw ermine yeah I just hope I get control of it one day

raw ermine Oct 30, 2020, 3:53 PM

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hopefully
I mean ur dad being on ur side a huge advantage

unreal oak Oct 30, 2020, 4:04 PM

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@raw ermine yeah I just hope I get control of it one day
@dusk thorn you're 17, wait it out

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your time will certainly come

hardy halo Oct 30, 2020, 4:24 PM

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@dusk thorn your mom sounds just like my dad

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the only difference is that my mom's quite apathetic about me

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she prefers to listen to my dad than hear my story

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I remember once, I told her about my bitterness towards my dad because he has been heavily emotionally manipulative for more than a decade

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she said, your dad will be hurt by you being bitter towards him

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and she never asked about why am I like this in the first place

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if she were to be honest about the fact that I never exactly mattered to her, I wouldn't be as hurt as having to figure out the implied information

dusk thorn Oct 30, 2020, 6:04 PM

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@unreal oak thank you ❤

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@hardy halo god I was in the exact same situation, just reversed roles

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I'm so sorry you're going through that

mild compass Oct 30, 2020, 6:08 PM

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Tip:You'll have to work realllllly hard for the leap
@naive skiff woooo great tip im too motivated 😂

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@mild compass Im taking EFL, idk I heard it has a lot more advantages and ESL can get complicated when it comes to college or smt like that.
@raw ermine interesting

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Still can i complete the whole subject within 5 months without a teacher???

naive skiff Oct 30, 2020, 6:10 PM

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without a teacher

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its hard

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you need constant grading

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and corrections

mild compass Oct 30, 2020, 6:10 PM

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i mean ill have a teacher but he/she wont give me much time

naive skiff Oct 30, 2020, 6:30 PM

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idk man

idle galleon Oct 31, 2020, 11:49 AM

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to those in hard times, dealing with troubles, suffering from confusion and a lot more i cant even list out. good job getting here heartlove

raw ermine Oct 31, 2020, 12:40 PM

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I remember once, I told her about my bitterness towards my dad because he has been heavily emotionally manipulative for more than a decade
@hardy halo Im so sorry
maybe u should explain it more, coz adults usually dont know much about depression or such. Or talk to ur dad, u never know what he might feel

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i mean ill have a teacher but he/she wont give me much time
@mild compass weellllll if it's constant studying, u might but it's gonna be a lot of pressure on u and ur teacher, espicially if he/she is already quite busy. u need a deep understnding of literature, and 5 months ain't that long

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either that or I just extra-suck at English

dusk thorn Oct 31, 2020, 1:25 PM

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to those in hard times, dealing with troubles, suffering from confusion and a lot more i cant even list out. good job getting here
@idle galleon cutie patootie ❤️

rare scroll Oct 31, 2020, 1:26 PM

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Hello peepol. Idk what I am doing here or why I am writing here. I guess almost everyone here have really good grades and all. And has great plans for uni, i mean the ones who just completed their Alevels.
I just wanted to ask if anyone here has had average grades and doesn't know what to do next. My mental health is so damaged lmao, and on top of that, I am not expecting to not have the best grades that I wished for. It has been exhausting living here with my family. My life has always been THEIR decision. I mean everything. So I have always waited for the day when Alevels would be over, and the little hope that I could go study abroad and have a life that I can have of my own and make my own decisions. But with average grades, i feel like every uni i would apply to would reject me. So yeah idk.

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i am not expecting to have the best grades

idle galleon Oct 31, 2020, 1:30 PM

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@idle galleon cutie patootie ❤️
@dusk thorn no u

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Hello peepol. Idk what I am doing here or why I am writing here. I guess almost everyone here have really good grades and all. And has great plans for uni, i mean the ones who just completed their Alevels.
I just wanted to ask if anyone here has had average grades and doesn't know what to do next. My mental health is so damaged lmao, and on top of that, I am not expecting to not have the best grades that I wished for. It has been exhausting living here with my family. My life has always been THEIR decision. I mean everything. So I have always waited for the day when Alevels would be over, and the little hope that I could go study abroad and have a life that I can have of my own and make my own decisions. But with average grades, i feel like every uni i would apply to would reject me. So yeah idk.
@rare scroll cant say i understand well. but i do understand having your fam calling all the shots. my original dream was to be an actor... at first they said we could talk about it, but when the time came, they didnt even let me fight for it. so now ive ended up in a situation to finish a lvls with subjects i dont want and a course thatll take me to germany and study logistics (if i pass lol) i know they say family knows best. but theres nothing in this world that is 100% guarenteed. even though they laid out everything for me, im still a mess, my grades are borderline and sometimes even fail. and that feeling of being rejected, its not just you, im sure everyone here feels that, even if just a little bit. Again with how everything isnt guarenteed, it is definitely common sense to think "it's not guarenteed i'll succeed", but try and think of it this way "there's no guarentee i'll fail" it might not come across well and just sound like desperate positivity, but every little thing counts in this world. so in the end, great job coming so far, and there is definitely a place in this world for you. i really hope you and everyone else here find their place.

hardy halo Oct 31, 2020, 1:48 PM

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@raw ermine don't give my dad too much credit

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he thinks that depression is something that only selfish people has

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he openly said this to me

rare scroll Oct 31, 2020, 2:01 PM

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@rare scroll cant say i understand well. but i do understand having your fam calling all the shots. my original dream was to be an actor... at first they said we could talk about it, but when the time came, they didnt even let me fight for it. so now ive ended up in a situation to finish a lvls with subjects i dont want and a course thatll take me to germany and study logistics (if i pass lol) i know they say family knows best. but theres nothing in this world that is 100% guarenteed. even though they laid out everything for me, im still a mess, my grades are borderline and sometimes even fail. and that feeling of being rejected
@idle galleon
Yes they say, family knows best. But I am very much against it. Yes they want the best for us. But their thinking of what is best for us, is different from who they are deciding it for. And yes can't deny that, there are things that they could be right about. But it's not everything they are right about. As my dad's 0% involved in my life, i considered my mom as the only parent. The things that I wanted to study, the things that I want to do or go for, has always been a NO. And I could relate to what you said about they said you could talk about it, but when the time came, you couldn't fight for it. Yeah big relate to that lol. There's hasn't been a time when it didnt happen to me. So going for subjects that I didnt want to take, and constantly trying to do good has always stressed me out. And when I fail to reach their expectations, it's always my fault.

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So I am here left feeling like, whatever I do or how much i do, I am never going to be as good as I wish to be. But yes anyways.
Thankyou for the last few words. Means alot. 💕

dusk thorn Oct 31, 2020, 2:41 PM

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@rare scroll check your dms ❤

raw ermine Oct 31, 2020, 3:34 PM

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he thinks that depression is something that only selfish people has
@hardy halo yh, I get that a lot
maybe not exactly depression, but then if he can't understand that being controlling and abusive can damage someone, idk if he'll get anything else.. thing is, in that case, u'll have to wait till ur in more control.....

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I just hope things become better for u

amber otter Oct 31, 2020, 6:02 PM

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hi

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SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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ok bye

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ah there's a spam channel

dusk thorn Oct 31, 2020, 7:26 PM

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SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
@amber otter same

dusk thorn Nov 1, 2020, 11:12 AM

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Man you ever just talk to someone and they're so damn stupid you cant even say shit to them

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Like

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I have tried so many times to tell this guy outright that he makes no sense and quite frankly it's really obvious he's just trying to appear smart and talkative

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...when in reality he's embarrassing himself and I'm just getting 2nd hand embarrassment

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Like man shut up for your own good 😭

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I feel bad too because like I think he's hella insecure which is why he just talks nonsense but bro come on don't do this to yourself OR to me

hardy halo Nov 1, 2020, 11:30 AM

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honestly I'll just distance myself from them

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one of my friend's ex-boyfriend is exactly this type

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I just give them a passive look and move on with my life

dusk thorn Nov 1, 2020, 11:42 AM

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@hardy halo yeah man im trying my best

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Like me n him used to talk quite a bit but eventually I couldn't deal with it and just distanced myself

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Issue is

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He's in my server

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So whenever he's active oh boy

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I just ignore him whenever he starts being stupid

hardy halo Nov 1, 2020, 12:05 PM

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those people will go "you're trouncing on my right of freedom of speech" when you try to point out that they're stupid

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clarification: freedom of speech =/= freedom of no-retribution

dusk thorn Nov 1, 2020, 1:32 PM

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Ugh yeah

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Or like

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"Huh??? But im talking about the subject??? Why are you being so mean"

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Bc thats what he does

tawdry star Nov 1, 2020, 2:08 PM

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I just ignore him whenever he starts being stupid
@dusk thorn yeah that's it. You can explain to people how stupid they are, been in both sides so trust me 😂

raw ermine Nov 1, 2020, 2:19 PM

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Man you ever just talk to someone and they're so damn stupid you cant even say shit to them
@dusk thorn oh noooo 😦 ppl like that are so weird

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key- IGNORE

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like they'll act up at first but they'll cool down after a while

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just dont make a scene about it, and dont give them a chance to question anything just shut them down

unreal oak Nov 1, 2020, 3:31 PM

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those people will go "you're trouncing on my right of freedom of speech" when you try to point out that they're stupid
@hardy halo everyone has the right of freedom of speech yes

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but then everyone also has thr right to tell you that what you're saying is retarded

dusk thorn Nov 1, 2020, 8:40 PM

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My stomach is going absolutely wild after some fried chicken cmon man

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I just wanted chimken

naive skiff Nov 1, 2020, 8:47 PM

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Le poulet

dusk thorn Nov 1, 2020, 8:49 PM

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I'm dying bruh

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Fuck them poules

mint plover Nov 1, 2020, 9:12 PM

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guys

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i stubbed my toe on the stairs

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thank you for coming to my ted talk

dusk thorn Nov 1, 2020, 11:31 PM

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i stubbed my toe on the stairs
@mint plover how is Spain without the s

mild compass Nov 2, 2020, 3:03 AM

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@idle galleon Ik how it feels.. like I'm in India where majority of students opt for curriculums like CBSE and ICSE.. and tbh its hard being in IG.. dont even wanna think about A Levels.. I mean like personally, just cuz im in IG, ppl think its some big hot shot thing.. and they put so many expectations on you.. and if you do even one step wrong.. BAM, nobody even acknowledges you at a gathering.. like ur some sort of alien who failed her exams.. like not even CBSE where almost all my cousins are on the brink of failing.. Like, just yesterday.. about 3 months b4 my exams.. my parents are questioning my subjects.. I have gone fully commerce and evm but now they want me to take bio just cuz "hey you're fine with it so why not.. I'll speak to the school and ask if you can be a private candidate for bio" like bruh I dont even know the ABCs of Biology and they expect me to sit for an exam barely three months away..

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you're not alone, we all face it sometime in our lives 😦

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:17 AM

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my parents want me to take 4 HLs GWcmeisterPeepoEZ

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goodbye fun time

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and welcome 90 extra hours of class

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 8:02 AM

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ib

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for gr 11 and 12

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 11:15 AM

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@mint plover rip whens the funeral (jk I'm sorry that sounds really stressful)

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You guys remember the dude I was talking about yesterday?

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Yeah this guy wants his neck snapped on god

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He's fucking ridiculous

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Some people are so dumb and pretentious and you wonder how they even have friends

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 11:34 AM

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@mint plover rip whens the funeral (jk I'm sorry that sounds really stressful)
@dusk thorn around january 7th (my parents will livestream it on discord) ;)

hardy halo Nov 2, 2020, 11:34 AM

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@dusk thorn if you don't mind

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please send us the screenshots

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I'm now actually interested in how dumb he is

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:09 PM

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Sure

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📎 Screenshot_20201102-131125_Discord.jpg 📎 Screenshot_20201102-131154_Discord.jpg

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I'm the one in dark red

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It was matching my previous pfp

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I dont understand why he was getting so defensive????

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Like just say oops and leave

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Also it looks dumb but keep in mind this is accumulation of everything else ahsjdkdkd

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@hardy halo I think I might have screenshots of another conversation but not sure

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I feel like I'm going crazy agsshdjdjfj

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 12:16 PM

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oof

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my already negative iq is dropping

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even lower

exotic elm Nov 2, 2020, 12:19 PM

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my already negative iq is dropping
@mint plover same lol

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:21 PM

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Okay thank god I'm not crazy

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Do you guys see what I mean?????

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He gets so so defensive

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Over the smallest things

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LIKE BRUH JUST NOD AND GO

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And omggg

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I'm so tempted to show you guys screenshots of this one conversation we had about islam

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He was insanely.dumb

exotic elm Nov 2, 2020, 12:22 PM

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yeah i see. but at this point just like leave him be

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:22 PM

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Fyi he's muslim

exotic elm Nov 2, 2020, 12:22 PM

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what'd he say?

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:22 PM

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Dude it was so stupid like

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Basically

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gossip is haram
@dreamy void backbiting is haram but I've said all of this to his face so

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I dont say stuff without being able to say it to peoples face

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And like

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I'm.not saying he's a horrible person

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But he's just insanely insecure and I hate that he's in my server

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My server is a place where I can hang out and be comfortable and not some idiot pissing me off every 5 seconds because he's trying to show off being smart or getting extremely defensive

exotic elm Nov 2, 2020, 12:24 PM

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just don't point it out ig. Maybe he just needs the attention and you pointing it out kind of makes him more insecure?

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i think just leave him as long as he's not botheirng you

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and he can b ehappy in his head

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omg I can't type

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:24 PM

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Yeah I've been doing that for months, just blargh

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Dont worry I type horribly so I completely get what you're saying

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I just make sure to not type like a rart here

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For ages I've just been ignoring what he says

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Like

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Even yesterday

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I saw this post on the gram that was stupid af (it was about a black actor being casted to play a historical figure that is European and definitely caucasian, you know movie directors trying to be woke)

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So I sent it to my server like bruh look at this shit

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And this guy tried to include himself in the conversation... in the weirdest and most unrelated way possible?? I ain't even mad dude I just get insane 2nd hand embarrassment

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Like honestly I almost never get angry at his behaviour unless he makes me look stupid, other than that it's all just me getting severe 2nd hand embarrassment

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Like come on dude

exotic elm Nov 2, 2020, 12:27 PM

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i guess he doesn't realize it's embarrassing.

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:27 PM

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The awkward silence just doenst get to his head

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You know what's worse too

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Or not worse

exotic elm Nov 2, 2020, 12:27 PM

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i think he just gets embarrassed when u point out how dumb it is

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:28 PM

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But

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I used to talk to.him.more often and consider him my DRIEND

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Friend**

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And

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At some point

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I tried to speak to him multiple times in the nicest way possible that he doesnt need to.impress anyone

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That his true friends will know how smart he is etc etc

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Trying my BEST to hint at it without hurting his feelings but also being honest and making him a better perskn

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Person

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In one ear out the other baby

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Also now my horrible typing is slowly coming to the surface

exotic elm Nov 2, 2020, 12:29 PM

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hahaha it happens when u type abt smth you're excited about

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happens to me all the timee

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but yeah i get what you mean it's just dumb

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:30 PM

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AMNGRY

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ughhh ughhh ughhh ughhh

exotic elm Nov 2, 2020, 12:30 PM

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ok let's just say passionate

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 12:30 PM

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Yes

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Haha I'm not that mad I promise

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Comedic effect

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Just had a coffee uwu

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U ritr

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Rite

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 12:45 PM

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not a rickroll (I swear)

📎 rickroll.mp4

finite flower Nov 2, 2020, 12:48 PM

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I don’t believe you

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Looks like a rick roll

idle galleon Nov 2, 2020, 1:09 PM

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you're not alone, we all face it sometime in our lives 😦
@mild compass aye man u spittin facts,

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 1:30 PM

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My toenail is trying to reconstruct itself after infection

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Snf this dumb fuck

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IS GROWING SIDEWAYS

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YOU HAD ONE JOB

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PepeHands

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 1:57 PM

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F

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may your toenail straight out

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 2:38 PM

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Thank you wide puton

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Ptuin

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Purin

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Putin

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Oh god

lavish geode Nov 2, 2020, 3:36 PM

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who vented

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:15 PM

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This guy butchered my name

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like

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wrecked it beyond repair

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the day I got called wide puton like some kind of french food item is the day I lost my identity

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:24 PM

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AGAGSHSHSHSSH

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Putôn

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:25 PM

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https://tenor.com/view/baguette-baguette-go-brrr-gif-17703083

Tenor

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:25 PM

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🤣🤣🤣🤣

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:26 PM

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https://tenor.com/view/little-mermaid-chef-crab-les-poisson-gif-15841544

Tenor

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:26 PM

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Pain

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:26 PM

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repent for your sins, maybe lord putin will consider healing that toe of yours

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:27 PM

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LMFAOOOO

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I MEANT PAIN AS IN BREAD IN FRENCH

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BUT THAT WORKS TOO

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:27 PM

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you mean baguette

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look at an introductory video of some beta males being overwhelmed by lord putin's dazzling aura

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:27 PM

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Putôœn

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W

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What

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:28 PM

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📎 video0_6.mp4

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they're so happy they scream in happiness

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and cry tears of joy

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now you know his power

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:30 PM

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The first guy is just asking me to curb stomp him I can't explain it

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:30 PM

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yeah he does radiate that pls punch me vibe

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anyways

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you can either accept our lord and help change the world

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or go on about your life like nothing happened, with guilt in the back of your mind

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the choice is upto you

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:32 PM

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How do I accept our lord

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Teach me

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:32 PM

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become

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W I D E DEUCE

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tyler's scream is my fav in that vid lol (the bald guy in the vest, the clip after the two girls crying)

naive skiff Nov 2, 2020, 6:33 PM

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i dont think this is the right channel

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:33 PM

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well

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things went out of hand

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but I suppose nothing is normal when it involves the lord

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:35 PM

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Ok one sec

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Damn I cant edit my nickname here :(

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:35 PM

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wut

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I can

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:35 PM

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Let me try agaib

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Again**

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:36 PM

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like this

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 6:36 PM

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LE PUTON AHSJSJJDD

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Yeah no it wont let me

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Do I need a specific role??

mint plover Nov 2, 2020, 6:36 PM

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doubt it

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well, take your time

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the time taken for the lord to connect with each person's heart is different

dusk thorn Nov 2, 2020, 7:02 PM

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Yes sir

abstract niche Nov 3, 2020, 11:16 AM

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Hi I would like to vent about my marks in term examination...and how I’m mad at myself for not working hard enough to get good marks, yes so I guess that’s all I wanted to say, thanks for listening:))

mild compass Nov 3, 2020, 11:20 AM

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A pleasure
Itll be okay tho
Hopefully 👀

dusk thorn Nov 3, 2020, 11:32 AM

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@abstract niche it's gonna be ok! This could be a turning point for you :) sometimes we need a smack in the face to tell us to work harder

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Bad grades arent the end of the world, you have the rest of the terms to work harder and to do your best uwu

north karma Nov 3, 2020, 11:33 AM

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Bruh

abstract niche Nov 3, 2020, 11:34 AM

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@dusk thorn the sweetest thanks :))

dusk thorn Nov 3, 2020, 11:45 AM

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You're welcome sweetheart, keep your chin up and do your best

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Bruh
@north karma ?

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:06 PM

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Hey guys, just wanted to talk about how confused I am when it comes to chossing what Im going to do in Uni. For IGCSE

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I was so focused on medecine and got good grades for sciences.

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But now i just dont know what to do.

craggy stag Nov 3, 2020, 8:09 PM

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I have selected my subjects but I am still confused

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:09 PM

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Yeah like i gave my all to persue medecine and now for a levels im really confused

craggy stag Nov 3, 2020, 8:10 PM

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well I just started 9th

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:10 PM

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grade?

craggy stag Nov 3, 2020, 8:10 PM

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Year 9

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:10 PM

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ye mad

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u still got some time to choose

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i just feel like i shouldve already decided

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im in y12

craggy stag Nov 3, 2020, 8:13 PM

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If I wanna do something with sciences or commerce I should take it now cause it will help me in y11 and 12

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:13 PM

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oh ah i see

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my grade system goes up to year 13

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12-13 are A levels

lavish geode Nov 3, 2020, 8:15 PM

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Yeah like i gave my all to persue medecine and now for a levels im really confused
do sat1 lol

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u can apply to anything with sat1 so that gives u more time to thonk

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:17 PM

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whats sat1

lavish geode Nov 3, 2020, 8:17 PM

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SAT

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equivalent to IGs- A levels

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but american

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math/english

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:17 PM

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oh aha

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i dont have SATS at my school

lavish geode Nov 3, 2020, 8:18 PM

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theyre not given in schools

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checkcenters in ur city

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self study

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:18 PM

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ill check it out

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thx

dusk thorn Nov 3, 2020, 8:27 PM

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Hey guys, just wanted to talk about how confused I am when it comes to chossing what Im going to do in Uni. For IGCSE
@sullen sierra you honestly still have time :) i only just started looking into a particular degree. You should try www.prospects.ac.uk, it gives a list of every degree imaginable with a thorough description of the studies and all the possible jobs you could work as with said degree. It also describes the jobs in full detail

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Try imagining what you would be comfortable doing, maybe pick a science that feels like your playing field you know? Doesn't have to be the highest grade either - just something you enjoy

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I hope my advice wasn't too vague - this is coming from someone who is also very uncertain

sullen sierra Nov 3, 2020, 8:28 PM

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man lowkey thx so much

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helped immensely

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sometimes all u need is just to hear it from someone else

dusk thorn Nov 3, 2020, 8:31 PM

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You're more than welcome, it's the least I can do :)

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Feel free to message me if you need any reassurance or just someone to talk to, we on the same boat my dude

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If you're interested, I'm going to be visiting a research facility tomorrow that specialises in micro biology or something along the lines of it, might inspire you?

craggy stag Nov 3, 2020, 9:14 PM

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I am confused in deciding between 2 very diff things finance something else

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and still struggling to decide

cosmic ginkgo Nov 4, 2020, 1:29 AM

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Do you wanna do a lot of math and computation?

craggy stag Nov 4, 2020, 6:16 AM

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Yes

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I have taken economics , business , ICT , Math eng, and acc as my subjects and now im trynna decide what to do with these subjects

spring steppe Nov 4, 2020, 6:22 AM

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I feel u

exotic elm Nov 4, 2020, 6:52 AM

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wait. you've chosen 5 subjects in grade 9?

craggy stag Nov 4, 2020, 6:52 AM

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ye

exotic elm Nov 4, 2020, 6:55 AM

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Is that normal? I always thought till grade 10, you have to do all

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then pick like at least 6 for grade 10

craggy stag Nov 4, 2020, 6:56 AM

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idk I am new to the curriculum

exotic elm Nov 4, 2020, 7:01 AM

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oh maybe it's different where you are idk

mint plover Nov 4, 2020, 7:34 AM

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I did same

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phy, bio, chem, math, english

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ditched everything else

midnight crest Nov 4, 2020, 8:16 AM

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It's not worth all this money just for me to get a passkey to a zoom class

dusk thorn Nov 4, 2020, 8:50 AM

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ditched everything else
@mint plover same

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Like

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Unis dont give a fuck what you did

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They just care you got a minimum of B in math and english I'm pretty sure

naive skiff Nov 4, 2020, 9:39 AM

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I only took 8 for the ice certificate

exotic elm Nov 4, 2020, 12:31 PM

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I wanna vent on here but I'm so scared someone who knows me irl will see it lol

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how's everyone doing?

naive skiff Nov 4, 2020, 12:54 PM

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just throw in an alt and vent like i did once

dusk thorn Nov 4, 2020, 2:22 PM

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I wanna vent on here but I'm so scared someone who knows me irl will see it lol
@exotic elm check your dms :)

hardy halo Nov 4, 2020, 8:43 PM

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lord

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the brits in the same year as me are deliberately excluding me

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they told me in the group chat that they can attend the same tutorial time slot as me

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but turns around and tells the postdoc (the tutor) on microsoft teams that they aren't doing the same time slot as me

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even the goddamned postdoc can't stand this anymore

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and decided to shift from neutral to sticking up for me

rare scroll Nov 4, 2020, 10:45 PM

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CAN I JUST CRY HERE AAAAAAAAAAAA

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WHY DOES EVERYTHING GO SO WRONG

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PepeHands

tawdry star Nov 5, 2020, 4:19 AM

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the brits in the same year as me are deliberately excluding me
@hardy halo WTF

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 4:43 AM

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@hardy halo BRUH FUCK THESE GUYS

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@rare scroll what's wrong? :(

tawdry star Nov 5, 2020, 4:48 AM

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EXACTLY

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 4:57 AM

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No comment only rage

tawdry star Nov 5, 2020, 5:13 AM

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Yeah-

rare scroll Nov 5, 2020, 5:17 AM

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@dusk thorn I had 3 paper 5 exams on consecutive days. The one that took place yesterday, I thought I did so goood, I learned later that I actually didnt. And today's the last exam. Bio paper 5 has been killing me. I WANNNA CRY. I COULDNT SLEEP TODAY TOO. I mean noooooothing ever goes well for me lmaoooo. So everytime I work on trying to believe in myself that this time it is going to be different or it will be better, and it doesn't turn out to be like that, I am left with a huge level of frustration and zeroooo self confidence lmaooo.

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happysad

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 5:22 AM

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@rare scroll it sounds really stressful and I'm sad to hear that they didn't go well :(( it's going to be okay eventually. Do you think you can retake these exams in another session?

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And dont grades come out in January?

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Worst thing you could do is compare to others tbh

rare scroll Nov 5, 2020, 5:26 AM

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@rare scroll it sounds really stressful and I'm sad to hear that they didn't go well :(( it's going to be okay eventually. Do you think you can retake these exams in another session?
@dusk thorn no there's no more opportunities for retaking any exam. And I wouldn't too. I fell back for more than a year while doing Alevels. All my friends are at second year of their uni already. Both in olevel and alevels, I took several retake exams. I AM SO TIRED LMAO. And I get no better smh. Like nothing is enough.

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 5:28 AM

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I think you should do a foundation year or change boards

rare scroll Nov 5, 2020, 5:28 AM

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Worst thing you could do is compare to others tbh
@dusk thorn I REALLY REALLY try not to. But then, sometimes it doesn't helpp.

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 5:28 AM

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Because honestly, exams aren't for everyoneb

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All our brains work differently

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That's why you have science people, linguistic people etc

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Wait for your exam results to come out and see how you did, if they weren't so good, consider a foundation year

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Or consider going BTEC if that's an option

rare scroll Nov 5, 2020, 5:30 AM

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If only my mom let me take my own decisions, I would study the subjects that I genuinely enjoyed and I believe I would do so much better. But trying to good at sth I am 0% interested in was a fucking joke the whole time

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Wait for your exam results to come out and see how you did, if they weren't so good, consider a foundation year
@dusk thorn yess that's all I can wait for rn

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 5:31 AM

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If only my mom let me take my own decisions, I would study the subjects that I genuinely enjoyed and I believe I would do so much better. But trying to good at sth I am 0% interested in was a fucking joke the whole time
@rare scroll god I hate this

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Is your father in the picture?

hardy halo Nov 5, 2020, 8:44 AM

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@tawdry star I used to be quite neutral to those brits

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until they started setting me off in the most passive aggressive way possible

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pretending to be friendly to someone and then deliberately excluding them from activities that are required by the college to be a two-person setting

tawdry star Nov 5, 2020, 8:46 AM

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Okay that's just fucked up

hardy halo Nov 5, 2020, 8:46 AM

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every single time that happens

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I want to punch them in the face

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I doubt it's racism, just the usual "we higher class people don't want to interact with you uncultured savage"

mint plover Nov 5, 2020, 8:48 AM

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ohoho look at me with my earl grey tea and hat I'm superior /s

tawdry star Nov 5, 2020, 8:49 AM

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I doubt it's racism, just the usual "we higher class people don't want to interact with you uncultured savage"
@hardy halo yeah exactly-

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Screw them honestly

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I want to punch them in the face
@hardy halo save it, it ain't worth

hardy halo Nov 5, 2020, 8:49 AM

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indeed

unreal oak Nov 5, 2020, 8:51 AM

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I doubt it's racism, just the usual "we higher class people don't want to interact with you uncultured savage"
@hardy halo this ^

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very few brits are genuinely racist

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but a lot of them are classist

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 9:13 AM

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@hardy halo bro what the fuck im so sorry

rare scroll Nov 5, 2020, 11:07 AM

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Is your father in the picture?
@dusk thorn HAHAHAHAHAAH THIS IS ONE THING I ALWAYS LAUGH AT LMAO

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My dad is alive but NEVER BEEN LIKE A DAD

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So I dont even consider him as anyone

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Also because he doesn't know what's communication or family or love or whatever and has been the most abusive person to me. So, yeah its always my mom who i would have anything to say abt

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 11:17 AM

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AHH IM SORRY

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I wanted to ask in case you could talk to.him

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Hmm

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I don't know your mother nearly as much as you do

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Maybe you should try showing her the information that will prove to her that science subject A levels are not the key to everything

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Or science in general

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And show her all the different careers you could have besides ones that need science

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I honestly have no experience in terms of foundation year and whatnot but it seems that it's your best chance to study what you want and redeem the lost chance of the A levels

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If anybody has better advice than me please say so

rare scroll Nov 5, 2020, 11:40 AM

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I really don't want to go for a foundation year. I can get into unis here in my country with whatever average grades I get. I am hoping I get a good result at maths because there's a good chance i would. And bio paper 5 went SOO WELL today. LIKE I AM SURPRISED LMAOO. LIKE STH WENT RIGHT TODAY. I wanted to go abroad and in order to do that, I need way better grades than what I am thinking i would get. That is the only thing that worries me. But yes even if i fail to, I can still hope to someday study abroad for masters. Which my mom seems supportive of.

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I mean I fell back for almost 2 years. I would have been already in uni second year now if i didnt. So taking another year would only make things harder on me. Like i literally felt like I kept trying to do better at these alevels and olevels. And it was a constant loop of me trying and retaking exams. It was exhausting af.

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So today its finally over

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And my last exam went pretty well

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SO

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I AM HAPPPY RNNN

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AAAAAA

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THANKYOU for being here and responding to me tho! heartlove

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@dusk thorn

raw ermine Nov 5, 2020, 11:43 AM

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I rlly hope things get better for you, and hope u get the freedom you deserve. If your dad doesnt appreciate you, his loss
Life doesnt and rlly shouldnt always revolve around school, but im sure your hard work would pay off seriously ur a pretty tough girl

rare scroll Nov 5, 2020, 11:43 AM

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THANKYOU SO MUCH! MEANS ALOOOTTT! Especially because i lack supportive people in my life😂

raw ermine Nov 5, 2020, 11:44 AM

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hope you find more supportive ppl when u leave abroad, good ppl are out there somewhere : )

rare scroll Nov 5, 2020, 12:14 PM

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Hopefully. happysad

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 12:59 PM

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@rare scroll I'm so happy for you! I'm really glad it went well :)

Everybody has their own pace. Faster doesn't mean better, sooner doesn't mean better either. Everything has a solution, you're going to be okay. Keep your head up and don't let that crown fall queen

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Yall somebody ate the food in the fridge I was saving for today

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PepeHands

midnight crest Nov 5, 2020, 1:21 PM

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I wonder if my parents understand that using my education as a threat makes me less likely to want to go for uni

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I am now less enthused about anything to do with my major

unreal oak Nov 5, 2020, 1:26 PM

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I wonder if my parents understand that using my education as a threat makes me less likely to want to go for uni
@midnight crest ikr

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if you dont do this i wont send you to uni

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go ahead, don't, you'd be doing me a favor

midnight crest Nov 5, 2020, 1:27 PM

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I didn't submit my application yet cus I was having issues with writing my personal essay

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Got yelled at the entire duration of dinner today

unreal oak Nov 5, 2020, 1:27 PM

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yeah i had the same thing happen back when i applied

midnight crest Nov 5, 2020, 1:27 PM

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either I get into this specific uni I'm applying to or I don't even get to go to any uni

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Gee thanks for further making me care less about uni

mild compass Nov 5, 2020, 1:29 PM

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haha.. I'm still in my IGCSE but love your confidence and attitude

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 1:30 PM

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@midnight crest I know how you feel man fuck them, no offence

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I hate hearing parents that do that

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My mum used to do that

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And I just kept replying that I'd like to see her try bc she's too egotistical to not send her kid to uni

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She eventually shut her fucking mouth so

unreal oak Nov 5, 2020, 1:35 PM

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my tolerance for that was low then and is p much nil rn

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you'll stop paying my tuition? fine, I have the skills to earn enough to live even without it

midnight crest Nov 5, 2020, 1:41 PM

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Mood

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You're forcing my hand to compromise and settle even though I didn't want to. I'm not tolerating empty threats when it's not something I want in the first place

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 1:46 PM

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Fuck yeah

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This energy>>>>>

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you'll stop paying my tuition? fine, I have the skills to earn enough to live even without it
@unreal oak I quote my distant uncle: "you'll always find ways to learn and make money even without an education higher than highschool"

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And he did that and became really successful just saying 👁

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This might sound harsh but

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I cant wait until the older generation dies out

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They suck and dont care for the future

naive skiff Nov 5, 2020, 1:50 PM

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Hmm

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 1:54 PM

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Hey tell me I'm wrong

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Most boomers dont care for the emissions

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Ruined the economy for us

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Same goes for gen x

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Milennials and gen z have completely different mindsets and hopefully will change the world for the better

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I'm not saying mils and z will save the world

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And I'm not trying to glorify anything

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Or beat down the good adults of gen x that exist

tawdry star Nov 5, 2020, 2:04 PM

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Most boomers dont care for the emissions
@dusk thorn Yes but I wouldn't blame them. Heck they just bought into the fashion/dogma. The industrial and 1900s capitalism simply went on rage with resources burning them up for profit without second thought

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 2:04 PM

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Oh yeah I understand

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Sorry if I had evidence I would present it, remember when the scientists said that if we dont make change, the earth is a goner by like the end of the 20s or by 2030?

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And then a tonne of stuff was being posted

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I recall a lot of it being proof that the older generation is like ok we gonna go anyway so we dont care about petitions or trying to live more sustainably

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I dont mean to generalise and imply all the older people are bad

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But a decent amount are lazy as fuck and even our generation has bad apples

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I was discussing this with like, the head of a research institute here yesterday

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And we basically agreed that baby boomers and gen x out of the work force is for the better

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Generation X ruined the country I live in like CRAZY during the pandemic

tawdry star Nov 5, 2020, 2:43 PM

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Mhm

naive skiff Nov 5, 2020, 6:37 PM

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Lemme just say this i wanted to vent a lil

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Giving people second chances or third... may seem fine

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But you may realise the effects when youre screwed

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I have no clue on what to do

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I cant go into details bout it

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But i know ive screwed myself up

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Both mentally and physically

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 6:40 PM

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Agreed

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Giving people 2nd chances is disrespecting yourself

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You're invalidating yourself by letting back in the people that hurt you

naive skiff Nov 5, 2020, 6:42 PM

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Ive given someone too many chances

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And I've hurt myself somewhat

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But despite i still want amicable relationship with em

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Cuz i know they arent bad but

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 6:59 PM

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No no

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Period

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End of story

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Fuck these guys regardless

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You left them for a reason

raw ermine Nov 5, 2020, 8:10 PM

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I cant wait until the older generation dies out
@dusk thorn times changed so fast and they dont get what's wrong with us, wether it's mental disorders or rapes or attacks or all that bullshit. We had to legit sit and watch for too long tbh, even tho it rlly didnt affect me as much as others, I've seen so many ppl get so effected by it, more than I can count. Including some of my rlly close friends
the fuck ppl like while they die and sit back we are stuck fixing what they did wrong

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Giving people 2nd chances is disrespecting yourself
@dusk thorn for some reason I still do it anyway : ) I mean idk im like "man that hurt Im not trusting anyone again" then BOOM Im spilling my life out to someone the next month😂

dusk thorn Nov 5, 2020, 11:34 PM

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I lost my earphones and I feel like crap

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@dusk thorn for some reason I still do it anyway : ) I mean idk im like "man that hurt Im not trusting anyone again" then BOOM Im spilling my life out to someone the next month😂
@raw ermine it's ok to trust new people, not ok to trust the ones that hurt you in such a way that you had to leave them

tawdry star Nov 6, 2020, 4:25 AM

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I lost my earphones and I feel like crap
@dusk thorn it's okay, happens. Like one action isn't what defines you plus what you lost is sth that's external it isn't a part of you. Losing that is worse

naive skiff Nov 6, 2020, 5:24 AM

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i wasn't hurt much by em

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maybe a bad influence you could say

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I lost my earphones and I feel like crap
@dusk thorn that's why headphones are superior and they make you look cool

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 8:19 AM

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@dusk thorn it's okay, happens. Like one action isn't what defines you plus what you lost is sth that's external it isn't a part of you. Losing that is worse
@tawdry star pugs really said "shut up bitch get yourself together"

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Jkjk thank you

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I can always buy some new ones I guess

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Those were just my best pair

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They're bound to be somewhere in the house

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@dusk thorn that's why headphones are superior and they make you look cool
@naive skiff true tbh

hardy halo Nov 6, 2020, 8:36 AM

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I think losing your earphones and feeling like crap is that you're projecting your internal views of yourself upon an external event

tawdry star Nov 6, 2020, 8:38 AM

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Yepp ^^

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 9:24 AM

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I lost my earphones and I feel like crap
@dusk thorn 💔 😭

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@raw ermine it's ok to trust new people, not ok to trust the ones that hurt you in such a way that you had to leave them
@dusk thorn tbh both lol, idk I cant hate ppl for too long I always end up forgiving and trusting them all over again

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Crap, I sound like a 20 year old

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 9:27 AM

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I found my earphones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I think losing your earphones and feeling like crap is that you're projecting your internal views of yourself upon an external event
@hardy halo could you emphasise owo?

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 9:27 AM

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zdab

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 9:28 AM

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I say owo so much if you take a shot every time I say it you would die twice

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 9:28 AM

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LMAOOOO

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😂

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 9:33 AM

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IM SO HAPPY I FOUND MY EARPHONES

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 9:34 AM

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I have so many homewoks and projects and im watching youtube.. :/

naive skiff Nov 6, 2020, 10:20 AM

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I can hate someone forever heh

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 10:34 AM

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lol idk I forgive ppl even if they left a scar and ppl tell me I shouldnt. idk I feel like everyone deserves a second chance, even tho it's rlly stupid and I rlly payed the price for it sometimes lol

tawdry star Nov 6, 2020, 10:48 AM

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IM SO HAPPY I FOUND MY EARPHONES
@dusk thorn NAISU

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 10:53 AM

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I have so many homewoks and projects and im watching youtube.. :/
@raw ermine go freshen up and try start your day! Sometimes sudden stops are good for being productive, other times not, so you can try keeping the YouTube video playing whilst preparing to do your project

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I can hate someone forever heh
@naive skiff don't waste your energy on hating someone, leave them behind and prosper

naive skiff Nov 6, 2020, 10:58 AM

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hmm

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not my style

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NAISU
Weeb

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 10:58 AM

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I mean it's your choice n all

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Just advising what's best for you

tawdry star Nov 6, 2020, 11:01 AM

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Hate takes more energy than love tbh. And it isn't worth spending energy over people or things in particular

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 11:01 AM

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^^

naive skiff Nov 6, 2020, 11:02 AM

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i sleep

tawdry star Nov 6, 2020, 11:03 AM

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Guten

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:22 PM

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@naive skiff don't waste your energy on hating someone, leave them behind and prosper
@dusk thorn some ppl are ✨hard to forget✨ and make me wanna ✨strangle them✨ : D
but lol idk ig

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:23 PM

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It takes time

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It took me a while to forget my ex

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I thought I would never forget them

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Geuinely

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Genuinely*

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And here I am

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Prospering without his bitch ass

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It just seems bleak in the moment

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:23 PM

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that's actually pretty cool : )

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hope I can do that

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:24 PM

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It's definitely a glow up

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January I was crying every single day without fail multiple times

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July I never thought about him once in 24 hours

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Worth the wait

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:25 PM

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coz my fucking brain is stuck in my fucking grade 6 crush

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when I was ELEVEN

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I haven't seen him in two years lol

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:25 PM

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Hahaha that's totally fine

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Stuff takes time

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I mean

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If you want some form of reassurance

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He has probably changed a lot since then - likely not to your liking too

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:26 PM

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lol i wanna forget him tho but I keep thinking
I mean worst part is on the last day of 7th grade he said he liked me but I ditched him idk y

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:26 PM

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Lmfao dont worry dude, you were really young and so was he

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:26 PM

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He has probably changed a lot since then - likely not to your liking too
@dusk thorn ikr I keep thinking, I might be liking a freaking person that doesnt exist anymore, coz yh idk that freaks me out

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:26 PM

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That's okay

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It isn't crazy to hover over what once was

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Just not forever

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Then it becomes unhealthy

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It's okay if you still think about him

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:27 PM

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yh ik
i just wish I can say sorry I havent seen him since that day

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:27 PM

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But try telling yourself that he has definitely changed since then, and so have you

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:27 PM

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yh true

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:27 PM

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Well who knows, maybe you can find his social media

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The lack of closure is probably what is bothering your brain

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I felt the same way towards my ex

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The lack of closure was eating me up

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:28 PM

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I tried he isnt there....it's so frustrating like dude make an insta account that I can find already

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:28 PM

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Maybe a Facebook? Try googling his name?

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:29 PM

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The lack of closure is probably what is bothering your brain
@dusk thorn Yh I mean I guess we were pretty good friends before that and then all of a sudden he left and I didnt get over him since then

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:29 PM

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It's alright :)

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If you can't find him online

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Well

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Some things just aren't meant to be

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It's okay

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:30 PM

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yh
thanks a lot woww

dusk thorn Nov 6, 2020, 7:30 PM

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No problem sweetie, least I could do :)

hardy halo Nov 6, 2020, 7:37 PM

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@raw ermine someone did something similar to me a year and a half ago

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a good friend who suddenly ghosted me

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even though I eventually got over it after 2 months

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:38 PM

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tbh it wasnt ghosting, the school legit shut down and well I never got the chance

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even though I eventually got over it after 2 months
@hardy halo 👏

hardy halo Nov 6, 2020, 7:39 PM

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nevertheless the event was the last to push me into depression

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:39 PM

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yh stuff like that suck

hardy halo Nov 6, 2020, 7:39 PM

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I was waffling around the edges for roughly a year before that happened

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nowadays I still sometimes find it hard to control my temper

raw ermine Nov 6, 2020, 7:40 PM

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well Im glad that you got over it

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I guess the after affects do last a longer time

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but still : )

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 2:34 PM

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Man I hate the internet

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All these trumpies are like

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Oooh we're upset but you dont see us rioting!!11!!!!11!!!!

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...ok the riots happened for a reason?

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And most of tbe protestors were peacefu??

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Peaceful *

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Like there is video evidence of protestors holding back other protestors from being violent?

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I'm not saying every protester is innocent but are you blind

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Someone please tell me I'm not crazy

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👁👁

finite flower Nov 8, 2020, 2:36 PM

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ur not crazy ur deuce

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 2:36 PM

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BRUH HAHAHAHA

tawdry star Nov 8, 2020, 3:28 PM

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Someone please tell me I'm not crazy
@dusk thorn chill

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I've seen some of my friends swing trump over the past few days. Radicalization is real thing and the internet does suck indeed

hardy halo Nov 8, 2020, 3:48 PM

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what a joke

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I can't even book a meeting with a medical practitioner in the UK

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because 'under 18' and all that jazz

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and I don't even have an accompanying adult who's legally registered with me here

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am I just supposed to sit back and wait for years because it's not a medical emergency?

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 4:00 PM

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@hardy halo as far as I know you can see a gp at 16??

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Like by yourself I mean

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@tawdry star I'm trying to chill but like,,,I feel like I'm the one in the wrong rn

hardy halo Nov 8, 2020, 4:01 PM

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I tried to book a meeting

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and the booking site told me that they can't accept people who are under 18 to use this service

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and it's sunday

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they don't work weekends

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I'm trying to find a way to work around this, like asking someone who's over 18 to register me as their child

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 4:04 PM

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That's... weird???

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My 16 year old friends would book their own appts all the time

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I wish I could help somehow

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Do you have any friends in the UK who can help

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?

tawdry star Nov 8, 2020, 4:12 PM

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@tawdry star I'm trying to chill but like,,,I feel like I'm the one in the wrong rn
@dusk thorn You aren't, just breathe. Rn everything's up in the air, just don't say anything in public. They'll create a shit storm in your DMs. Just be mindful and don't think over it. At the end of the day, no matter what, politics is always a cesspit. Just go about your day

unreal oak Nov 8, 2020, 4:18 PM

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@tawdry star I'm trying to chill but like,,,I feel like I'm the one in the wrong rn
@dusk thorn like pugs said, its politics - more often than not its a shitshow either way

hardy halo Nov 8, 2020, 4:18 PM

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ahwell

tawdry star Nov 8, 2020, 4:18 PM

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Yeah

hardy halo Nov 8, 2020, 4:18 PM

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as if something has actually gone well for me

unreal oak Nov 8, 2020, 4:18 PM

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and this election is the big daddy of shitshows

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so I would personally recommend avoiding election coverage for the next week or two

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 4:36 PM

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@unreal oak @tawdry star thank you guys 👉👈very sweet

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I have elvis to calm me down

naive skiff Nov 8, 2020, 4:37 PM

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Elvis and calm

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They contradict

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 4:37 PM

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📎 20201108_183704.jpg

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Hes peaceful when hes being fat or eating

naive skiff Nov 8, 2020, 4:38 PM

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2 secs later screeches

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 4:38 PM

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Yesterday at 9pm he started talking like crazy

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lavish geode Nov 8, 2020, 4:39 PM

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And most of tbe protestors were peacefu??
no

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 4:40 PM

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There is a lot of video evidence online of most protestors holding back those who wanted to be violent

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I think I worded it rather poorly - the intention of the protests were not inherently violent

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Or originally violent

unreal oak Nov 8, 2020, 5:17 PM

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Or originally violent
@dusk thorn agreed, but there was still some looting and rioting

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 5:18 PM

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Yes

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Which was wrong

unreal oak Nov 8, 2020, 5:18 PM

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and sadly, a movement is often defined by its worst individuals

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 5:18 PM

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Some people took advantage of the situation and did that

unreal oak Nov 8, 2020, 5:18 PM

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im not saying BLM is wrong cos of the riots

dusk thorn Nov 8, 2020, 5:18 PM

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And those people are at wrong

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and sadly, a movement is often defined by its worst individuals
@unreal oak yes agreed

unreal oak Nov 8, 2020, 5:19 PM

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another thing that gave me pause back in June was how so many people gathered in a crowd at the peak of COVID

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mindboggling tbh - does coronavirus take a day off if the purpose of your gathering is anti-racism?

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and this was at a time when in many parts of the US you couldn't even go to a friend's place

raw ermine Nov 8, 2020, 6:40 PM

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ur not crazy ur deuce
@finite flower dad joke alert 😂

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Yesterday at 9pm he started talking like crazy
@dusk thorn He's happy coz Trump aint president

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Some people rlly dont make sense to me

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like how can there be ppl that actually are convinced with shitty ways of thinking

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and either u believe they're right or ur a shitty person too

unreal oak Nov 8, 2020, 8:00 PM

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and either u believe they're right or ur a shitty person too
@raw ermine modern politics basically

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:27 AM

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Ok so look I am really fucked

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got wayyy too many dues, and I have wayy too much to study by myself, I will be sacrificing majority of my free time now

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any way I can get through the grind

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I can't procrastinate on anything now

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i mean i should be able to get through it but i will really have to work my ass off

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:29 AM

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Welcome to the club :)

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:29 AM

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Yea this is the result of months of procrastinating

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2 months to be specific

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on essays about 2400 words im really fucked

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just finished the rough outline

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:30 AM

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Pro tip don't do that in uni, a week of procrastinating got me here and it feels like shit

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:30 AM

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not to mention I have other work

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@cosmic ginkgo this is the last time

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:30 AM

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Divide it up into tasks

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:30 AM

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i have deleted all my games, and steam

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@cosmic ginkgo done

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:31 AM

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Break it up into steps

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:31 AM

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scheduled it as well

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only problem is i don't wanna procrastinate on work anymore

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if i do im really fucked

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:31 AM

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Put them somewhere where you can see clearly

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:31 AM

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i have to negotiate with the teacher on deadlines if a procrastinate more

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:31 AM

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Let a friend know so they can gently nudge you back to work and give you some motivation

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Try to keep a weekly Todo list

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Or a daily one

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:32 AM

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yeah just printed a couple out

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a weekly one

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for the months

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next 2 months

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:32 AM

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Like in uni I have constant deadlines every week (almost everyday) that repeat

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:32 AM

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yeah makes sense

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:32 AM

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So I can make a timetable of what I'm supposed to do each day and tick them off

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:32 AM

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i can imagine the workload being fucked

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yeah this isn't going to be fun at all

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:33 AM

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But it'll be okay

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You will get through it

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:34 AM

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bruh i am actually worried about school work for once

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:34 AM

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Just try to keep work at the forefront until you get this done, try grinding out a couple of hours at once

wooden elm Nov 10, 2020, 1:34 AM

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ye I am forced to grind 4h at minimum

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on a daily basis

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cuz i fucked up big time

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hopefully it doesn't take as long as what i have planned out

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ahhh idk man

cosmic ginkgo Nov 10, 2020, 1:35 AM

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I know it feels like it'll never finish

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i really can't fucking trust myself to be this disciiplined
@wooden elm ik that feeling

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But deadlines are a good motivation for me

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Yep

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well fuck today is the last day ill procrastinate, mostly because I haven't slept
@wooden elm try not to give yourself that extra procrastination time, it never helped me

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Then go to sleep now

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Speaking of which I really need to go :/

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If I plan on catching up on all my work tomorrow that is

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Np , just remember that you can get through it blobpeek

raw ermine Nov 11, 2020, 7:21 AM

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I put 5 alarms, somehow I skipped all of them, and I missed my computer science class

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Online classes suvk

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ok thank you for hearing me out

naive skiff Nov 11, 2020, 8:46 AM

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agreed

regal current Nov 11, 2020, 11:55 AM

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yes

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School sucks

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:)

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i hate life

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and idk