I need help understanding channel specific rules

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First off, I am not accusing anyone of doing bad moderation here. Do not take anything I say as something that I just posted to argue with you like I used to in the past.

It comes to my attention that @neon lance is warning me specifically, for doing something in a channel that basically everyone else is doing, but for some reason, I'm the one lone black sheep.

Before my actual question, let's remember how Syanda has warned me before in #tech-support a long time ago for allegedly "giving inaccurate advice". I attached screenshots, in case the link below doesn't work.

https://discord.com/channels/456397991847395339/1222588800656740352

This case has led me to argue with you and leave the server, as I simply could not understand how I was doing anything wrong. Well, we never really came to an agreement, but eventually, I did decide to come back here for reasons that I have already expressed via DMs, I think. Let's forget this case and move to my new case.

Now I'm being warned once again by Syanda for replying to a comment on my feedback. The other user has expressed their opinion respectfully and I also had expressed my opinion respectfully, even pointing out that it's not my intention to offend anyone, or keep the discussion going: #game-feedback message

If the second message is read, you will find out that maybe it wasn't really necessary to warn me for something like this. I was expanding my idea, while also trying to explain why I posted my idea in the first place, which we may or may not agree is good or bad. I even said I wouldn't keep it going at the very end.

So, how do I ask this exactly? Is there some sort of conspiracy against me specifically?
Is it because my messages are too long?

Would I be allowed to counter-argument on game-feedback, like anyone else, despite the rules discouraging debates, if my messages were not long?

I have been trying to socialize in the server as you have previously recommended me to do, but I need that you understand that my place is not al-general, where I share memes and fun things. My place is somewhere else, more serious, helping people and taking things a little more seriously. It is in my nature to be a serious person, which is why I had applied to be a moderator 1 or 2 years ago. Unfortunately my application was not accepted, I will not apply again in the future since I think that moderators just get promoted for their effort, manners and high quality answers. The first rule on how to get promoted, is to never ask to get promoted. That's what I think.

So, with all of this said, I hope that your reply isn't just a "touch some grass" like in the past. I do not want to be something bad in your eyes, or anyone's eyes. As a kid I would feel guilt when someone told me to stop doing something because it was wrong, or when my teachers used to tell me that my homework was wrong. I have such an exceptionally high respect for authority. I even asked you before about my actions in the server, literally self-reporting myself just in case what I said wasn't appropriate.

I hope that you understand what I'm trying to tell you.

So, if you could please tell me what is the reason that I get warned like this, I would appreciate it. Do not just tell me to read the game feedback pins, because I did read them and I'm aware that discussions are not encouraged. I have an urge to understand why Syanda and why my messages are specifically always the problem, when other users seem to have the freedom to do what I do with no consequences.

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Users that I don't even know and never talked to me seem to see the virtues in me, but for some reason I feel that the admins who actively see my suggestions and all posts don't see anything special. It's really a shame. While some think I should be helping in the server, others think they should be warning me.

I don't know if I deserve or don't deserve the warning, or if I deserve or don't deserve to be a mod. The only thing I ask for is that you explain to me carefully what I'm doing wrong and how is it possible that someone who is highly respectful, if not one of the most respectful, rule-respecting users, gets warned, while others who couldn't care less if they get banned, don't.

I don't enjoy any of this. I just want to use the server in peace as everyone else.

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If it's because of my old feedback about removing all the mods, I ask that you please get over it. I don't hate you, I never even hated you. I simply thought that we could have newer mods. You got your new mods and what I said does not apply anymore.

If it's because of my comments about you in other servers, understand that you have also commented things that hurt me too.

If it's because any other reason, ideology or whatever, understand that we are in this together and if you continue making me feel guilty, you may lose someone who definitely cared. I care about this game probably way more than the entire server combined, I also want to see the game succeed, I want nothing but good things for the game and the people behind it.

Sorry if I get sentimental but it's what I feel. I know this is probably not all that serious, but I can't just ignore it like a normal person would. I suffer from paranoid disorders.

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Or like, if this is just a witch hunt or you waiting for me to post the most insignificant thing to warn me, just tell me that you don't like me, that I'm a generally problematic person, that nothing I do or say here is worth reading because it's just wall of text after wall of text, that would honestly at least help me realize that there is at least a reason to go after me.

Prefer that over a "you broke rules, we don't know what rules or why you specifically, but you are a naughty person, bad, bad".

Whatever, I made my point. I have nothing else to say. And you successfully made me scared, terrified to use the server again. Sorry.