Hi so I dont know if anyone can relate to this: I'm a person who was born in a foreign country (brazil) with chinese parents and during most of my childhood i attended a school that taught me my mother tongue (chinese), however, i dropped out before finishing the course to its completion which placed me in a really awkward position.
Im decent at pronunciation since we established to always talk in chinese at home, but when it comes to characters and their meanings im close to being illiterate. The only ones that are fully ingrained in my brain are the fundamental ones (小,我,etc). I am unable to read a book if it doesn't have pinyin 😭 and even when it does i can't absorb its meaning completely
I've tried to do something about this countless times (me and my mom actually lol), each of them without success. Moreover, theres also the fact that I dont have any chinese friends, which would probably have helped me improve this skill
Something that is frustrating to me is how people say"practice and you will get better",i have talked in chinese with my family for my whole life, yet it never seemed to change anything?? I even went to China a considerable amount of times to visit my cousins, the visits, though, almost never paid off in terms of language improvement
So, how do I navigate this? Does anyone have a similar experience and can offer me some tips? Is there a way for me to improve or my fate was set the moment I decided to drop off that course? Sorry for the long aa text and if my grammar sucks btw
I got a english-chinese dictionary recently, and it has images and everything so maybe I can count on it to expand my vocabulary