hello
I dont see a reason to keep practicing and trying to get better at League overall
If I cant pull of mechanically like Irelking does
Yes, he does other things right, too, a lot in fact
When you look at his CS/m its just beyond crazy how consistent he gets tons of farm
and that he can do the basics of the game really well
but I dont see a reason to keep practicing league and the other things if I cant play properly the champions I wanna play. I dont rush into games and spam mechanics like I used to, I try to practice the other things as well
but when I try to practice mechanical things, I dont see improvement, it's hard to practice them at all, I die 5< times a game and lose a lot bc I value practicing far more than winning and climbing
because I cannot see a reason to keep doing this if I cant see myself getting there to be able to play like irelking does, period.
And that is shit. That is extremely sad and would strip me from one of the things that bring me the most joy in my life. Yes, I love playing league, I love the videogame. In this case, I should drop Irelia and play something else but I will never look back without regretting this my entire fucking life.
I learned the game and only got to d3 with aatrox. I wanted to pick up Irelia when Im higher, I didnt get higher, I stopped learning, because I wanted to play Irelia so bad. This sounds extremely stupid and as if Im extremely crazy and I know it, but what can I say: I want this more than having success in the game and with the game, I want to have fun playing I champion that embodies a playstyle I want to be able to perform and I cant see myself ever performing it.
I need help.
Or I have to stop. Im sad and I cant go to sleep. If anyone knows anything, please tell me.
Im hours in practice tool trying to pull off the things but it just does not come to me. I can do basic stuff, I cant combo okayish well and my E's hit. I'm doing this for 2 years now. But my Gameplay is not smooth, I still Q the wrong minion a ton of times and put my Q on CD and die like the failure I am.