im not sure if this is the right place to ask this but i really, truly hate my art. like, genuinely, but i need to keep drawing because i need to get better. but whenever i draw? i usually break my pen, throw my sketchbook across my room, and destroy the page i drew. art has been an incredibly stressful process for me lately and ive been experiencing muscle spasms from the anxiety stemming from it, but the thing is I just cant stop myself from drawing. Its out of the question. what am i supposed to do? i mainly stress out while doing portraits, is there anything else i can draw or do that will imbue improvement in my art without the stress?
#needing advice more than anything
karmic ruin
uneven pewter
Doodle, or take a break
cursive holly
This is obvious but, none of this is healthy at all, art shouldn't be stressful to this state and it has everything with your mentality regarding art.
You're only doing art for the sake of the improvement, you've forced yourself into drawing regardless of the wellness of your mental state because you could "always be drawing something", just to improve.
Did you always start art just for this reason? When you first started drawing, did you do it for a goal, or just for enjoyement?
Do art for the sake of enjoying it, instead of being obsessed by improvement, any goal focused on immediate desires is recipe for disaster,
Also yeah as Emily said, take a gosh darn break, being this stressed isn't healthy.
karmic ruin
This is obvious but, none of this is healthy at all, art shouldn't be stressful ...
hmmmmm. enjoyment, i believe. i didnt really set a clear motive when i started because i was a child, i guess i had just found a passion and pursued it, the perfectionism being somewhat of a later development. its obviously more complicated now because my mentality around it changed due to my environment as well the fact that i very much hold myself to other people's standards when it comes to drawing.
i think the root of the issue is that i have been often drawing with pen, usually using pencil. i think the fact that i am not-so-good with pen has sent me into an "oh shit! im regressing!" attitude. ill definitely take a break, lols
uneven pewter
What do your pencil sketches look like? Sometimes the way you sketch with pencil vs pen can make your lines look wayyy different ykwim
regal anvil
i have been through the same, it’s normal to sometimes feel our art is not enough or we could do it better, i recommend taking a little break and thinking what is that you wanna show in your art, what do you wanna draw? what do you wanna express? and try to look for inspiration in music, movies and other different art 
it’s something that has work for me and i hope it could help you too
karmic ruin
What do your pencil sketches look like? Sometimes the way you sketch with pencil...
here is my work in pencil vs pen 😕 sorry i didnt know which one to use lolsies
uneven pewter
The way u render with pencil relies with smudging whereas its harder to do that w pen
What if you try to sketch w pencil and do pencil for lineart
Pen
Pencil for sketch, pen for lineart
karmic ruin
What if you try to sketch w pencil and do pencil for lineart
maybe, but i would be intimidated by the way i'd have to sacrifice the sketch
uneven pewter
You may not need to erase it all unless you wanna do weird stuff thatd make you need to remove the sketch
vagrant relic
hmmmmm. enjoyment, i believe. i didnt really set a clear motive when i started b...
The only way to improve is through practice, but not just any kind. You need real, focused practice, and for that, you also need to build the right environment, you won't always be able to get a perfect environment but read until the end so you don't get overwhelmed. Stress is one of the most self-destructive things you don’t want to have if you want to retain the information you learn through experience. Stress occupies too much space in your brain, and if it exists, the best thing to do is to treat it beforehand. This is something a lot of artists don’t really think about. The way you learn art is directly related to your personality and how you handle other tasks in your daily life. If you improve your discipline and learn to be a better person (self-control), you will also probably build the necessary neural connections for your brain to start learning almost anything you want, and I’m not just talking about art. I've learnt this from experience and from the words of other people, this is one of the best advices you can get but that doesn't mean it is the only one, keep and open mind and don't ever just close to an only way of doing things, that is how I was able to learn different languages and disciplines. The hard part is not the subject you study, it is the improvement of your own and self brain. I don't think it is nice to get through the path of realizing this by yourself so I will tell you a very important thing; We are not logical beings, we are not totally rational, you can't force yourself to be a machine, you need to learn how we humans think, even for learning the most technical subjects you must understand this
digital canopy
People just make art of duck tape and banana a bellif called concept art. How was it art? How is it a banana bro somtimes what makes you smile as a artist is to see the world in lenses you thought did not exist it's creative but a breathing ground for maybe scientific, conceptual maybe called mundane but radical I have seen such air that carried the generations after us and it's fun! I'll give you a Playlist so you can revel in art you maybe never saw.
