I had recently attended twitch con 24 during the weekends of september 20-22. upon my attendance during this convention I had feelings of being hopeless & worthless as wells as when trying to make connections with people that all i recieved was nothing but complete ignorance. My anxiety & depression has significantly increased while i was attending this event while I was trying to introduce myself across the con and talking around with other attendees about me as a Streamer & my Content which is No Cam and I just recently made adjustments by adding VoiceMods to my streams and telling them that I am trying to get into Affiliate and that if they would like to check me out & help me out with some viewerships that these attendees have been very negative and judgemental towards me with giving me dirty looks and cussing me out to fuck off. as wells as when trying to make connections with other content creators around the convention i was also having feelings of ignorance,that i am worthless,and hopeless to make any new friends during this event. only TWO content creators that i follow are my friends. Upon the next day, I had gone into some discords of other content creators that I followed and I had also vented out my feelings over the con which has lead to me being officially kicked from their discords,social medias,and twitch channels and has determined that with my expressions that it has made others of the community very uncomfortable and has found me to have a parasocial behavior because I was venting my experiences during Twitch con. I have deleted as much as i could before i got removed. I would like to give an apology to those who were uncomfortable for my actions but it seems that if i even try to apologize that it would not even matter since I am already banned. Upon their requests of me parting ways from them, I have unfollowed,cancelled my subscriptions and removed myself from their channels
#Venting feelings during Twitch Con '24
ashen sonnet
After this con, I am going to be taking a step back from conventions for a while. I had really like being a community member for these content creators but it hurts that I am no longer welcomed because of my mistakes, It will take sometime, I must face my consequences with this punishment. 😮💨 😭
ashen sonnet
Really but we're you venting your feelings in other content creators discords to make other community members feel uncomfortable because of me expressing my depression and anxiety caused me to be banned and not welcomed to return to the community