#14 yr old vent

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limber mango
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idk im kinda looking for advice but not the kind where "your in the wrong" or "you DID suck" so im just gonna put all my vents in here since i dont have anywhere else to put it.

P.S. if my vent is related to anyone in the server i wont say their name and also pls dont get mad at me for venting abt the experience if i do vent abt you

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DAY 1
2/26/2025

I just realized that the friends I have in real life (and some online) hate me.

Example: I have this friend I have known since kindergarten and they call me annoying and also just say plain rude stuff to me. I feel like crying, but then they pull the move where they do something nice or funny so i forget. They're nice at times but most times it just feels like they hate me.

I just feel like everyone hates me. They think im annoying, weird, talk too much, am too loud, too kleptomaniac-ish, and idk.. just plain ugly.

I know most people who see these types of vents think that saying "your not ugly" or "your not all those things" will help. it doesnt.

Im not being rude or anything, you do have a kind soul and yada yada. But it is just- too used.

Also, i am ugly and i am annoying. i dont honestly know what advise will help me with that.

|| LORE DUMP My father died when I was around 5 and my brother died when he was born||

Anyways, ill try doing this everyday afterschool AKA after 7 hours of my life full of ||shyt||

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unique pawn
# limber mango **DAY 1** *2/26/2025* I just realized that the friends I have in real life (and...

I used to be in similar situation to you a long time ago. What I'm gonna tell is what I learned through my experiences, hopefully you can find some advice through it.

First off I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I know it's not easy to deal with this feeling all the time.

However I would recommend not to overthink the first part. I have many friends who are relatively "rude" and also say mean stuff. However for some people that is genuinely their personality, and they have trouble balancing it out. Best thing you could do for yourself is

  • let them know you feel this way
  • not be friends with them
  • change your outlook

I would recommend the first option personally. If they're really your friend they'd be understanding towards this.

As for your imperative of being "ugly and annoying", I'm assuming it's off a front of insecurity and trouble fitting in.

I'm a senior who's gonna graduate this year. Never have I properly fit in. Many times I was ignored or pushed aside, but it's because I wasn't superficial.

See you're between 13-14 so I'm assuming your in middle school and early high school. Relationships at this age are shallow, and are not strong. (Relationships aren't just about how long you've been friends, but about the challenges and work-arounds you've gotten past together)

So my main advice, change your outlook, and put yourself out there. It's ok to feel conscious at first, but as time passes it will disappear. But you'll find better people as you try. They're are going to be people who dislike you, or are rude to you (empathy comes with age). And that's ok. Search for people who are gonna make you feel valued and who will keep you in check as well. 🙂

keen bay
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ornate wren
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...you stealing shit?

unique pawn
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wha

ornate wren
unique pawn
limber mango
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nothing illegal

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👍

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i find it entertaining for absolutely no reason

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i guess i just like the thrill

ornate wren
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Yea idk dude that sounds like it'd be hella annoying

limber mango
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yh ik thats why my friends hate me

ornate wren
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Seems like it'd be easy to fix tbh

limber mango
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😶

limber mango
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DAY 2

(WARNING: some swearing and rlly depressing and long)

so.. ive known this guy since kindergarten. and hes been like my best friend. but, i sit next to him in science and hes super toxic to me. he treats me like a pile of shit and calls me annoying. its kinda like a bully. he beats me up with his words, i have to obviously conceal crying cuz (A: Im sensitive) and (B: Its embarassing.) He does funny stuff and makes me laugh, but he makes me feel like Im stupid and ugly and annoying. He can say funny stuff and then get all serious and roast me. For example, I said "dang" and he mocked the way I speak, he fucking roasted me, and almost made me cry. I cant use the restroom in that class because my science teachers strict, and whenever I want to Cry It never comes out.

Another example of his toxic behavior:
He stole my computer and my notebook and said "tell me your crush and I'll give it back." I had 2 choices.. (A: Tell the teacher and have him hate me and also make me seem like a fucking nerd) or (B: tell him and hope he keeps the secret.) I told him my crush and he blackmailed me

When he blackmailed me, he told me to go do stuff like a slave and said "if you dont then I'm telling him and all of his friends" (context: he knew him and his friends alot..) So, I did them. He told a few people online and even one of my classmates who is his friend. he even said today: "omg I LOVE blackmailing people!" in a cutesy tone

Im stuck in a fucking cage of guilt, sadness, and about to have a anxiety attack. It would be better if he saw me get an anxiety attack cuz.. idk.. maybe he'll feel guilty? But I doubt he'll ever give 2 shits about me or even pick me compared to any other classmate he knows.

😦

vapid hound
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I'd advise you to cut off that friendship because it's becoming increasingly toxic. When you know someone for a long time sometimes you allow them to take advantage of you and make you feel miserable and you start to feel like it's your fault when it really isn't. If he doesn't know how you feel make it clear to him repeatedly and if nothing changes then start to distance yourself. I also think that you might be relying on that friendship because it's so familiar to you and it's not healthy to rely on those who don't value, respect you and know you worth.

spice meteor
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just know your a good person and expect people to treat you like a decent person

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and if they dont then realize they might be the problem not you