venting

[pastel night]

Take a few moments and reflect on everything okay

[wintry rampart]

as i could be put into more blame

or stir up drama

[pastel night]

I understand that

You don't have to explain everything to her

For now, enjoy your meal and tell yourself how amazing you are

[wintry rampart]

sometimes, it is best to keep dark secrets from your own parents

but will it be all the time that i get to suffer like this?

[pastel night]

Yes it is

And it's okay

[pastel night]

Absolutely not dear!! You have the control you have the power in yourself to eliminate all the distractions and people who try to tear you down and let you come to this point, once you try loving yourself a bit more you'll never end up hurting yourself like this

[wintry rampart]

i'm this close to resorting into doing unethical stuff to make up for my mistakes

and i don't know what to do

for sure, i'll cut connections with my mom

once i am done with my degree, masteral's included

as payback

[pastel night]

Doing unethical stuff might not help as it will leave you in more guilt later on in life

But try to do what you think is best doing whilst avoiding any potential stress factors

[wintry rampart]

for all the deception she has given me

[silver wasp]

Are you okayy??

[wintry rampart]

i would be more than happy to sacrifice my academics just for internship-like experiences

as much as possible

[wintry rampart]

slowly getting relieved

[wintry rampart]

and i'll prolly begin now while leaving the costs behind

cause all i want is closure

[pastel night]

It's still okay, alright

You just have to move forward now and accept everything that happened

[wintry rampart]

for sure, it will be too late when i die

[silver wasp]

If you want to talk about it we can, Im not sure what has happened but Ive just seen this 😭

[wintry rampart]

scroll up

[silver wasp]

But we're all here for you if that makes you feel better even if it does not it is factual, whatever you need help with

Oki

[wintry rampart]

tldr:
i had a panic attack fearing of my future as i grew envious of a friend who was able to work with the biggest conventions in my country

i've had envy issues for 2-3 years now

[bronze coyote]

thats ego at its point

she has high ego

[wintry rampart]

and i feel that this will worsen

[winter skiff]

I feel the same.
For her ego is everything.
Self love is even

[wintry rampart]

what 's the fucking point of getting good grades when companies would want to hire experienced people?

[winter skiff]

Even though I kill my self respect for her

[winter skiff]

Dam my brother says the same and he is 22

[wintry rampart]

i have already set "pass college and gain experience" as a lifelong goal

[candid field]

🫂🫂🫂

[mild compass]

Noooo wayyyyyy

[wintry rampart]

well, after having a literal meltdown in front of my therapist, i knew that my mother was not even setting high expectations for me

she was chill with me failing quizzes

only thing that she would react to is my overreactions

although i need to know how to disseminate genuine wisdom with false reassurance

[candid field]

😭 broski u were scared becuz u failed quizes

It's fine man

[wintry rampart]

naw naw not that

that's a different story

[candid field]

Ohhh

[wintry rampart]

i felt that i was given the wrong advice

and fell for the wrong advice

as i could not know what's more genuine

[silver wasp]

What do you think makes you enivous? The fact that you're in a different position than them while they're working with these big conventions? And thats what you want to be able to do?

[wintry rampart]

i just wanted to have as much work-like experience in college before i graduate

[silver wasp]

Have you thought about what has brought you down and stopped you from reaching that same position as them at the same time as them? Which I guess in this situation was your mother's mindset?

[wintry rampart]

so that i would not get to be a bottom feeder

[wintry rampart]

it was only myself

and my perceptions of my mother's words

turns out, she's already chill with me pursuing my dreams

she was more than willing to support me in joining student orgs

and who knows, applying for an officer position within the year

[silver wasp]

Have you realised that, the way you perceived her words and the way you though couldn't have been changed unless it was meant to be changed? If you were meant to see her words in a different light you would've and you wouldn't have been here but that isnt whats supposed to have happened because clearly your in a different position right now?

Rather than seeing the position you're in as being something completely unideal and thinking about others before yourself by being envious of your friends, have you tried to think about why you might be in the position you're in, what benefit there might be, have you tried to look for the pros rather than the cons?

Every horrible thing comes with a good reason behind it and I can't stress it enough

Even if one might want to disagree with it

[wintry rampart]

the only pros that i see are additional experience that can be credited in a resume. something that high grades cannot prove.

[silver wasp]

I can tell you a bajillion percent there was a good reason behind why everything happened the way it happened and if you cannot see that reason right now you will eventually but as of now you need to focus on how you can better your situation rather than reflect on the past

Only reflect on what could've gone better, what is still redeemable and focus on the steps you need to take further on

[silver wasp]

And do you think you are capable enough of doing that?

Have you taken advise from those friends of yours or even just heads you may look upto?

[wintry rampart]

that, i'll consider on

as i'll be looking forward for applying towards mid-sized events first before attempting to join the big ones as part of the team behind it

[silver wasp]

Do as much as you know you're able to do and open up as much opportunities for yourself as you can and think about how negatively you've been affected these past years simply just by thinking too much about things that are only hurting you mentally, simply just by looking at others and wishing to be like them or wishing to have had what they have even though you do not, simple just by reflecting completely on whats gone (the past) something that cannot be relived nor returned to, simple just by pointing out everything you've done wrong and only considering your mistakes and not moving on from it

Your friends were meant to be where they are now while you are meant to be where you are now and theres no "you'll never be able to be as happy or as whatever as them and you'll never be at the same rank or even at a higher rank as them" you have timee you have so much of it even these few minutes we're spending just talking you can use to think about opportunities ad you can also use it to realise where you're going wrong because if things dont get any better theres always something you on your own are doing thats limiting things for yourself

Has envying your friends ever gotten you any happiness or helped you in any way?

If it has motivated you then great but if its done nothing else than just making you feel completely horrible about yourself and ruining your self-esteem isn't worth wasting any more time doing so?

3 years may have gone by but do you want another 3 years to go by and be in the same position as you are in now or maybe even in a worse position?

[wintry rampart]

only this time. i should have never asked about her job this early

[wintry rampart]

no way

[silver wasp]

You might've cried you might've gotten angry you might've had panic attacks just soo much but whyy?? over what?? was it preventable? was it worth it?

[silver wasp]

You SHOULD have never, but you did, did you not?

[wintry rampart]

i did out of curiosity

[wintry rampart]

it was preventable. although she was able to acknowledge my help when i informed her of a possible crook taking advantage of the convention as she already had connections with the organizers

although i was met with "send me some legal papers about him and i'll forward it with the organizers"

[silver wasp]

I know thatt and I myself even though I dont know you but I know I wouldnt want that for you either especially when I can seee that you're capable and you have so much potential and I know if you work a bit harder if you ask for help and if you start getting onto doing things that you know will help rather than wasting your time on what is just ruining you as a person overall and reflecting back to the ugly past I knowwwwwwwwwww even by the end of this year you can make SO much progress you can be so much happier

[silver wasp]

You might've done it for whatever reason, but you DID it even though you wish you had not

But can you go back now?

[wintry rampart]

of course not

[silver wasp]

Once its done its done right?

[wintry rampart]

it's already happened

so what can i do from it?

[silver wasp]

Is there any point in regretting it?

[wintry rampart]

it was small talk anyways

[silver wasp]

Is there any point in wishing you would not have don it?

Or wishing it went another way?

[wintry rampart]

none

[silver wasp]

You talked to her, you asked her what you wanted to ask her and you presented her with whatever you had to say or had to give her, you did it because you felt and needed to do so and then you exactly did it

And now nothing can be done about it even if you feel regret, smile over it like hey I guess I wanted to do that and I did it and I mean now I gotta carry on with it, if it bothers me I ignore it or I find a solution for it

[pastel night]

How are things now welpo?

[silver wasp]

If I dont want to repeat this same mistake again and have regrets, maybe next time I should give more thought to what Im about to do before doing it

ykwim??

[wintry rampart]

hmm... good point.

maybe i should have made a cost-benefit analysis about what i would be doing next

if it could cost me mentally

or if it will be small

[wintry rampart]

scroll up and see

[silver wasp]

Whenever something happens and you do not enjoy the fact that it happpened dont keep negative emotios against it but rather think about what you can do NOW or LATER to improve on it to avoid the same things from repeating

[silver wasp]

Look again - the use of SHOULD maybe you should've done this and that but you didnt

Now its more of

What CAN you do??

Bare with me okayyy?

[wintry rampart]

i see. so i can, even will conduct a cost-benefit analysis to see if what i'll converse about could bring in mental distress

is that better now?

[silver wasp]

What position are you in now, what do you hope to achieve, what do you imagine the future to look like and whats up right now?

[silver wasp]

Yes you will do it, you will do it for the best and it'll be worth it and you will not just think about it but rather you'll go on with it

You will look for and identify what bothers you and you'll find solutions for it

[wintry rampart]

i wasn't able to apply for a part time position at one of my country's biggest entertainment conventions, as i found it to be a possible hindrance towards my studies, to which i feel more free after i snapped today, as i won't be giving a damn out of my studies as my mom only expects me the bare minimum anyways

maybe i'll consider doing it next year

as a risk

[silver wasp]

You will plan ahead and you will think about the present and completely avoid thoughts of the past unless its reflecting on something and knowing you've got room to improve

[silver wasp]

Nowww tell me what you know can be done right now by you, identify the opportunities you've got and if you can't think of any then do some research, try your best on your studies because they can server as a good distraction in the first place, where can you get help, who can you get help from and what help can you get

[wintry rampart]

that'll be hard to practice, but the rewards will be worth the weight for a better form of self-awareness

[wintry rampart]

nothing

[silver wasp]

Find everything that can be done right nowwwwwwww or a few weeks or a few months from now

[silver wasp]

Things are always going to be difficult no matter what route you take to achieve them but nothings going to serve you as being impossible no matter how hard you try to convince yourself for it being impossible

And if you feel things are difficult for you to do on your own keep in min the people that surround you, even if you dont know them or arent close to them I can guarantee there will always be atleast one person whose with you through everything and you may not even know them

[silver wasp]

Really though? Have you looked deeply enough have you considered enough and you have you opened up to ideas enough before saying that?

If you cannot enter your country's biggest entertainment conventions, can you not look into something smaller? Or something different?

[wintry rampart]

only an opportunity to be taken advantage of next year

[silver wasp]

If you cant do something in real life can you find an online alternative?

[wintry rampart]

i'll be on the lookout even more next time

to see if any opportunities would be worth the time to sacrifice

[silver wasp]

Even if your moms expects the bare minimum, what do you expect and rather what do you know you can expect if more effort and more time is put in?

[wintry rampart]

unfortunately, the philippines has no online conventions or stuff

[silver wasp]

Then leave it for next year but look for what there is right noww

[silver wasp]

Start doing that right now

[wintry rampart]

an opportunity to try new things as an attendee

[silver wasp]

Start researching start talking to people about it

If I knew more about this I'd surely advise you but I can tell you there probably is ONE thing out there right now that can be done

You just haven't found it yet

[wintry rampart]

perhaps these team members would get the satisfaction and belongingness that would mean little to them in a year, and that being an attendee has better rewards on the long term than working hard to make sure that the event takes place

by making more friends

[silver wasp]

Then why don't you go with it?? Give it more thought give it more time, it'll be really good to distract you and keep you away from doing nothing and feeling horrible

I feel like that sounds amazing

[wintry rampart]

i've already got an itinerary for it, as i'll prolly do some shenanigans in cosplay, even if the more "alpha males" here would find it dorky

[silver wasp]

That sounds amazinggggg see there is something that you are aware of you just gotta research it a little bit and mybe directly talk to those that know more about this

Then go onto considering it and getting on with it

[silver wasp]

Do what you want to do and what you know will bring you happiness and distraction from things that'll only bring you the opposite

[wintry rampart]

in fact, i've been in 2 central committees as executives, not heads for the org that i'm currently receiving leadership training from

[silver wasp]

Value your opinion and your thoughts and have faith in them before you think about those surrounding you

[wintry rampart]

and i feel that this is just a small start

[mild compass]

Hello

How is u guys

[wintry rampart]

as i'll remain loyal to the student organization that helped methroughout my stay at college

till i graduate

[silver wasp]

I can tell you that whatever you do people will have both positive and negative feelings towards it and they'll never let you live in peace even if you satisfyy what they want

[mild compass]

Oooops

[silver wasp]

So instead just go with what you want and learn to give 0 fucks about what others think

[wintry rampart]

that's exactly what my therapist tells me

[mild compass]

Angel what are u talking about?

[silver wasp]

Small or big it sounds amazing and if you know it'll be worth it in the end continue with it

[wintry rampart]

"don't give a fuck about what anyone else brings. let yourself achieve your dreams"

[silver wasp]

Just make sure its not something that hurts you and its not something that your forcing yourself into but rather its something your Wanting to do and enjoying

[silver wasp]

Yes because the more you continue to give a fuck

The more you'll be stopped from going just ANYWHERE

You wont even be able to step one foot ahead

You'll be stuck in a loophole of just shit people say of all the thoughts you have about what others thing just so much negativity so much unnecessary bullshit that you'll be sitting there going crazy while all these other people are become CEOs and just huge things

You can sit here and envy your friends and just allow your life to go into shambles while those friends of yours probably dont even think shit of you and they're just carrying on doing what they wanna do living life achieving all these things making sure and saving their life from going into shambles

You really wanna give a damn to those who dont value you at all??

You really want your life to be a hellhole while others are getting the best of the best?

You really wanna waste time while others are using time wisely?

You dont even knowwwww how fast and how quickly even a year can go by as and how easy it is to waste it but its all about the way you think and the way you gain control over yourself and everything else to save that time from being wasted

[wintry rampart]

perhaps my time could come eventually

[silver wasp]

I bet it isnt just me but even you'd agree that taking covid as an example life kinda flew by and if you cant relate thats fine but Im sure youve had experiences like that

[silver wasp]

It WILL

It CAN only if you work for it only if you put in the effort

[silver wasp]

You may want to scroll upp

Your time will only come if you introduce it into your life and if you actually bring it for yourself, don't just wait for it

Thats where many people go wrong

They think they can just sit there and wait for shit to get better and shit to happen but nothings moving a millimeter unless you make it move unless you do something for it to move for things to get better you know??

[wintry rampart]

not really, although it would have been a new place for face-to-face opportunities like student organizational recruitment though

or online training

[silver wasp]

Have you not had even a single moment in your life though, where you look at time and realise so much time just passed by so quickly and you didnt even have track of it?

It just went by like snapping your fingers?

Even if we're talking an hour

[silver wasp]

It would've been so much but it wasnt and its over with

You see again the thoughts of what could've been done and just looking really into the past when you know its over??

Life is a literal mind game its crazy, everythings perceived by you by the way you THINK about it, if you change the way you think even slightly soooo much changes along

[wintry rampart]

so, does this mean that i gotta be more optimistic and i don't know how to say this, but "avoiding basing my life off from others, even if my mother proceeds to compare me with others".

[silver wasp]

Yes yes yes yes

Even if someone you completely adored and could give your life for was comparing you with others you should not be taken in by it and believing in it

Its all about youuu, you're the one living life, you're the one who came into this world on his/her OWN and you'll be leaving on your own

None of those people who've given "advice" to you or compared you or just overall made you feel bad have helped you come into this life and neither will they help you leave this life

Its all youuuuu

All completely you and will forever be you

You're living for yourself thennn you're living for others

Once you're settled with yourself you can care about those around you

But just know

If you're not happy you'll never see anyone as being happy around you and you'll never be able to bring them happiness

[wintry rampart]

well, i don't get why they gotta do that in the first place though

[silver wasp]

Me neither and I know I'll never understand why

But what I have understood is that

Everyone will do it and they'll do it throughout life and they'll try their ultimate best to come into the way of your life like rocks scattered all over a road

And whether they do it out of supposed "care" or jealousy

Idgaf

I need to ignore it

I need to pick up those rocks and throw them to the side even if it requires every bit of my strength and effort

Even if its exhausting I cant give up

I need to do it

And I need to do it until I die

And if I dont

I wont get anywhere

I wont be able to do anythig

I'll just suffer and be in pain whether its mentally or physically

[wintry rampart]

and eventually, the suffering will turn into satisfaction, primarily as a reward

[bronze coyote]

Hmm

[silver wasp]

Dont let yourself suffer in the first place

Satisfactio and reward can come to you without allowing yourself to suffer

Yes you'll come across things vouching for you to suffer but even that you need to ignore though it'll get to you a bit which is completely normal but you cant let it be in control over you

Anything that comes mentally we're in control of whether its thoughts or emotions and even feelings

If I want to be happy I can be happy and I wanna be sad I can be sad

Even if a gist of sadness comes across my happiness its upto me if I wanna let it takeover my happiness or if I wanna let it go its own way and continue being happy

You really gotta think about it

Nothing is impossible nor uncontrollable and if something is uncontrollable it would be something like an illness physically because you dont choose to be sick but you can influence being sick by your activities

You just need to watch out for everythig alot

[candid field]

Angell what grade r u in?

[silver wasp]

But I hope I was able to help you somewhat and have you realise things maybe you hadn't realised beforehand, I promise you everything will be okay and things will take a turn for the best at one point I really really promise you that and whenever you need anything dont hesitate to contact me or just come on this channel where you'll meet alot of amazing people alsooo you can always go to #chat-lounge for some funn

I bet alot of things might've zoomed past your mind too as you might've been in a panicked state through this so I would consider re-reading things I have said and others too and giving it more thought

But you'lll be perfectly finee promiseeeeeeee and we're all here for you no matter whatt 🤍 @wintry rampart

[silver wasp]

Im 15 😭

Year 11 though

[lament glacier]

can relate

[wintry rampart]

well, i'll admit that thoughts from the past were racing

as my legs shaked during the panic attack

[silver wasp]

And thats okay but now you know what to do and I hope you're also feeling a bit better

[silver wasp]

Lmao

[inner rune]

My turn to vent (amongus fr) Honestly I almost died like a week before i joined this server from stress lmao was hospitalised for a month while both my parents scream at me and tell me how im the root of there problems then talk about disowning me on my birthday and all that bs then they dont care about me slitting my wrists but got angry i used a new knife my mom bought for the kitchen fun experience honestly and my dads been abusive because he's schizophrenic and my mom always complains abuot him and wishes how he was normal "understanding" he has a mental problem when she was with me being diagnosed with depression and then says its a wrong analysis once im done with 12th either Ill leave or die honestly

they somehow let me go to therapy but it was a relegion therapist and my parents are suppoer relegous so that guy said just pray like that worked for the past 17 years of my life

[pastel night]

I'm really sorry for everything you've been experiencing so far. Reading this honestly broke my heart because I went through a similar situation of self harm and suicide attempts and even though my mom took me to therapy but still it was terrifying and traumatizing as hell to explain everything to my parents after they found out about it. I know how traumatizing this can be but heyy!! Life is still full of beauty maybe the bubble you are in right now is contaminated with a lot of judgmental and bad people but there is still humanity and there is still hope out there. Sometimes our own family can leave us with extreme trauma and there's nothing we can do about it than hoping we had someone who understood us and I'll pray that your parents truly understand your situation and not pin you down all the time and you have to start loving yourself too. You're an amazing person, full of passion and dreams to chase!! You have a beautiful gift within you which gives you your entire meaning of living!! Please don't let it go to waste by letting the negativity consume you deeply!!

You might see yourself as coal but what if you hide a diamond within??

I understand your situation might block your vision from seeing how gifted you are but you have to find a way to see through it!!

[wintry rampart]

i've already suggested to the person that i was envious of that we don't talk about careers for now

[silver wasp]

Thats goodd 🤍

Take care of yourself thoughh

[wintry rampart]

i will! and now, go help bred for now. i'll be awol, trying to recover from any residual stress generated from that panic attack.

[silver wasp]

Shh its okayy, Im here for everyone 😭😭

You can contact me whenever again

[pastel night]

Parents and older people do not really understand the mentality of someone having suicidal thoughts, although spiritualism can help eradicate these thoughts but if it doesn't work for you than you don't have to follow it!! And like I said the environment around you has blinded you from seeing how truly beautiful you are from within and how capable you are!! Please remind yourself that you have your worth!! You aren't worthless, you are an amazing person and maybe someone who is scared to follow his true passion or express himself truly but heyy! Are you gonna let some idiots take away your sunshine so easily??? Never let them take over your thoughts and ambitions okay!!

[silver wasp]

Im here whenever you might need it, you can do this though I really believe in you and wish you the best

[pastel night]

Hear me out @inner rune you are such a strong person to have come this far despite all your circumstances ✨ people are hungry out there and they're waiting to pick up on someone who doesn't remember their self worth, that's why you should never ever let go of yourself and your worth ❤️

And you have us!! We are here to support you throughout your entire journey towards finding yourself again and developing a healthy relationship with yourself as well!! And I'm sure your parents will understand you at one point or the other and they will acknowledge their mistakes as well but we are here rooting for you to chase all your dreams and rediscover yourself !!!! ✨

[restive bridge]

same

[restive bridge]

hey dude, I’m really sorry for everything you’ve been through. it sounds like you were going through, and are going through, a dark period in your life. sometimes, our two biggest enemies in life can be ourselves and our own family. it seems like for you, your family is taking the genuine issues you already have and amplifying them. there’s not much you can do about it - as you said, when you’re done with 12th, get out of there and get yourself some genuine help. and until then, remember that no matter what you’re up to, there’s always people that care about you and that no matter what you do, life finds a way to go on. sometimes, it may feel like the world will crumple in on you and end today itself, but try to keep in mind that it’s been going for so long and isn’t going anywhere - in the end, you’ll find SOMETHING to live for.

@inner rune and just remember - you’ve made it 17 years, you just have to make it out through two more, and then you’ll be able to take the control away from your parents and develop genuine independence. there’s light at the end of the tunnel, and it’s not far away. you’ve got this

if you ever, EVER need anything, we’re here for you. I know that in the end, we’re just random people on the internet that you may never truly meet in your lifetime, but a lot of us here care about you, and if you ever need someone to talk to about something or just want a release from everyday life, the mfs over at #chat-lounge (me included) are always here for you

[slate sky]

Man I have school in like 5 hours and it’s very late night/early morning for me . Should I even try to sleep?

[pastel night]

Try to get some rest and drink warm milk or camomile tea to wake up feeling refreshed

You need the rest or you'll malfunction the entire day

[restive bridge]

get as much sleep as you can - even if it’s just a couple hours, getting SOME sleep sometimes distracts your body from how exhausted you are

for me, it tricks my body into thinking that I just slept and woke up so should now be fresh and ready

[lucid dome]

Even when it’s like 3h left , I’ll still sleep, 5h that’s like legit a lot ull feel refreshed

[silver wasp]

Yessss try your hardest to get the most sleep you can even if its only an hour or 2 because you'll wake up feeling so refreshed and relaxed hopefulllyy and not be guilty of not getting any rest at all before going to school

You dont wanna go to school being in guilt of getting 0 sleep and just eventually tiring yourself quickly

And once you're awake make sure you get some good breakfast in and as Fia said something like tea to give you energy and allow you to run through the rest of your day

Make sure you sleep early in the night though as you should be getting atleast 8 hours of sleep and sleep is something superrr duper importantttt

[bronze coyote]

guys thing is i cant think about anything other than revenge and goals till june 8

what can i do

[lucid dome]

TATAKEE
Aside from jokes, well why r u just thinking bout tht, like goals ok, but what revenge? U mean proving everyone wrong or sum

[silver wasp]

Awww you can vent whenever and however you want, even if someone's discussing something with someone else feel free to interrupt and let out how you're feeling because theres place for everyone in here and yes yes amongus LOL but hmmmmmmmmm, omgggg Im so sorry for what you've been going through I can't imagine how difficult things are probably on youuuu but first of allllllllllllllllll - are you okay?? I know it might be a very stupid question to ask but its really importantttt, though I'm not in the position you're in I can relate to how you might feel some times and I know it can be extremely hard to deal with but you have to realise that hurting yourself will only add marks to your body that don't have any sort of need to be there, it'll only be something that'll turn into scars later on in the future and eventually be a source of regret and guilt for you whilst reflecting back to the past - death is something many people think about and consider because they feel hopeless and feel tired of just living life because they think they can't do it and they feel there's nobody out there who cares even a bit about them but thats incorrect you knowwww, you might feel your parents dont give 2 shits about you due to the way things are in your house but internally

they have care and love for you because afterall you're their child and each parent has immense love for their child whether they show it or not which may be hard to accept and to see but trust me it exists and you gotta realise its not only your parents who exist and its not only situations that you're presented with that should give you the right and freedom to make decisions such as just leaving the world, other than your parents you've got your friends, your classmates, you've even got people in this server who might look upto you who might care and love youuuu so much even if they may or may not know you nor talk to youuu if you were to leave us and I say us because I do include myself in someone caring for you and loving for you and nobody can stop me from feeling that way if I dont know youu its literally out of humanly care but anywayss that decision would leave many affected it would leave many people hurt and create a huge hole in everyone's hearts and lives, you'll feel like you've escape every problem of yours but tbh more problems would arise more hardships more tears more painnn would arise, one human being can have a huge impact on the world without even realising it and

[lucid dome]

Btw angel u r rlly nice, I hope u also as well take care of urself, don’t neglect urself !

[mild compass]

W angel tho fr

[hazy dagger]

W angell tho fr

[still edge]

W angell tho fr

[bronze coyote]

yes

[pastel night]

D
E
A
D
!!

[bronze coyote]

what dead

[restive bridge]

W angell tho fr

[mild compass]

@inner rune I don’t have much to say about this matter but all i can say is that we are all here for you. Whenever you need us, we’ll be here to solve your problems out. Although, we have never met or maybe will never meet in person but that doesn’t make us less of a friend! 🙂

[restive bridge]

I’m going to be very honest, I usually don’t bring beliefs into question in this channel coz it’s the wrong place, but not all parents love their children. There are parents out there that genuinely have no care in the world for their offspring, and in that case, it’s not worth trying to salvage a relationship with parents that don’t give a fuck about you. I’ve seen parents that don’t care, that genuinely could not care less about their “children” (more like just offspring), so don’t keep hanging on to people that don’t care. Stay stage out there and stay strong.

[silver wasp]

Awwwwwww I knoww thats definitely true and honestly thats what I was trying to bring up in the part of my reply that got deleted

Whoever it is they need to care about their relationship with themselves before even their parents or anyone else there might be because again we come into this world on our own and leave it on our own aswellll

We gotta do things for ourselves and whats best for us and help ourselves, listening to what others have to say EVEN if its our parents can be harmful towards us

Because they are NOT always right

If anyone knows whats best for them and what they should be doing its they themselves and they should make decisions based off that and possibly take advice only from those who love and care for them whole-heartedly

Either way whether we're surrounded by a bajillion people or on our own we should be in complete control of ourselves, what we want, how we want it and the final decision etc because it'll only affect us and only change our lives not others

Anddd listening to other people whether they're in the wrong or right doesnt benefit them at all either they laugh at you or continue judging you

[pastel night]

Me 🤓

[hazy dagger]

noo pls live

[pastel night]

Yess I'm saved and okayy thanks to all the love of you guys 💗✨

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Mega#0284

[hazy dagger]

HAHAHA REP

LES GO

[pastel night]

Me Nopii leaving you all alone

[hazy dagger]

[pastel night]

[undone kite]

just prove them wrong g

[restive bridge]

fr

[mild compass]

why did i end up with these is smth i'll always have in mind

i'm just waiting to move out of this hell

[hazy dagger]

im depressed

[mild compass]

or run away next year

[hazy dagger]

real

wanna run away with me?

[lament cloud]

My parents love me but they're shit parents

I feel like that's just most indian parents

[mild compass]

true

[oak smelt]

I have never relate to anything more than this

[plush depot]

who isn't in 2023

[candid field]

🫂🫂😭

[winter skiff]

Ahhh
I am scared of math exammmm.
I am going to this world's hell aka exam hall

[bronze coyote]

take a chill

u got this

[winter skiff]

Thanksss

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Pr1th1v#8337

[winter skiff]

I hope everyone return wth smiling faces from exam hall.

[candid field]

All the best to everyone for their results today don't be stressed whatever happens 👍👍
You can try again

[pastel night]

My scoliosis pain is back ✨👏🏻🤝🏻
My spine is literally gonna break in half if I get up 🔥

[plush depot]

stick it w glue then 🤷🏼‍♂️

[pastel night]

Wowwww wonderfull ideaaaaa

[pastel night]

Thank youuu soooo much for enlightening my dull brain 🤓

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to kortuvor#0763

[plush depot]

nw!

[bronze coyote]

return kiya kya

[winter skiff]

Yeah almost most of them were happy

[bronze coyote]

did ur exam go well

i didnt ask about others

[mild compass]

Hola have a great day or night y’all

[winter skiff]

Yup mine went well
Although my friend didn't even said hi to me and was sitting behind me.
Although we entered the hall at the same time.
Only three last days and after that maybe we will never meet again as school ended so do these CAIEs. I wanted to make the best memories but only what is left are just tears.

[bronze coyote]

exam khatam ?

[winter skiff]

Nah only 3 left

[bronze coyote]

okk

[plush depot]

idk how to feel rn

should I cry?(never cried for something so silly except when my ice cream used to melt very quickly when I was younger)

I just finished 13 or 14 years idk in same fucking school

[bronze coyote]

ok same here

except for the crying and feeling parat

[plush depot]

just came back from hanging out w friends after exam
Feels so unreal tbh

[bronze coyote]

im in the same school

[bronze coyote]

oh yeah

that thing same here

[plush depot]

last exam that too that means no more hs ☠️

dk how to feel

[plush depot]

aren't you in as ☠️

finna be getting of from disc to detox myself 😭

[bronze coyote]

same here to the reference where u grew up in the same school with same friends

and they're fake as hell

[plush depot]

exactly

[plush depot]

mine ain't fake tho ☠️

I just removed the fake ones lol

stuck with the same idiots since idk when LMAO

[silver wasp]

Awww and now its like its getting to you how you're in A2 and you'll all be going your seperate ways for uni?

[bronze coyote]

okkk

[silver wasp]

he left the server

[pastel night]

Whyy???

I can't imagine leaving 😭

And hate me 😭

But yeah fr I can't imagine leaving this place

If I get a new cat maybe I will

But not now

Noooo cats are my whole world!!! The love of my lifeee 💕✨🔥🤝🏻💖😭

Kind people of the znotes, I wanted to say I feel like I'll die soon, idk why

But like idk life's hella intricate

Like tooo much

And there's beauty in it too

But still

Idk

[mild compass]

Why???? 😭

[pastel night]

Idk I sometimes don't really wanna live and I feel like I won't wake up one day when I sleep

[mild compass]

Recite duas in this case

[indigo creek]

Get a therapist

[kind wasp]

Make affirmations and make new goals. Take time off and explore.

[mild compass]

Straight to the point 😭

[compact helm]

don’t feel pressured to rush things, take your time to explore and enjoy your hobbies. even if you don’t get to do all the things on your bucket list, or even if you have nothing in particular planned, the process of finding something fun to do itself can turn out to be rewarding!

[mild compass]

Trust me i was literally contemplating suicide last week because of my horrible situation, my advice is to write everything you hate about yourself (which can be changed) and how to fix it such as grades, health, unproductivity etc. I also used to watch a lot of corecore videos and listen to sad songs which made me even more melancholic so DONT feed those feelings.

I found comfort in motivational vagabond videos as dumb as it sounds, crazy how much some quotes and beautiful music can take you

Hope this helps

Also last thing, always remember that everything has an end to it.

[pastel night]

Thank you so much everyone for your time and your kind words and affirmations. I really appreciate them ✨🫶🌺 take care🌻
@mild compass @compact helm @kind wasp @mild compass

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to 0P#7830, two-flower#1478, Obuka#4409, Zaiddd…khan#8596

[bronze coyote]

wow free reps looks like its my turn

jk

[bronze coyote]

don’t feel pressured to rush things, take your time to explore and enjoy your hobbies. even if you don’t get to do all the things on your bucket list,
don’t feel pressured to rush things, take your time to explore and enjoy your hobbies. even if you don’t get to do all the things on your bucket list,

jokes aside

fia , you have 2 weeks left

its gonna be hell

but never give up

remembe why u started

u start to finish

u were born to die

just fight

and move on

you got this

[mild compass]

I don't think you were born to die are good motivational words broski 😭😭😭😭

[bronze coyote]

we live to die another day

[pastel night]

Thank you @bronze coyote means a lot 🫶

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Pr1th1v#8337

[bronze coyote]

ay gus

guys

i told u im good at this

literally just said the most motivating words to make a really sad girl happy

💪

jokes aside

fia ji

[pastel night]

How do you deal with the feeling of being insignificant and invisible?

[bronze coyote]

2 weeks left

[bronze coyote]

oh

i dont lol

u cant see me suna hai kya

i speak less and make my actions sound more

[mild compass]

Being invisible ain't so bad, neither is being insignificant

[bronze coyote]

what makes u invisibile

[mild compass]

Think of popular people, they're always being talked about. I don't think you'd like to be talked about twenty four seven

And gossiped on things that ain't even true

[pastel night]

I've been living like that, being the therapist friend and all but I can't keep lying to myself anymore

[mild compass]

🤷🏼‍♂️

[bronze coyote]

oh

ok

punch the wall

do a reverse 360 sewy

[pastel night]

Not gossiping tho just feeling of being tiny

[bronze coyote]

oh

[pastel night]

Meaningless

[bronze coyote]

ur short ?

bro dont worry guys like tiny

[mild compass]

RISE ABOVE EVERYTHING RAHHHHHHHHHHH

[pastel night]

Not that 😅 but yeah I'm short

[bronze coyote]

ok that is a good option

[bronze coyote]

which tiny did u mean

see there is no such thing as short

everything as a height

[pastel night]

What if you don't have the energy?

[bronze coyote]

make the energy

rememebr

energy can neither be created

nor destroyed

[pastel night]

How?

[mild compass]

There's no such thing

[bronze coyote]

op

child

ur in ur igcses

[mild compass]

Precisely

[bronze coyote]

im in As

let the big man handle it

watch how we do it in the hood

as i was saying

fia

[mild compass]

Ion think you're handling it too well bro

😭

[bronze coyote]

i appreciate it

but dream work makes team work

or whatever

so u can join

[mild compass]

Team work makes the cream work i think

[bronze coyote]

yeah cream work

[pastel night]

Acha guys stop it's okay

[bronze coyote]

whatever its the same thing

[bronze coyote]

fia

if u dont have energy

do stuff like cooking or listen to music

look at the timelines

overthink

to 10000000000 realities

[mild compass]

You're only insignificant because you're convincing yourself you are. Literally changed your username to it. If you tell yourself the opposite you'll believe the opposite

[pastel night]

What if, you've been awake for the last 5 nights, having bad panic attacks, PTSD and being sick as well so you don't have the energy to do anything, I can't even text properly

[bronze coyote]

oh yeah i have that

so i dont do the things

i did last year

[mild compass]

Go to sleep 🙏🏻

[bronze coyote]

so that the same past isnt repeated

even my brain is about to burst

i get what ur feeling

ur feeling if the past is rpeating

right ?

[pastel night]

I felt like that so I changed it, plus most people say that about me so it's fine

[mild compass]

And attack the panic back

[pastel night]

I can't, I see bad dreams

[bronze coyote]

bro stfu i will actually throw u

u arent what others say

dont be a slave to other's words

[bronze coyote]

ur strong

[mild compass]

Ong

[bronze coyote]

pray

and go to sleep

[mild compass]

Prthrrr with the facts

[bronze coyote]

thanks bro

[pastel night]

I can't sleep

But I Prayed

[bronze coyote]

good

[mild compass]

That's dumb you'll die

[bronze coyote]

fia do a reverse 360 suii

it works

[mild compass]

Now do it consistently 🙏🏻

[bronze coyote]

run around the hall

[mild compass]

Surround your environment with positivity

[bronze coyote]

and just SUI

[bronze coyote]

become the positivity

become the one with the force

[pastel night]

I've been really really suicidal lately I am ashamed of it but I won't lie anymore it's been months since I've had these thoughts

[mild compass]

Do you have TikTok or insta? Tell me your fyp

What does it consist of

[pastel night]

Connecting with my religion helps me tho but still sometimes it's really really hard to get these thoughts off my mind

[mild compass]

Most likely depressed videos or videos of people partying and having fun right

[pastel night]

Cats and poetry

[mild compass]

Okay yeah idk how you can be depressed like that

[bronze coyote]

disgusting

watch vlogs

in youtube

i think fia has woken up to reality

[mild compass]

No

[bronze coyote]

watch lifestyle vlogs

[mild compass]

Be the vlogger

Why watch people be productive when you can be productive

[pastel night]

No I don't follow celebs that much, deleted Snapchat too cuz of the toxicity

[mild compass]

Yeah i deleted everything too

[pastel night]

Wow you guys insulting my feelings now 😅

[mild compass]

Distractions are everywhere

Even here

[bronze coyote]

no

[mild compass]

I should be studying rn

[bronze coyote]

yeah

[mild compass]

💀

[bronze coyote]

bro im actually multi tasking

life advisor plus student

[pastel night]

No, I'm blinded, my eyes are blinded

[bronze coyote]

fia

do u have friends

jusg asking

[mild compass]

Weeknd

[pastel night]

I'm blinded by the darkness within me

[bronze coyote]

nothing to make fun off

[bronze coyote]

i thought the same

OOOO IM BLINDED BY THE LIGHTS

fia

do u have irl friends

or are they bitches

who make fun of u

[pastel night]

Real life not that much, online yes but still I don't wanna tell em exactly what's on my mind cuz they will get worried

[bronze coyote]

thats the reason

[mild compass]

Any future plans

[bronze coyote]

ok fia

go to sleep

[bronze coyote]

yes

i want to buy a 911 turbo

[pastel night]

They are jealous ones but I don't talk to them much

[bronze coyote]

mine too

see

sometimes

[pastel night]

How many times I have to say I cant

[bronze coyote]

only 1 can lead the world

that is why 1

is the reason

[mild compass]

Nah i don't surround myself w people like that

[bronze coyote]

for everything

[mild compass]

I never understand people who do

[bronze coyote]

fia listen

[mild compass]

I'd rather be alone honestly

[bronze coyote]

u are vengance

u are the night

u are FIA

[mild compass]

Das js me tho

[bronze coyote]

fia

u are vengeance

u are the fighter

u will kill anyone with ur grades

[pastel night]

Bus kro yaar

[bronze coyote]

who stands in ur way

[bronze coyote]

help kar raha hun

[mild compass]

Yes

[pastel night]

I'm really sorry mujhse type nhi horha

[bronze coyote]

i can understand u

[mild compass]

Vengeance doesn't sleep and neither does fia

[bronze coyote]

the past isnt repeating

trust me

[bronze coyote]

fia is a try hard imo

fia is the goat

[pastel night]

Thank you so much for your time and patience @bronze coyote and @mild compass I really really appreciate it 💖

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Pr1th1v#8337, 0P#7830

[bronze coyote]

that doesnt sound like " i feel better now "

[mild compass]

I'm always here to help 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 (I'm not)

[pastel night]

Nopi

[mild compass]

Je rigole

[pastel night]

Idk I'm not feeling better by anything

[bronze coyote]

share it with parents

[pastel night]

Did

[bronze coyote]

what did they say

[mild compass]

Just sleep through it

[bronze coyote]

fia

[mild compass]

Sleep fixes everything

[bronze coyote]

it is about time

u get rizz

[pastel night]

Tried everything this is the last place I've come

[bronze coyote]

do u feel alone

as a single human

[delicate bramble]

What exactly happen?

[bronze coyote]

cuz at our age

this alone thing usually happens

[pastel night]

I'm alone 😅

[bronze coyote]

ngl i missed the girl i liked

handled it like a man

cuz i got goals to achieve

[mild compass]

Me and pythagoras are trying to make fia fial better

[bronze coyote]

goofy aah distractions

[pastel night]

But I really wanna stay distant tbh

[bronze coyote]

🤣

pythagors

BRO

[pastel night]

😅

[bronze coyote]

wtf

bro

LMAO

[pastel night]

Maths p1 jesay boht acha huwa hy

[bronze coyote]

fia

[pastel night]

Kion yaad kra rhe ho

Hmm

[bronze coyote]

are u willing

to date

someone

[pastel night]

No

[bronze coyote]

is that a type of the alone ua re feeling

[pastel night]

I'm Muslim bro

[bronze coyote]

ok fia go watch ms dhoni movie

[pastel night]

Nahi yaar I love my lonely time

[bronze coyote]

idk about how that had to do with what i asked

[bronze coyote]

okk

is it haram or what

[pastel night]

You aren't Muslim?

Wait sorry I assumed your religion

Yeah it's Haram and dating is just a stupid thing to do anyways at this age

[bronze coyote]

i agree with that

[mild compass]

Ion think so

Imo the comfort would be worth the heart break 💀

Still haven't even gotten my first gf yet

Waiting for the day

[pastel night]

Bro a broken heart should never seek a romantic relationship, that would just be attachment not love

[bronze coyote]

imma head out

[mild compass]

I always be going out on walks and stuff alone and think dayum bruh imagine i had a girl rn

💀

[mild compass]

Yeah same i got hella studying to do

[pastel night]

Guess I'm just too inconvinceable tho whatever the word is but thank u for trying @mild compass and @bronze coyote

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to 0P#7830, Pr1th1v#8337

[pastel night]

💖🫶

[mild compass]

Probably, i never spiraled that deep into depression. You should try cognitive behavioral therapy

Do you take psychology classes?

[pastel night]

Nopi but I write poetry

Self studied psychology too

[mild compass]

I was asking to see if u knew what i was talking Abt

[pastel night]

But yeah I'm still mean to myself

[pastel night]

Ik

[mild compass]

We all are, i believe being mean to yourself is good as long as it's not wrong

Quote from a goated movie whiplash says that the most harmful words in the English language are good job

Like okay yeah good job you did great

No need to better yourself anymore

[pastel night]

Great insight tbh

[mild compass]

So i believe that speaking bad about yourself in that sense is right

[bronze coyote]

no probs

[mild compass]

But if you're just saying stuff thats completely wrong like I'm a failure while getting straight As 💀

Like come on dawg

[pastel night]

It's not really about that but I get the point

Thanks for your time @mild compass you should probably get back to studying now! I don't wanna waste your time ✨

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to 0P#7830

[mild compass]

Right, thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to rfia#0408

[mild compass]

Hopefully i helped at least a bit

[delicate bramble]

I believe u faced that and not able to move on, is that right?

[pastel night]

Well idk it's hard to explain to everyone that im a poet and poets are different, I don't have to date or anything to talk about dating and relationships

Idk it's really hard to explain how my mind works

Just assume as if I'm a mad author and artist

I have bold realities and bold imagination

Which most people don't understand

And no one understands how stifling it can get at one point

[mild compass]

Idk bro I'm getting major main character syndrome rn

Don't disconnect yourself from others like that

[pastel night]

Being different from the normal thinking perspective makes you feel like an outcast and makes you wanna end things cuz no one is willing to understand you

[delicate bramble]

Every problem have a solution!

[delicate bramble]

What? What made u think like that?

[mild compass]

That's dumb, I couldn't be more different from my classmates and yet i don't call myself as such

Every person in my class gets grades seven and above

And I'm absolutely tanking everything

But that's at a cost

I write, i create art, i play the piano, i act, i speak more languages than them

But they don't know how to do any of that

Just this month they announced a talent show and everyone was panicking saying they don't have a talent

I found that quite obscure

[pastel night]

Guys! Look I'm always reminded by everyone I'm a different person, you yourself said I'm too kind, others say I'm otherworldly for different reasons and wherever I've tried to fit in, wherever Ive tried to atleast feel at home I cant

[mild compass]

Of course you're a different person

Everyone is

[pastel night]

I don't even know what the hell I'm saying rn

[mild compass]

Cliché overused line incoming: Imagine how boring life would be if everyone was the same

[pastel night]

I just feel like an uninvited guest at the red carpet

[delicate bramble]

Get to the actual point, u wanna fit in certain places or society that understands you or u find difficult be in this society?

[pastel night]

Now everyone is waiting for me to leave

[mild compass]

💀

[delicate bramble]

Loneliness I believe?

[mild compass]

Then why did you go if you were uninvited

[pastel night]

Idk

[pastel night]

Stupid ass mentality

[mild compass]

Idk man it's not like she's been saying that for the past hour

[delicate bramble]

What so u actually went?, be honest to ur self

[pastel night]

That's the thing

I lied to myself so much

Now I don't know why I'm here

[delicate bramble]

She is here for past a week, I just wanna know what exactly happened to her.

[pastel night]

I lied that I'm strong, I lied that I'm capable

Now I'm confused

[mild compass]

Lets get a quick recap, youre not invited to the red carpet and yet you go anyway but when you arrive youre surprised that you feel different and left out

[delicate bramble]

Alr first thing first stop telling everyone

[pastel night]

No, I was invited, welcomed but I forgot who and dhskjdbd idk

Im sorry imma ruin your brains too

[delicate bramble]

Ppl will give u so many ideas, advices, assumptions, techniques etc u might not able to deal with any of it

[mild compass]

Idk for a writer you don't have great world building

😭

[mild compass]

Exactly, if you want something done well do it yourself

[pastel night]

This is the last place I'm opening up to tbh, I just wanted to see what ppl think tbh

[delicate bramble]

Sometimes I need someone to see the light in the darker room. Every time u cannot find the way out my ur self.

[pastel night]

Thanks for the time guys! I'm confused myself I'm gonna confuse you all even more! But appreciate your patience @delicate bramble @mild compass

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to ahmaisism#1414, 0P#7830

[mild compass]

This is step one, step two is two write down what you dont like about yourself and or why you might be feeling this way way

And work your way up from there

Of course some randos in the internet aren't gonna be able to help you

[pastel night]

Ik ik

[delicate bramble]

It’s fine, ans few of my qs. Then decide what r u exactly looking for

[mild compass]

BE THE LIGHT TO YOUR DARKNESSSSSS 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[pastel night]

Okay

[delicate bramble]

First thing first, just clear me out. R u suffering from heartbreak?

[mild compass]

Predictions: no

[pastel night]

What sense

Imma ruin your minds guys

[delicate bramble]

Someone left u?

[pastel night]

Just pretend I never vented here

[mild compass]

sus

[pastel night]

My cat, my cousins, my friends, so more like PTSD, my cats the most recent one,his death scarred me

Dec 22

Never felt sane afterwards ngl

He died Infront of me

Painful death

Like a cloth being pulled over a bunch of thorns

That was his state

[delicate bramble]

Anything past distributes u?

[mild compass]

Distributes 😭😭😭😭

[delicate bramble]

Disturb*

[mild compass]

Yeah my physics teacher yesterday

[delicate bramble]

Sorry

[mild compass]

Yeah ik i just found that funny

Listen i also have countless trauma but it all depends on how you wanna deal with it

Are you gonna be stuck up about it for the rest of your life or are you gonna realize that no matter how much you think about it it's not gonna change

[delicate bramble]

Can u pls give sometime

[mild compass]

Wdym

[pastel night]

What are you exactly referring to? Yes his death disturbed me a lot, don't ask me to go into the details, I was really really close to him, and him leaving left me in scars, his death was traumatizing, agonizing and it felt like a part of me died that day, I can't still hear his voices at his last hour every day when I'm alone and it hurts me

[delicate bramble]

Can u dm? I’m sorry I’m missing out a lot

[mild compass]

Ight man if I'm the problem imma dip

Cya guys

[delicate bramble]

U need actual someone professional if it really traumatized u. But before u go take some step by ur self

[mild compass]

Wish me luck for studying

[pastel night]

Sorry I know trauma can be really hurtful, but the thing is I have had other traumas and experiences but I'm standing strong from them but just lately Ive felt a stranger to myself and everything

[delicate bramble]

No no man, it’s just too many ping’s happening at the same time

[pastel night]

Byee good luck and thank you

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to 0P#7830

[delicate bramble]

Gl mate

[mild compass]

It's cool ik my jokes can me insensitive

[mild compass]

Thanks you too

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to rfia#0408

[mild compass]

Hope batman can help you

Give her a piece of that Vengeance bro

I'll cya guys later

[pastel night]

You can go too! I'm okay! Imma confuse the hell out of you if I explained everything so for the sake of your mental health! I'd advise you to carry on with your day and just pretend I never told you anything and thank you as well ✨

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to ahmaisism#1414

[mild compass]

@pastel night ik i said i was gonna leave a billion times and you guys said bye a billion times as well but this is the actual last thing i wanna say

It's horrible cuz you're torturing yourself over nothing, obviously i cant know what youve been through and vice versa but I'll tell you the piece of advice that i follow. No matter how painful your past may be, there's no use crying about it more than once, once is to let everything out. More than that you're just wasting time. Will crying undo that thing? No it won't, and if you keep thinking about the past and future you wont be able to live in the present

That's it

Also get off your phone it ruins mental health lol, it'll be better to read a book or watch a show

[pastel night]

Aww thank you so much!! This is really kind but I'm not bitching myself over the past it's just that some past trauma comes back to life sometimes so it's more of reliving the same pain but okay I understand your point✨ thank you for being this patient

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to 0P#7830

[mild compass]

It's cool

Did i help for at least 0.1 percent?

[pastel night]

Yep was off everything today

[pastel night]

Yes yes thank you for everything 💗🙏🏻

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to 0P#7830

[pastel night]

Now study in peace

[mild compass]

You're welcome

[pastel night]

I'm okay

[mild compass]

😭😭😭🙏🏻

Hello physics sheets

[undone kite]

Amogus venting

[pastel night]

Heyy what's up guys

Oh 😅

[undone kite]

Before you vent one of my friends is back greenfalcon

[pastel night]

You tell me

[undone kite]

You were the only one who believed me 😭

Only one

Other is still missing

Yeah he's aight thankfully I haven't talked to him about it yet so I still don't know what tf happened

[pastel night]

I get that!!! Eee but good luck you're a passionate individual you can do this!! Do the work with a clear mind!!!

[undone kite]

Hahahahahah the ceiling hahahaha the sky

[pastel night]

Stars too

Universe

🙏🏻

[undone kite]

Yeah exactly that's why I haven't spoken to him yet I just talked to him and said I'm thankful he's back ykwim

[pastel night]

No worries

[undone kite]

Reality is scawy

[pastel night]

Yeppiee it is

But we gotta be mafias

We gotta fight

🪚🪚

[undone kite]

Wait why tf your name Insignificant

Ehyd you change it

[pastel night]

Umm

Hehe

[undone kite]

Hehe

Lmao yeah it foes

[pastel night]

Hehe

[undone kite]

Hehe

[pastel night]

Um

Hehe

😅😅

I'm okay

[undone kite]

Fac

C

X

[pastel night]

You said in chat lounge me was 🤓

Hehe

Who's fia

Idk her

🤓

Who was fia to you

[undone kite]

Fia is 🌟⭐🌠💫🐻🌊✌☮🕊😸

[undone kite]

Lmao yo perfect timing to your questiom

[pastel night]

Cannibal 😭

[undone kite]

WAS THST NOT GOOD

[pastel night]

Yo bro all my vibe stickers 😭

[undone kite]

YEAH EXACLY

[pastel night]

Weird 😅

How weird

Yeah

Been struggling to stay sane lately

😅

[undone kite]

Exams? Or like life in general?

[pastel night]

Sab kuch, been sick, people shitty and all

Etc

[undone kite]

Hmm yea I guess shit gets overwhelming

[pastel night]

Yep yep

[undone kite]

You should get some you time bro

[pastel night]

Hmm strangers who claim to be close

[undone kite]

Do shit you wanna do and enjoy

Greenfalcon with bangers

[pastel night]

Ayy me time but hehe what to do in tha

Not their opinions their actions

Just made me uncomfortable

Hella uncomfortable

Triggered some old scars and all

My situation is sorta difficult tho, I can't avoid em

[undone kite]

Lmao do what you like to do bruh. I wouldn't say go on social media cos that's shit for your mind, I just read books or I just sit in my room stare at the wall and think about whatever is bothering me so I can face it

[pastel night]

Ayy thank you!! Btw have you started prep 😭

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to STYNK#5166

[pastel night]

Umm I could but not here

Man you all nice tho

[undone kite]

Prep for what 😭

[pastel night]

🥺

[pastel night]

Phy

Okay but just don't judge me

[gleaming jasper]

why me

[restive bridge]

not you dw

[gleaming jasper]

its fine uwu

[restive bridge]

fia asked me to purge lol

[gleaming jasper]

ok

[bronze coyote]

ew

that u word

[mild compass]

CAN SOMEONE PLS MAKE ME STUDY

[pastel night]

It's just a few more days and that's the end!! Then you'll be free yayyy!! But hey no pain no gain!! So you gotta convince yourself for just a lil longer!! And I know you can do this!! Good luck dear ✨❤️

[mild compass]

THANK YOU OMG ❤️

[pastel night]

Awww 🥺

[mild compass]

i can do it

im gonna study and ace this shitty ass paper and GET AN A*

[pastel night]

Yesss bestiee!!! Show them you are a true queen!!! And this is your war you're gonna win thisss 🪩🔥

[mild compass]

lysm!!! ahhh<3 slay

INSHAALLAH

[bronze coyote]

why does this chat look like comment section thirst

[hard ravine]

Go study.

You can do this.

It's only a few weeks or days.

[pastel night]

Ig she's studying now

[hard ravine]

And then You will be free

[pastel night]

U copy me 🥺

[hard ravine]

If anything I'm probably distracting her

[hard ravine]

I coudn't come up with anything and it would be weird if I just wrote: "Go study."

[pastel night]

Me give you free rep

[hard ravine]

are you trynna make me say thank you so that you also get a rep?

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to rfia#0408

[pastel night]

Thanks😭

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Dankeception#4946

[hard ravine]

WAIT

[pastel night]

Waittt

[hard ravine]

bruh

[pastel night]

Woww

😭

[hard ravine]

xD

[pastel night]

WW ig

😭

[hard ravine]

lol no problemo thank you

okay it didn't work

Thanks for the rep tho!

[pastel night]

Works when u tag

[pastel night]

Eeee nw ✨

[hard ravine]

Thanks for the rep and that information!

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to rfia#0408

[hard ravine]

hmm how intriguing

[pastel night]

Aww

Btw why can't u sleep

What time is it there

[hard ravine]

It's almost midnight here lol

11:40

[pastel night]

Eee almost 1 am here

Haha

[hard ravine]

wow

[pastel night]

12.40 hehee

[hard ravine]

You can't sleep

[pastel night]

Ommggg

[hard ravine]

Oh so you in Pak?

[pastel night]

Yeppp you??

[hard ravine]

wait why are we talking here come to chat lounge it'll disrupt the venting

channel

[pastel night]

<@&572709257036955649>

[halcyon hollow]

Sorted by now hopefully

[pastel night]

Yeppp thank you

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Tech_Support#3847

[halcyon hollow]

Free rep even though I didn’t ban the person ✨✨

[green venture]

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[winter skiff]

Uhm Idk but I feel like I should ask it although a lot of overthinking has been done on these questions.
Is it weird that I love cats? Does it make me look like a mental piece or (some kind of ajeeb person)?
Is it something foolish to spend your time writing poetry? Like why do people behave so awkwardly and weirdly like I am some kind of idk what because I love cats and love writing poetry?

[compact helm]

first of all overthinking is part of human nature there’s no need to hesitate about asking silly questions

and as for loving cats i think the majority of people i’ve met love cats

so i really don’t think that’s too out of the blue

[compact helm]

and idk about how people act weird around you

maybe they haven’t gotten to know you better as a person? or they’re just a bit shy?

i guess maybe they’re pretty awkward in general

and unless you’ve had a history with them i don’t see how else they can act “weird”, as you say

how do they act weirdly tho? just a question

in any case loving cats and loving poetry is probably the most beautiful combination of likes i could see in a person 😍

i’d love to hear your poetry sometime

and don’t worry feel free to rant about random cute cats you see every now and then

i’m quite sure a lot of us would share the same sentiment

[bronze coyote]

if ur obsessed with furries then ur ajeeb maybe but as normal cats no u arent

if ur goofy egoistic friend calls u ajeeb, thats one way of her indirectly making fun of you because she knows ur better

[bronze coyote]

oh i , imagine 145982032 realities at one milli second am i human ?

[winter skiff]

Like if I tell someone I have a pet cat. That person will be like what- you have a cAt?? It's weird. There is nothingin loving animals like why do you waste time in such activities

[winter skiff]

Sure would love to share them with you

[winter skiff]

Nah not furries
Just cats they are cute.

[bronze coyote]

lol i was joking

bro

even themost perfect ppl

[winter skiff]

You got it right. Yes she the reason I am asking this question

[bronze coyote]

have haters

so deal with it

u are no different

[bronze coyote]

ngl i would be doing the same if i was her

[winter skiff]

lol I wanna know the reason

[bronze coyote]

its just an internal ego thing

you know

storm in cars 3

made fun of cruz

and cruz overcame it

and mcqueen told cruz

[winter skiff]

I know not every person can love you

[bronze coyote]

he knows ur better

then cruz overcame it

and won

its somewhat like that

im cruz in my own story

with lightning mcqueen

[winter skiff]

Lol I love this movie I have watched it a lot of times

[bronze coyote]

good

[winter skiff]

Damn you brought a good point out of it

[bronze coyote]

ye ik

i can relate to such characters

who are underestimated

and just came back on top

because

karma exists

[winter skiff]

I love it when someone underestimate and you then show them by your actions that they are wrong

[winter skiff]

Btw thank you

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Pr1th1v#8337

[bronze coyote]

no probs

[bronze coyote]

agreed

[lament cloud]

dude

everyone in this world is ajeeb

do whatever makes you happy

as long as its not physically/mentally hurting other people

[pastel night]

Hey there!! I'm exactly like you, I'm a poet and I adore cats and I can understand how sometimes we might be perceived but who cares!! This is what makes us different!!! THIS IS US!!! You know whenever people see someone entirely UNIQUE, they just can't stand the fact they aren't as DIFFERENT as we can be! Just don't care bestie! I've been writing poems since I was 11, and I received so much criticism too for exploring such deep and "higher level" topics at a young age, I felt insecure about my poetry as a 13 year old but I never quit and you should also NEVER QUIT!!! NEVER BE ASHAMED TO HAVE YOUR OWN LIL UNIVERSE!! NEVER BE ASHAMED TO BE UNIQUE!! Have your own rules and embrace them dear!! I know some stupid people have been trynna take away your sunshine but sis this is ✨YOU✨ You have such a beautiful mind to even be able to re think about the concepts of life and describe them your own way!! Believe me, no one will understand the sanity of a poet as much as another poet and I assure you, this sanity is ✨GIFT✨ NEVER LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE 💖

[winter skiff]

OMG Fia I just can't thank you enough like your words means a lot to me. THANK YOU SO MUCH. Bruh you have such a beautiful heart. ♥️❣❤

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to rfia#0408

[winter skiff]

And you also write poetry??? Like really??? Never met someone whom I can relate about this topic.

Thank you so much @lament cloud and @pastel night for your time and energy.
Means a lot.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to EminemSomething#1906, rfia#0408

[compact helm]

if you have 46 chromosomes yes

[bronze coyote]

ok

[compact helm]

oh i get why they say that