#happy - NF
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Hear me out I know it's been a couple years
Since I’ve reached
Out and said hello
i bet youre wondering
why- i- keep
Obsessing on and stressing all the little things
when i should be
Living life and soaking up the memories
i know ive been
selfish I have
no excuse to give you its true
hanging by a
threads how i live
i don't know why but I feel more comfortable
LIVING IN MY AGONYYY
watching my self-esteem
go up in flames actingg
like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully
That that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel but I’m too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I’d be if I was happy
yeah been this way so long
It feels like something’s off when I’m not depressed
I got some
demons i should put to rest
I got some
tramuas that i cant forget
I got some
Phone calls I’ve been avoiding
some family members i dont really connect with some
Some things I said I wish I would've not let slip
Some hurtful words that never should have left my lips
Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes
I’ll be the first to admit that I’m a lonely soul
and the last to admit i need a hand to hold
Losing hope
headed down a dangerous road
Strange, I know
But I feel most at home when I’m
Living in my agony
watching my self esteem
Burn up in flames acting like I don’t
care what anyone else thinks
But I know truthfully
(when i know-) that thats the furthest thing from how i-
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I’m trapped in
The truth is I need help but I just can’t imagine
who I'd be if I was happy
Don't know what's around the bend.. Don't know what my future is...
But I can't keep on living in
Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem
Go up in flames acting like I dont
care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that’s the furthest thing from how I
feel but im too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help but I just can't imagine
who id be if
I was happy