Consciousness is the most essential and the oldest form of gameplay. Even in prehistoric times, without any iPhones or cookie crumble, the frontal lobes of early humans kept trying to make sense of what was happening: short lives, hard hunts, harsh nature…
Remember the shot from 2001: A Space Odyssey where an ape throws a bone and, in the very next cut, it becomes a high-tech spacecraft? We no longer need to run around in hides and threaten thunderclouds with a flint-tipped spear—we have technology now. Yet neither the Cro-Magnon nor Homo sapiens ever got a final answer to the question, “So who am I, really?”
And it is a frightening question indeed: how can one not know this? How can I not know who I am? “There’s a body, its reflection in the mirror, acquaintances who greet me by name, a passport with first and last name.” You can invent a thousand soothing labels and hide far, far away in the murk of your own mind until, piece by piece, you turn into the Ship of Theseus.
But there’s a second option Less pleasant, more effective: to make a leap of faith into yawning uncertainty.
A person looks into the mirror hoping for answers, and from there amorphous sub-personalities stare back in surprise- each wanting something different from you. This isn’t just the old angel-and-devil on the shoulder; it’s a full-on existential slaughterhouse in which only death ever “wins,” and only because life tends to end. Until then - endure, choose, live, and study your “self” while there’s still time.