venting

[unreal shadow]

And does help you set your foot through the door

[oak smelt]

this is an overstatement tbh. it depends on what you're learning

like really ask yourself

what org experience do u want to do

or is it just general volunteer job

cuz quite honestly if u list out "I volunteered to help the homeless" it will be seen as irrelevant

i think the reason why shes against you on this topic is because u have not made it clear what your intention is

and at this stage, tripple As can bring you to more places than B B C with some vonlunteering on the sideline

[naive skiff]

grades usually matter for first job

in uni ive been tryna get good grades but my dads been nagging me not to focus solely on academics

internships extracurriculars

[naive skiff]

ngl true

the jobs usually arent like yay you helped homeless, screw everything join us

if they know you have relevant exp

can do work

someone with really good experience but avg grades vs someone with high grades but no exp

both have their chances

[oak smelt]

Emphasis on good experience being related to the job not gving out food for free

[wintry rampart]

the "volunteer work" that i do as of now is being part of student org bodies

and event committees

[wintry rampart]

hmm... she slowly knows as i tell her my future plans looking forward, but i feel that she's still grade-centric

[unreal shadow]

what matters most is what you do within it

if you're js attending meetings or smthn like that then that's p useless lol

you must be clearly demonstrating some useful skills

and certain type of skills

[wintry rampart]

i was able to obtain one sponsorship with a big-time makeup company in my country for an event that one of my committees had, turns out, my mother knew the owner

so it was easy

i'l lbe on the documentations side for another, checking if the project leaders' documents are filed and used correctly

[oak smelt]

Is it possible for u to get some certificate that achknowledges your contribution?

They help a lot with unis cuz theres a pace to upload them

AND will nudge your grade-centric mother

all they care about is some number and signs ona piece of paper

[wintry rampart]

hmm... my yearbook would at least inform my mother about the org work that i committed in

and i got my own ids for these committees too

[wintry rampart]

i'll be sure to nudge her, although she's slowly supporting me by allowing me to practice org work

[slate sky]

man I have three big tests next week monday

I am so stressed and like idk how to manage my time

each of them are like atleast an hour, so its basically like an exam

[silver wasp]

You need to start by getting rid of that stress because its contributing to your time-management, realise the importance of the tests and find out what you need to focus on and start getting on with studying it, even if you feel ready you should study because it gives you a sense of peace alsooo having tests or even exams doesn't mean you dedicate your life and soul to studying so make sure you're treating yourself in between too though but not completely spoiling yourself that you end up being unprepared, order yourself food that you like or get up and set up your workspace those little things will motivate you and well personally I dont do this but I know it helps alot of people but you can always plan out something like a mini timetable on what you need to get done by what time and try to act upon it

To ignore your stress think of being able to fight the tests and doing amazing on them and really putting in the effort that'll overweigh the difficulty of the tests, treat the test as a piece of paper like it has no control over you but dont overdo it where your like cool the test doesnt matter 😭 and let yourself know that its okay to make mistakes it happens alot and the whole purpose is to learn from them and study with friends or something so you have support on your side but really its okayyy you'll do great its all about how much you trust yourself and you know the whole server's here to support you and help you through everything you can always ask us and remind yourself your not the only one feeling this way having to go through this but theres others too and think about what advice you'd give them if they asked you the same thing and instead of THINKING about that advice instead ACT upon it

[slate sky]

tysm

[amber tide]

e

[unreal shadow]

Chill out man

Are these people giving you anything in return?

Do they make you money

Or something like that

If not why do you give 2 shits about their idea of you

Besides that

All you can do is try your best if you get in good otherwise it us what it is

And your effort never goes to waste

You must’ve enjoyed your ecs

Or you learnt stuff from it

You gained from them either way

[radiant karma]

Persuading My Family to Embrace My Computer Science Passion: Seeking Advice

[proven rover]

I was planning to finish this oct/nov by taking math A2 and CS A2. But it looks like that will be hard as there are no teachers who will be teaching these subjects in this session. And they keep telling me that it is impossible.
Now idk what to do, I'm already 18 and staying for next m/j will make more late and I will enter uni while I'm 20.. (I will not be able to enter straight away as results for m/j will be in August and deadline for uni application will be in July, I will have to wait for spring semester that starts in april)
For a second I said to myself it's ok I will take the subs with self studying but here comes another problem... I'm not confident about how I did in last m/j tbh.
I took physics a2, Math as, CS as and German.
I'm confident about German and math, but not really about cs and physics.
I'm scared that I will have to retake something.. will I be able to retake physics a2 and study math a2 and Cs a2??

[slate sky]

I think age doesn’t matter tbh. If u start Uni at 20, it’s still ok. Also, I recommend that u can just self study your subjects and attempt sitting your exams in Oct Nov. If the exam goes well, it’s all good but u can always resit again at any time. For physics, et physics has a lot of great content and u can get some self studying done by watching the videos of et physics

[serene mica]

@proven rover First of all don't worry about being 18 and evth. Don't set it as a limit for yourself. No book says that can't be over 19 for starting uni or smth. My sister is 19, took a gap year after a levels, is currently preparing for her mdcat and going to turn 20 this august. She'll give her mdcat after she's 20 and like next year, hopefully, will get admission into sum good university so chill out. About not having teachers, you could organise for personal tution. Seriously it helps alot. I been trying to convince my younger sister for tuition for over a year and we finally arranged a tutor for her these summer vacations, and she's so thankful and finally able to see that she's a year behind everyone in her studies. If that's not possible you could join an academy or look up for study groups. I myself am going through something similar. I gave A2 physics this may/june. Not satisfied. I'm preparing again in case I do not get a good grade. And I'm thinking about arranging study sessions with some AS friends I had in school since they'll too be giving a2 now so I'll see. Take a look through your resources and what you can get access to, then do what's best possible for you.

@radiant karma I just know you really really need to take computer science ASAP. Not sure how you'll convince your family. Also not sure why people are so forceful on their child in these matters. You should be given complete free will in that. But your friend is very right give chem as a side sub and computer science as a main. Maybe that will convince your family. But I see the problem is bigger than that. Also don't walk with the burden of getting wasted your time or money or age because so many students do that and it not what matters just puts unnecessary burden on you so don't worry about that. But you need to look for like a tutor or a friend or smth maybe join an academy or a study group to keep up w/ computer science and cover what you weren't able to. Also you can take like a 6 months gap kr smth of u need extra time to prepare for computer science cuz trust me at college level, (or high school whatever) so many students have to do that including myself and my sister so chill out don't stress. It's hard to make good choices at this level and easy to mess up, so you do need the time to readjust so give yourself that and don't stress. Also take computer science asap as one of your main subs

[proven rover]

Alright thank you @slate sky and @serene mica
I will see what will happen
Also gl bubbles I really hope that we get our desired grade in physics

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to skittles0804#0, windmills#2068

[serene mica]

@river ore you're literally overthinking. First of all, stop overthinking. Most of your problems are just the product of you overthinking like that. I totally relate. I've been labelled the "intelligent sibling" and all that and I was that for a big part of my life until I just wasn't. Guess the corona virus ate my brain out kr smth cuz that's where I messed up. And Now I'm at the point where I'm telling my family to not scold me if I get Cs in my final result when I was an A* student once and they still see me as one, but little do they know I'm not what they knew me as anymore sadly. And that I'll be preparing for a 'just in case ' retake during the vacations. And I understand it's very sad. But don't stress. You're literally stressing sm. Take things a bit lightly and so hard. They're literally not as hard as our brain sees them then reacts by freakout. It's a step by step process. I tell myself 'one step at a time' when I'm stressing like that and not 'everything all together at once' iykwim. Chill out a bit.

not so hard*

@proven rover yes I hope too. Wish you good luck in that. Maybe keep me a bit updated with what happens next if possible n if u like cuz I'd like to see u succeed

[proven rover]

Sure I will. I would like the same thing for u

[serene mica]

@proven rover done

[olive wadi]

I think u alrdy got the memo but my two cents as someone whos been thru similar things, never listen to ppl who say something is impossible , if u believe in something u chase it and give it ur 100% thats how u avoid regrets and thats how u succeed , try ur best and grind ur heart out and see what happens , never confine urself to ur age. Not just for uni , in general its never too late to do anything , there r ppl who go to uni at literally any age from 20 to 35 , everyone’s life is different , its about doing good in whatever u do , so u put aside this age crap and focus on doing good work to end up in good places , that way ur gonna end up happy and successful , never let others set u a limit , u know whats best for u so do it. Good luck and u got this.

[worn gyro]

reeks of copium

[serene mica]

what are you subs?

Also u have like 3 days right?

3 days left*

[slate sky]

A2 maths, physics, computer science and AS economics

[serene mica]

Ok so straight to the point, u clearly do not have the time to understand all concepts of all chapters cuz even if u try you'll understand nothing. I actually have kind of a useful advice. This is for A2 P4 (not P5). For physics (and maths as well ig) literally memorise all the formulas and definitions from the chapters that are coming because like 70% of physics questions in physics are formula based. And then all questions come w/ like one or two definition parts carrying like 1,2 or 3 marks max, so only from the formulas and the definitions, you'll be able to gain at least like 55 to 60%? on a single test paper. Did this myself When I was in a similar situation as u. Go through past paper questions, especially of recent years like 2020-2023. Search out what chapters and what questions are frequently repeated and just memorise those. Like definitions, formulas and evth about them. Leave out most of the explanation questions that demand sum background understanding and concept amd stuff. This method is for end time prep and it honestly works. Saves u from failing at least. Also this is the best time to skip the book and go through your personal notes as well as znotes. Hope this helps. Try it out. Works for physics at least. Didn't study the other subs, so can't comment on that. And good luck!!

[slate sky]

yeah I have the test on electric, gravitational fields and capacitence

but yeah I have memorised the definitions for almost all terms but like I struggle to do many Cambridge questions as they usually have a complicated scenario

[serene mica]

Do the formulas

[naive skiff]

who's sad today

[naive skiff]

dw

self studying can work

you have znotes to help you or get some help whenever you have a question

get it answered and dont pile it up

i self studied my 12th as well

well i took tuitions to solve some Q and As and online yt vids to learn the topics

demotivating yourself will only cause failure

and going to uni at 20 aint bad

i have peers who are like 22 23

[serene mica]

Yes they are definitely complicated and require clear and complete background understanding and obv u can't get all concepts clear in your brain in like a day, so this method is just for test prep in a day ykwim. Forget about the complicated scenario questions. If u can do like 2-3 parts of each question using just formulae and definitions, you're good. You'll get like 55% . I think it can do just for the test. Remember to study om time next time I guess

[proven rover]

Thank you so much @olive wadi, that opens my thinking and it makes me feel better

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Alen#7561

[olive wadi]

Glad to help 🙏

[proven rover]

alr thanks @naive skiff
And u r right I've been just overthinking for the past 2 weeks and not taking actions
Hopefully that will work with me too

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to arkeau#0

[olive wadi]

“The best time to act was yesterday , next best time to act is now.”

[proven rover]

Facts and it came in the perfect time 💯
I also like the one "no pain, no gain"... hopefully the more I grind the more I will get the grades I desire

[olive wadi]

Indeed u will , u put in more hours and quality work in , then u WILL see results because i have and so will u , its just how it works

[proven rover]

Rlly appreciate ur words Naf

[olive wadi]

Just happy to help , best of luck 🤝 go conquer

[glossy pewter]

Hmmmmm bro i am going to say from personal experience of someone who self studied a2 physics and a2 cs it is very possible you have time left for oct nov so till then dont give up and study with all your might. Its more than enough time tbh and if ya need any resources or help with any topic or questions. Ping me or any helper in the subject channels we will for sure help and if you need resources ask i will send ya stuff i used to study alright. Dont give up you can do it for sure so i wish you luck on your studies and hope you pass with flying colours 🔥

And also if you wanna know how long i had to self study physics and cs

It was one months 💀 and it was possible

Its all about the mindset

And hardwork

With perseverance anything is possible

[proven rover]

THANK U SM FALCON
I will send u if I needed help with the resources
And yea u r right I will first study the plan and minset as u said then we start the grind

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to greenfalcon#1104

[serene mica]

@proven rover u wanna prep for physics together? Idk I think it's a good idea? We both have to give oct/nov so... maybe?

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to windmillsss#0

[serene mica]

@river ore my pleasure 🤍 if it was actually helpful, then glad I could help

[proven rover]

Hopefully we don't need to retake girl 😭
But sure I'm anyways going over the syllabus just incase
I will dm u

[serene mica]

Yes same I'm too preparing just in case lol as a backup plan yk

[amber salmon]

i need motivation to studyyy

[unreal shadow]

Bro I’m 19 and balding already, I expected to make it till 30 at least😭😭😭😭

@olive wadi do yk any good doctors for hair transplant my hairline is going back a bit

[olive wadi]

No not rlly but u will probably find good affordable ones in turkey as ik many foreigners come here to do it

but no one in my family has done it so idk

[unreal shadow]

Das why I asked you

Ill look when the time comes

[olive wadi]

yeee idk any but i’ll let u know if i hear one

its actually weird , idk anyone who has done it

[silver wasp]

Try eating more protein and improving your diet and taking vitamins and stuff its better to see a dermatologist or something for advice cause hair transplant is kinda a quick decision

And try oiling your hair and using good products theres this laser hair therapy thing you can get too

Wait I remembered theres the PRP hair treatment I heard it helps

And dont push back your hair alot I guess like how people gel it back completely and stuff

[unreal shadow]

I eat well lol

My checkups and everything are allg

It’s just that alopecia runs in the family yk

Also im not bald yet smh

[unreal shadow]

Fair fair

[silver wasp]

Thats good

well good luck then

[unreal shadow]

Thank you thank you

Turkey is only a few hours flight away

[placid folio]

woah i thought you were way older

married and hadkids

[unreal shadow]

Yeah where im from people get married at around 14 yk

[placid folio]

oh

well congrats

i hope u have a happy fam and life

[unreal shadow]

Thank you

Likewise with greenfalcon

[placid folio]

❤️

[bronze coyote]

I’m 27

[hollow oyster]

Saddest thing I've read on this channel

[mystic loom]

I kinda regret my subject stack; I have a messy mix of both sciences and humanities due to my chronic indecisiveness (English, Eng Lit, History, Sociology, Maths, Biology, Chemistry, Physics) and I regret only taking 1 language since I know 2 others and it'd be nice to have a record of my fluency. I'm also dealing with a lot especially my dad kinda dying soon and me still doing GCSEs at 18 and all this shit makes me feel like I'm stupid. I can barely study and I just want to sleep all day until I feel like a person again.

[pastel night]

Hi, I want you to take this step by step and BREATHE for a while. Things will turn out fine but you have to take care of yourself too. I know dealing with a parent being sick is really hard and managing other things especially studies is so damn hard cuz we don't have that focus anymore but be it whatever you're doing don't lose yourself and with whatever combination you are doing your igcses it's fine, let it be and don't regret things just don't repeat the same mistake in A levels okay! Also, it's pointless to keep pushing yourself low and ending up in a pile of guilt. Everything happens for a reason I know I'm saying all generic philosophies but it's true. And life will get better if you start trusting yourself more and not giving up. You need yourself right now, you are tired of everything, every single thing. Just do whatever you feel like will help you be yourself again and try not to be your biggest enemy for once

You aren't trash, you're a work in progress

A beautiful one

You're just blinded by the negativity for now but hey you're meant to rise back again

Do not lose trust in yourself, and like any painting even if you are a mess right now, things will and are going to make sense eventually

So chin up bestie and make the whole place shimmerrr ✨✨

We need people like you 💖

[mystic loom]

Hey thank you, it means a lot to me. I'm just pretty bummed out since I had to drop out of formal school due to severe mental health issues and I've been homeschooling myself ever since. So no teachers, no mentors, just raw-dogging these exams haha. I've been super worried of spiralling again so I've been making sure not to, but doing anything productive is just super difficult atm. My dad wasn't the best, but I still miss him and it hurts seeing him in pain.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to theonlyfia#0

[mystic loom]

I haven't been studying as much as I've wanted to; I went through a feverish 6 month phase where I did 6-8 hour days without weekends but in hindsight; I was being an absolute workaholic and trying to distract myself from dad's worsening condition. It got so bad that sometimes I'd pull multiple all nighters or study when drinking and maybe the fact that I'm not doing that now is a good sign haha. I'm in that burnout phase, but I really hope to get studying soon; I actually really enjoy it and it's relaxing to me, it's just hard to start. Thank you again for your encouragment, I hope things do get better soon.

[unreal shadow]

regret at this point is only taking away from you

instead focus on what options you have in front of you right now or what you can do right now

and I hope your dad gets better soon

[unreal shadow]

by studying for those long hours at once you're worsening your performance

I suggest you focus on finishing the tasks at hand rather than how long you study

and if you don't already, make sure to exercise every day, no need to go to the gym every day just anything to get your blood flowing

i can not stress that enough

and in my opinion, one mustn't distract themselves from the pain rather feel it and endure it to the best of your ability; I understand that it is a hard time considering your father's health condition, my prayers are with you and your family

[rocky night]

Guy above me is an absolute chad

[unreal shadow]

I agree

💪💪💪

[placid folio]

i think she /he means youre the chad @unreal shadow

oh mb

chad is a good thing

[unreal shadow]

Yeah

[unreal shadow]

Is @glossy pewter a chad?

[unreal shadow]

Do you feel like you trust your parents? If so I suggest you talk to them

Or any siblings you have

If you have any

And understand what happened isn’t your fault or your grandmother’s fault, your uncle (With all due respect) is a bit yk, I understand that it’s even harder to deal with hardship when someone else caused you it and it doesn’t seem to be your fault, I would know I experienced that too

[minor comet]

thank you, its just hard now to actually communicate with her, i dont know why..

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to sdmale#0

[minor comet]

ill try though thank you

[unreal shadow]

I understand, just try your best

[clever zinc]

dont

know

[hybrid meadow]

@clever zinc to post in this channel, please use the /vent command. Thank you!

[clever zinc]

how to study

oh

[unreal shadow]

your way of studying should differ for different subjects and even chapters

what are you studying for?

or dont know how to study what

[placid folio]

he @glossy pewter would be if he accepted my love

[unreal shadow]

demn

[clever zinc]

i am wirting as eng , bio and comps for this yeear right

of which i just dont know how to study

and i also need to balnce with as maths

well no as but maths in general because im writing it next year

how to od i become the best student

[unreal shadow]

dawg

i myself don't know how to study bio and english lmao

[clever zinc]

and its ice cold her its so hard to study my guy , the bed sheets be calling me

[unreal shadow]

felt

[clever zinc]

oh what of computer science and maths

[unreal shadow]

i wear a hoodie LOL

or sweater

feel cozy and warm then i can study

[unreal shadow]

what topics in cs?

[clever zinc]

ill try that out

[unreal shadow]

in math once you understood the concept practice lots of questions

with cs if it's like some programming thing

i say lots of practice too

[clever zinc]

hmm paper 1 topics like databsaes and paper 2 like arrays and programming

[unreal shadow]

yeah just practice

once you understood the basics

[clever zinc]

okies

[bronze coyote]

3.141592653 I’m the king of nyc

She said she like purple

So I blue her back out and left her on red

Get it cause blue and red equals purple

Just venting

[past plover]

[bronze coyote]

It’s alright

[placid folio]

i somehow always come online as soon as @glossy pewter goes offline

ughh

i dont wanna be pathetic

[oak smelt]

why dont u just

dm him

is this like an online persona

or are u actually into him cuz its kinda creepy

to be that clingy in public

just my 2 cents

[placid folio]

idk

i actually like him

im trying to get over him

im just venting alright

and if i were creepy im sorry but didnt mean it

[oak smelt]

Nonono i dont really mind it but the way u go on about missing him and stuff

If u think about it as the recipient perspective

They bound to question why and start to dodge even more

[alpine hatch]

Kinda random but

How tf do people deal with depression

[sly shuttle]

Acceptance and move

[oak smelt]

Start by first realizing only u can save yourself out of this hole first

Then determine why ur depressed

It can stem from a lot of things tbh

yes seasonal depression is a thing

Self affirmations helped me

[alpine hatch]

The thing is I honestly don't see the point of living

I mean it's not like I have the strong urge to end everything but

I'm just living life like a nihilist

[glossy pewter]

Nihilist?

[alpine hatch]

I don't have one

I have extrinsic motivation at most

It's like the only reason I work hard is coz I don't wanna lose out

[glossy pewter]

If you dont have goal life gets very hard and boring and you dont wanna do anything anymore

Try making a goal

[alpine hatch]

nihilist
/ˈnʌɪ(h)ɪlɪst/
noun
a person who believes that life is meaningless and rejects all religious and moral principles.

[glossy pewter]

Or getting a hobby

[glossy pewter]

Why believe life is meaningless my brother

Do you have a family

Friends

[alpine hatch]

I mean at the end of the day we are just corporate slaves

[glossy pewter]

A crush or love interest

[alpine hatch]

And work till we die

[alpine hatch]

Nope

[glossy pewter]

True but why do we work?

[alpine hatch]

Too fucked up to be in a relationship 🤡

[alpine hatch]

For money

[glossy pewter]

For?

Why make money

[alpine hatch]

To sustain life

[glossy pewter]

And?

[alpine hatch]

Die

[glossy pewter]

Not all of the money we earn goes into sustaining life like needs

But also for other enjoyments

[alpine hatch]

I mean yea that's partially the reason I'm living

But at this point it's like I'm living because of them

Not because I see the point in living

[alpine hatch]

True but if I don't get a good job

Then that's the case ain't it

And the economy is just shit

[glossy pewter]

Its an if? Anything can happen tomorrow thats the beauty of life

[oak smelt]

I can tell u right now an electrician make more money than college professors

[alpine hatch]

Isn't that the horror of life

[oak smelt]

Theres no good or bad job, it lies on do u wanna take the risk

[glossy pewter]

Even when you are at your lowest you never know what will happen tomorrow that might shed some light on your life

[glossy pewter]

No thats the beauty

[alpine hatch]

Ya but every day is just deja vu

[glossy pewter]

“Tomorrow is a mystery”

[glossy pewter]

Thats why i am saying get a goal or a hobby

Try something new

Make life more interesting

[alpine hatch]

What's HU

[oak smelt]

Thats because ur surrounding yourself with auto habbits

Go get some new perspective

A book may help

[glossy pewter]

Not the time to promote hustlers uni

[glossy quartz]

but today is a gift, thats why its called the present - master oogway

[oak smelt]

This one called atomic habbits helped me spice up my life

[glossy pewter]

I love u man

[alpine hatch]

I think i have adhd

I never finish any book I started

[glossy pewter]

So????

I also do

[alpine hatch]

And not rlly a fan of reading

[glossy pewter]

But you can with perseverance

Yes takes a while but i finish usually

[glossy pewter]

Sports?

Games?

[alpine hatch]

It's like I see a wall of texts and just lose interest

Not the sports type

Don't play games either

[glossy pewter]

Friends?

[alpine hatch]

I mean I wouldn't consider any of my uni friends hard time friends

[glossy pewter]

You are in uni?

[alpine hatch]

Yes

My high school friends also have their own lives and we're in different unis so

[glossy pewter]

Hmmm you arent busy with studies? Cause that usually might occupy most of your time right

[alpine hatch]

Yes it's summer break now

So I'm back at home

There's literally nothing to do here

[glossy pewter]

Then for now enjoy my guy try playing games or visiting places

[alpine hatch]

It's like a retired village for old folks

[glossy pewter]

Maybe treat yourself to lunch

Or dinner

[alpine hatch]

I've been eating the same kinda food for months so

And there's only so much variety in this town

But anyway the location is not the issue I'm going back to my uni in a week

[glossy pewter]

But there is still variety right

[alpine hatch]

I mean it's still an issue but

Idk the depression is the fuckint issue

[glossy pewter]

Hmmmm then i think this issue might resolve it self once your back

[glossy pewter]

It’s because you are doing nothing basically repeating the same routine over and over again

Thats wat leads to depression

Cause i have been through it

[alpine hatch]

I'll prob be stressed and depressed

[glossy pewter]

Ik how it feels like life is meaning less

[alpine hatch]

When uni starts

[glossy pewter]

The only way i tried getting out of a slump was to talk ppl or set myself to do a job like a goal maybe learn something new or help someone

[alpine hatch]

I mean I just want a well paying job so I don't have to worry about my finances

[glossy pewter]

Or even just talk to another person

[alpine hatch]

That's like the bare minimum

[alpine hatch]

How do you even open up when everyone's so preoccupied with their own shit

[glossy pewter]

Do you have any ambitions? @alpine hatch

[alpine hatch]

Do you consider this as an ambition

[glossy pewter]

Open up to the family that you love or i am sure you have someone who you trust

[glossy pewter]

Yes it is an ambition

Work hard towards it then

Learn in uni so you can excel everyone else

And get that job if possible

[alpine hatch]

I mean I trust my dad but

[glossy pewter]

Work hard to learn new skills that might aid your job

[glossy pewter]

But what?

[alpine hatch]

Even if I told him my issues he can't help anyway

I don't think he understands depression either

[glossy pewter]

You can never know my friend

[alpine hatch]

Dude told me to stop being depressed so

[glossy pewter]

Sometimes it just feels great to get things off your chest

Isnt that why you are here my friend

[alpine hatch]

Idk what's my issue either

[alpine hatch]

True but it doesn't really solve the problem at the end of the day

Like an endless cycle

[glossy pewter]

Thats the thing why are you sulking over something you dont know even? Its all because of doing nothing all day and repeating microhabits over and over again that you start thinking too much about life

If its a tangible issue try finding it

Maybe its being alone

Try being more social

[alpine hatch]

I have social anxiety

[glossy pewter]

Everyone does that doesnt mean ppl dont meet and interact with each other

Try breaking out of your shell

Thats the only way to change your current state

[alpine hatch]

I mean I have uni friends but most of them are just hi bye firends

I'm just not fun to hangout with

[glossy pewter]

Then try making more friends till you find someone

[alpine hatch]

And idk shit about maintaining friendships so

[glossy pewter]

Not everyone will think that

[glossy pewter]

There isnt a book out there that states when and how to maintain friendships

You just gotta try

[alpine hatch]

Yea so life is just about coping ain't it

I rlly don't see the point of life

[glossy pewter]

Dont listen to him 💀 he is making it much worse

[alpine hatch]

But bro's a nihilist 😭

[glossy pewter]

@alpine hatch alright yeah ik life is pretty meaningless to some was to me even for a bit but you shouldnt draw towards this conclusion this quick cause you are a young individual my friend you have a long life ahead of ya dont ruin it by sulking around and you never know, one day you might find the reason you have been looking for this life you are living until then keep running and living the best way possible with a smile on your face

One thing that has always helped me personally in my life whenever i feel down is that i think off other around me and how there lives might be way worse of than me and they are fine then why cant i be fine too so i also keep moving and living

And remember that you are unique

Life is something special

You live only once

So enjoy it in your case

Try everything your heart desires

Do things that make you smile laugh

[alpine hatch]

What if I can't find the meaning

I mean I graduated highschool 4 years ago and still can't figure out what I want

[glossy pewter]

Again its an “if”, you will never know unless you try right

[alpine hatch]

And I'm just in uni for the sake of being in uni

[alpine hatch]

I mean memes can only help so much lol

Their lives are better off without my negativity 💀

[glossy pewter]

Hmmm why be negative then try being positive for once and make ppl around you happy

[alpine hatch]

I can't see the positives bc I don't rlly see the point of living 😭

[glossy pewter]

As i said you have time dude, you are not a 70 year old man knocking on deaths door

You are just about to finish uni

And start life

[alpine hatch]

One of the reasons why I will never be in a relationship is bc I'm too individualistic

Bro don't even have enough self love to begin with 😔

First I need to find that someone🗿

[glossy pewter]

Yeah maybe when you do find that someone you might find the meaning to live

Till then wait man

Thats all you can do

[alpine hatch]

I mean I care about them

But idk

Love is a strong word

[glossy pewter]

You dont love your parents?

[alpine hatch]

I never understood the word love

[glossy pewter]

The ones who nurtures you

[glossy pewter]

Bruh your childhood must have been rough

Am sorry

[alpine hatch]

Not my mom

My dad maybe

Idk I don't even love myself so

[glossy pewter]

Thats the first step

Try loving yourself my guy

Love yourself

Do you look ugly like me or something 💀

[glossy pewter]

Yeah thats fine i get called ugly a lot too but i still loved myself

Cause there isnt a single person alive who looks like me

I am special

One and only

Think like that

Thats a form of self love

[alpine hatch]

I mean I wouldn't wanna me

lol

[glossy pewter]

Wait so i am delusional this whole time?

[alpine hatch]

Can someone else be me pls

[glossy pewter]

Why hurt me so

Fuck now am sad

Okay i got a look at the mirror

Nah i look beautiful

I wont believe your words mf

[alpine hatch]

And I would prob take being them

I guess yea but still sucks to be me :/

No matter how hard I work I'll still be useless af compared to everyone else

If I don't compare I don't have the motivation to suceed

But if I compare I'll just get depressed

Great just what I needed someone posted on my uni's subreddit where this guy had like 8 internships

Nice daily affirmation to remind me how ✨useless✨ I am

[hollow oyster]

very true

[alpine hatch]

Hey, somebody kill me
Please, it's muffin time
Have you had a muffin today?
I wanna die, die, die

[lament cloud]

Bro @alpine hatch

A lot of the stuff you described really resonated with me

If it makes you feel better, I go through the exact same thing almost every day

Every day being a blur with the same thing happening every day over and over

With not many things that bring you joy

The goal thing that sdmale and greenfalcon said is right, but it's hard if you have no idea what you want

Ik you said you have social anxiety, but one thing you gotta understand about being in uni is that everyone feels the same way

Sometimes people decide to take the first step and talk to someone else

And sometimes they stay in silence and let things go on as they are

All you have to do is take that first step

It worked out for me and it can work out for you as well

Whenever I'm spending time with the friends I made in uni, the deja vu feeling of every day being the same goes away for me

So just put yourself out there

It might go wrong

But I'd say that's better than nothing happening at all

[alpine hatch]

But everyone already have their own small groups

I will always be an outsider and a background friend in a friend group

It's like the harder I try the worse it gets

But I don't think socializing is the main issue coz everyone is bound to have some alone time during uni

It's just me not capable enough of handling my emotions here

[lament cloud]

Any form of relationship takes work

But the start is the biggest hurdle

[alpine hatch]

I mean I think I have enough uni friends but just rarely any hard time ones

Do I really need more :')

[lament cloud]

I'd say so

In fact you already have an opening

Surely someone among your hi-bye friends is actually interesting to you

Have a conversation with them

[alpine hatch]

Yes this

[glossy pewter]

Do you have experience 👀

[tidal sable]

outta pocket asf 😭😭

serious chat but sorry i chuckled at that lmfaooo

[tidal sable]

but what conversation starters do u have besides the basics like where are you from etc etc

if from the same course then that might be easier a lil

but what about friends from diff courses?

u have any advice on dat part

[glossy pewter]

I see dac is planning

[tidal sable]

naur

genuine question

[glossy pewter]

I see dac trynna pick up uk dudes

[tidal sable]

bro no 💀

u pick up some hungarian ladies

[glossy pewter]

I for sure will

[tidal sable]

he goes younger than that

[chilly solar]

i admire your optimism

have you seen hungarian girls bro @glossy pewter

if you manage to pull one you must tell me bro

how old is student ig

ayo

[tidal sable]

he probably goes both ways

[chilly solar]

she is a she

when i hear her voice i'll tell you

[glossy pewter]

Woah woah

What typo allegations are these

[glossy pewter]

I am very sure it’s impossible

[chilly solar]

try tho

and tell me outcome

;)

[tidal sable]

i have evidence

[unreal warren]

or if u r alrdy talking about something and want to continue it use the five Ws ngl it helps

yeah just go with the flow

[glossy pewter]

Five Ws?

Ohhhh

What where which when and why

[unreal warren]

who, what, where, when, and why

it hugely depends on the person ur talking to

[glossy pewter]

I got 4/5

[unreal warren]

true, cuz if u r extroverted and the person ur talking to is the same wont be that awkward

well then thats an issue

and if 1 party becomes nervous u will make the convo awkward

true i havee seen that alot

very true indeed

its all on likes and dislikes cuz ppl only find the convo interesting if its something related to them

and they open up

if the other person dislikes it yes

yeah and keep giving them inputs that ur following if not they will think ur not interested

[hard ravine]

Real

The best thing is too say the things that genuinely come to mind

Unless if it's something inappropriate or random

💀

[unreal warren]

i disagree u should always know what to say at the ryt time at the ryt place

cuz if u dont u will mess up

[hard ravine]

Most of the times people literally don't care what you say

[hard ravine]

But ye you are Right tho

Usually just push yourself to initiate a conversation or continue it

It's like practice

Then eventually becomes a habit then you good 👍

Usually you gotta also look if the person is comfortable enough

[unreal warren]

yup it all comes with experience the more u talk to ppl the more u know how

[hard ravine]

That gives you enough confidence to continue

Uhh

Never spoken to a female

Irl

[unreal warren]

and not make the other party nervous

[unreal warren]

wtf? really

[hard ravine]

Not anyone outside the family

[unreal warren]

r u gud lad

u have never talk to a girl irl except ur family

[hard ravine]

School was pretty strict bout this

[unreal warren]

this is the 1st time am hearing this

[hard ravine]

I've talked to some females on discord

[unreal warren]

irl am talking about

dammn

[hard ravine]

Nah 💯% haven't

I see

I have done a small few talks with females maybe

But no friends

Nothing

[unreal warren]

for me i can srt also with anyone but it depends if i need to and if it peaks my interest

[hard ravine]

Nothing that's like a conversation between us irl

So idk how uni will be like

[unreal warren]

gl man

[hard ravine]

I've never done a whole conversation. But maybe 10 seconds max

For females

So yeah idk lol

[unreal warren]

aahh that i thought ur fellow passenger

[hard ravine]

That's why I also joined a vc to see female activity

[glossy pewter]

I usually do that

[unreal warren]

gud enough

[glossy pewter]

Bruh

[hard ravine]

Don't mean to sound like a weirdo

But I have no idea

[unreal warren]

ahh i see

u fly alone?

[glossy pewter]

Like you joined a vc to talk to females

[unreal warren]

ngl pretty boring

[hard ravine]

NO not like that bruh

[glossy pewter]

Then?

[unreal warren]

why r we talking in venting come chat lounge

[glossy pewter]

You joined a class to learn how to talk to females

[hard ravine]

Socialize and increase my extroverted skills

[unreal warren]

ic ic

[hard ravine]

Never had a class with females 🤷‍♂️

[glossy pewter]

So you go to a all boys school

[hard ravine]

Nahh it was strictly divided

[lament cloud]

Yeah no that's not what I'm talking about

I'm talking about like initially

You can talk to them day 1 for example and have a semi-enjoyable conversation

But then on day 2, you don't try another conversation and go back to your introvert tendencies

That potential friendship will go back to a hi-bye thing

[tidal sable]

like all boys in one class, all girls in another? 😭

damn beo

[bronze coyote]

Are you chai

[hard ravine]

Our school was divided into two separate buildings lol
One for the Bois and for the females.

[tidal sable]

goddamn 😭

[lament cloud]

This is just sad tbh

It's raising a lot of people who have no clue how to communicate with the opposite gender

[hard ravine]

real

[hard ravine]

(me tbh)

[lament cloud]

LOL

All dorm bathrooms are gender neutral here I think

[lament cloud]

Haha

True

[cosmic ginkgo]

Been there buddy

This is gonna sound really stupid but have you been eating and sleeping well recently

It's the easiest thing to change that makes quite a bit of impact on mood

[cosmic ginkgo]

Try to sleep 6-7 if you can

Get something nice to eat for yourself today

[cosmic ginkgo]

I usually don't count naps because uninterrupted sleep hits different

:// I'm not really sure how to help but I have been there man

I realised I wasn't eating enough at all (which I'm starting to do again) and I just ate a lot more takeout and ready food than I normally would simply to get my appetite back up

And then once I could eat more I focused on eating healthy

Don't be too harsh on yourself in the meantime

Hmm fair enough

Do you feel like you can still enjoy some things tho?

Music or hobbies or stuff like that

Or is it constant

[deep sluice]

Imo
Try to decrease time spent on ur mobile if it's a little much

It helps

Ya know what i mean

But really you should consider it
It has a major effect on this

[cosmic ginkgo]

It definitely does

Does your uni have a counselling service that's not impossible to get to?

[deep sluice]

Hope it gets better soon :)

[cosmic ginkgo]

Surely you can do it online tho?

It's not a solution by any means

But it can help a little

Check it out and see

Idk about yours but ours takes ages to get through but I had enough of a breakdown at student support that they got me a referral

It's not always a linear path, life has its ups and downs

Ah damn that's really good then

Considering how many people work from home now, they would probably even do them online regardless of where you are

Trust me it comes from somewhere and that's not as shallow as you think

Maybe I'm just projecting but I thought the same and in hindsight oh boi was it bad

In time you will

From around February to April I had a really shit phase, didn't really care for anything, barely made it out of the house 3 days a week, and if I was out I'd be out for so long so I didn't have to come back and overthink

I'd come back home at 11 pm and just sleep

Didn't see the point in living really

By the time I reached out for help it must've been April

But it took a long time for me to realise that it wasn't just another feeling like the dumps and was actually a problem

That's good :) keep the energy going

It's much easier to not stop than to pick it up from nothing

Like very temporary fun

Yeah

Overthinking this?

[naive skiff]

fake fun

[cosmic ginkgo]

It may not help but lack of it definitely makes it worse if you're not rested

I've always been this way and always overthink😂 it's very obvious when I talk to my sister and my mum that they just don't extrapolate shit that far ahead

Hmm

Also youre always welcome to DM me whenever you need it

[naive skiff]

you stressed out or is it just like that

[cosmic ginkgo]

I see

I'm fully falling asleep with my phone in my hand tho so I'm gonna give in

But anytime you want someone around just text me

Don't have all the solutions but I'm happy to listen

[glossy pewter]

I am also open @unreal shadow 🤷‍♂️

I am sure you hate me though

💀

[cosmic ginkgo]

Dw about it, I know how isolating it can feel

[glossy pewter]

Whats the issue though

I scrolled but cant seem to reach it

[olive wadi]

sd male my man i am here for u too

Lahore zindabad 🫡

[naive skiff]

they both will ruin you

dont listen to them

a sensation of being lost?

dk what to do

[olive wadi]

bruh

damn

aight

[glossy pewter]

Oh its fine @unreal shadow everyone has been there they just dont wanna think anymore it’s frustrating sometimes

Only way to get rid of it

Is to get busy

Or do something

[olive wadi]

dont ruin him greenfalcon

[naive skiff]

similar to what i mean

[glossy pewter]

Dahhhh it must be rough i think you are overworking yourself my friend

Try chilling out a bit

Talk to your old friends since you are back home

[naive skiff]

leave the free dopamine out

detox yourself

thats one thing

usually happens with the free dope

[glossy pewter]

It must be overworking yourself thats all

Try resting a bit

[olive wadi]

Yk my life has felt much nicer and fullfilling ever since i came back to my hometown and reconnected with genuinely loving and nicest ppl

sense of dullness has gone away

[naive skiff]

mine grows but

[glossy pewter]

For now if you are still overthinking try getting off discord and have a nice nap

[naive skiff]

im living

not tryna bother with it

[olive wadi]

by just connecting with ppl

[glossy pewter]

What about Now?

Its late for ya

Staying up late also leads to unnecessary thoughts

[naive skiff]

most likely

detox yourself

go out

[olive wadi]

mostly its empty time

[glossy pewter]

Since you have a lot of time on your hands at these times

[olive wadi]

when u dont do smth u have time to think and overthink

[glossy pewter]

Ikr

[naive skiff]

me sleeping at 4 am

[glossy pewter]

Even when doing stuff?

Like when you working

[deep sluice]

This may seem ridiculous but try metal music

That's my go to when it gets too much

[glossy pewter]

I see basically imagination is running wild?

[glossy pewter]

[deep sluice]

Bro fr fr tho😂

[placid folio]

hello

[naive skiff]

he listened to mongoal throat singing

good

[glossy pewter]

Thats what you think about?

[deep sluice]

Yea Same usually but i feel sometimes like this much noise helps quieting my mind

[placid folio]

good mindset tbh

[naive skiff]

for me

[glossy pewter]

Why is it sad then

[naive skiff]

I dont listen

[placid folio]

i like me own tunes

[placid folio]

same

[naive skiff]

you sometimes become too dependent on music for your moods

[glossy pewter]

Yeah ik your taste is impeccable

[placid folio]

oldie

no offence

[glossy pewter]

Hmmm is it bad thoughts though?

If its good thoughts

Its good aint it

[placid folio]

i dont know what going on

but i agree

[glossy pewter]

Hmmm so reality?

[placid folio]

i like that

[glossy pewter]

Oh so i was close

[placid folio]

sometimes it gets me high or tries to kill me thats reality to me

[glossy pewter]

But tbh am gonna tell you the truth @unreal shadow its something we cant control

Ik you are muslim

Thinking is beautiful creation by allah

As you said

[placid folio]

i like where ur going

[glossy pewter]

It does give you great ideas sometimes

But it also has its downsides

[placid folio]

are u guys talking about music addiction or smtnhg

[glossy pewter]

Which we must cope with

Remember its not only you

Everyone around youev

Even me

Think about reality

Thats stress

Extreme stress

It will affect you dude

[placid folio]

it will

i have 2 different voices in my head

both disagree

[glossy pewter]

Is it headaches? Cause if it is get yourself checked out cause migraines (i have them) can be treated (this is a side note)

[placid folio]

i use these 2 voices to make my own decisions and think

[glossy pewter]

So like you are disturbed

Like you want to be free headed

[placid folio]

i have this

[glossy pewter]

Its a distraction

[placid folio]

sometimes

but other times its relief

[glossy pewter]

Thats great to hear at least

So its just the reality of life

[placid folio]

is this daddy stress or smthng

im kinda lost

[glossy pewter]

Many ppl fall for this nowadays idk why

[placid folio]

i have this

[glossy pewter]

Okay if it is bothering you so much

Get yourself checked out

[placid folio]

last night i had a discord nightmare

[glossy pewter]

Or take sleeping pills

[placid folio]

no dont

[glossy pewter]

Only under a doctors prescription

[placid folio]

dont take pills

u dont wanna be dependant

i have insomnia

and literally cant turn myselfoff

[glossy pewter]

No but for this issue it can affect him later on

[placid folio]

but i just lie down and close my eyes

[glossy pewter]

So its better to take this step

[placid folio]

as rest atleast

my doc did diagnose it as anxiety though

i dont know how

good

is it anxiety ur tackling

[glossy pewter]

It is most likely stress and overworking or anxiety dude so best way to get rid of it is you just as you always say in this very channel to other people

Clear your head

Try relaxing

[placid folio]

totally agree

[glossy pewter]

Even though you dont want to

Do it

[placid folio]

except @glossy pewter
it aint that easy

[glossy pewter]

Cause it is affecting you

[placid folio]

u wont know how to

[glossy pewter]

Care for your mental health my man its very important

[placid folio]

true

[glossy pewter]

Yourself first then the rest later

[placid folio]

my mum says i dont care if you dont become anything in life just dont go crazy or itll spoil ur whole life

and i agree with her

[glossy pewter]

Okay sorry that was an alternative thing for you get a better night sleep if it was affecting you

[mild compass]

Anyone have save my exams ict and cs notes?

[glossy pewter]

I have a drive i will send wait a bit

[placid folio]

helpful💕

[mild compass]

Thanks a lot

[placid folio]

just admiring...

[glossy pewter]

I sent in chat lounge pls dont ask these questions here again

[placid folio]

@unreal shadow are u alright

[glossy pewter]

Let him type

[placid folio]

i aint holding him

[placid folio]

sigh

sorry

[glossy pewter]

Why being sorry?

[placid folio]

oh i thought u got mad

[glossy pewter]

Nah never

[placid folio]

yeah but]

anxiety isnt same fr every1

i didnt say tht

[glossy pewter]

Ik that

[placid folio]

any neagtivity or positivuty could root to it

[glossy pewter]

I see

Any family issues?

Actually no

This cant be rooted to that

If you arent shy i would recommend talking to your mom or dad or older sibling about this

They really help

[placid folio]

oh my god

my bro just scared me to death

[glossy pewter]

Hmmm so its a problem that has been there for a while

[placid folio]

he jumped outta nowhwere

[glossy pewter]

Must be rough man

[placid folio]

to see what i was doing

[glossy pewter]

Whats there to hide?

[placid folio]

luckily it wasnt when i was textion u

[placid folio]

all the i love us

[glossy pewter]

Omg thats why you are overthinking

It’s basically you

Unfortunately

[placid folio]

im scared

[glossy pewter]

Sorry i meant thats why you are like this

You are trying to keep towards this

Stoic

Character

Thats must be reason

I am not questioning your character

Its amazing from how i know you

It just making you feel this way

[placid folio]

ok im back

confident

i wanna vent out too

[glossy pewter]

Its not a wrong way trust me

[glossy pewter]

Continue

[placid folio]

actually thats the best way

[placid folio]

ik discord knows that i really like u

but my fam doesnt

[glossy pewter]

Being u is u @unreal shadow so its fine

[placid folio]

icome todiscrd to text u

tbh

my brothers suspicious

i dont know why

i feel like hes gonna do smthng

stupid

that could ruin everythng for me

ive got everythng planned out but not him

this sounds lame

ik

but this is like the only bad thing i know i do
liking u

i feel guilty sometimes

but then again u know...

[glossy pewter]

Idk what to say tbh

[placid folio]

well dont say nothing

im litrlly gonna die

u cant marry a dead girl

tbh

that wont look nice

......

ur quiet sorry bout the incovenience

but i think im gonna be diagnosed with wahtever stdm has

[glossy pewter]

Why everyone has the same issues

[placid folio]

ik

but mines just

idk

my bro asked me why im on discord this late

and i just smiled

....

cuz im not studying rn

@glossy pewter

[glossy pewter]

I seee

Idk what to say to help you 😔

Your issue is basically hiding stuff

Gotta be hard

So be safe

Thats all

[placid folio]

well yes

and no ig

i told every 1 i love green

they just dont know what i meant

[placid folio]

ur gonna hate me for this along with every1 else arent you

@glossy pewter

[glossy pewter]

I am not gonna hate you

But just dont be obvious about it

[placid folio]

ok thats good

[glossy pewter]

And its not good to hide stuff thats all

[placid folio]

wdum

[placid folio]

what do u think i should do

[placid folio]

i know

i cant believe i am honestly

[placid folio]

wdum

[glossy pewter]

Idk what to say just dont be real open be normal act normal ig

[placid folio]

ok.. ig

[placid folio]

wdum by normal

[glossy pewter]

Like dont show it you know

[placid folio]

do u mean to stoplinkng u

[glossy pewter]

Laughing while texting for no reason

[placid folio]

ok

[glossy pewter]

They gonna find it sus

[deep sluice]

So like I'm catching up with this person ik
And we didn't talk for like 2 months or something
Anyways we we're telling each other about how hard these two months were and i was like do you wanna talk about it? Like to vent ya know
And now this person is sending me long paragraphs from their archives about problems or somethings they went thro
And it's with dates
They're literally copy pasting like a million things

I don't mind man but what

And im shit at comforting

Wtf

[glossy pewter]

Stop what?

Oh goodnight then

[placid folio]

this

[glossy pewter]

See ya

[placid folio]

ok

[glossy pewter]

If you want to continue its your wish

[placid folio]

i relly hope u say it oneday tome

[glossy pewter]

Just as long as it doesnt get you into trouble

[placid folio]

u ok with it

[placid folio]

ok'

[glossy pewter]

Am so sorry

[placid folio]

.....what about this@glossy pewter

[glossy pewter]

As i said i will say it one day dw

[placid folio]

hopefully b4 july 24th

im going for more than a month vaca

[placid folio]

im gonna remeber this..

[glossy pewter]

Why

[glossy pewter]

No internet at sri lanka?

Dialog is fast

[placid folio]

i wont be able to text u for over a month

no

nodevices

allowed by my parents

[placid folio]

there is obvi

also my fam gonna be mad if i just text

or use devices during vaca

[placid folio]

so no or yes

pls pls say yes

@glossy pewter

im sorry i keep pinging btw

[glossy pewter]

Okay i will

[placid folio]

just want ur attention

[placid folio]

fr

fr

tell me

yay

imma draw a bigger smile on my face

@glossy pewter

i literally cant holdmy penci;

pencil

so fr

[glossy pewter]

Dm?

But not today

[placid folio]

now

[placid folio]

yeah ok

...

[placid folio]

actually dont dm

itll be easier to cover if not dm

i dont wanna be in dms rn

thats why is stopped dmu

also make nugget witness it

[glossy pewter]

Sure

[placid folio]

no i mean it

but thankyou

atlest an emoji

now pls

[glossy pewter]

Dont mention it

[placid folio]

like a heart

[glossy pewter]

I dont got no emojis

[placid folio]

wow

ok

its alright

see ya

bye

good night

imma go dream now

[glossy pewter]

Gn

[deep sluice]

Bro how tf do i stop someone from trauma dumping

I mean maybe they're not doing it consciously but

Idk wtf

Koko just texted 💀

[glossy pewter]

Listen they trust you

Thats why they are doing this

Dont betray their trust aight

[deep sluice]

Bro we haven't talked before only like one time

[glossy pewter]

Read and try to help howeveryou can

[deep sluice]

And im not trying to be mean i swear

[glossy pewter]

I get it

[deep sluice]

On the contrary
I'd like to be of any help at all

But i swear it's not normal

[deep sluice]

Im not

[glossy pewter]

Yeah it aint normal for ppl to do that

If you have the time

Try reading and helping

If you dont tell them i am going to sleep or something like that