vestal ledge
I’m really sorry to bother any of you about this. But I dont know where else to go atp.
For maybe about an hour and thirty, maybe to two hours ive been sobbing and ||cutting|| because of my partner. It’s not directly because of them—but i don’t know if they’re losing feelings for me. And that’s scaring me a lot.
They claim that before me they had planned to ||kts||. Which, initially i can relate to. They’ve told me they’re busy. They’ve told me and i understand fully that i cannot control what people feel. But I am so desperately attached to them that it hurts to even think about leaving or breaking up.
Whilst I am not 100% sure that this is how they feel, its a gut feeling. And i know most are like “oh! Listen to your gut!” It hurts to. A lot. And I’ll never forgive myself if we break up and their mental health gets worse. I wont be sharing any part of it unless needed.
Im just too mentally attached to them and leaving them might actually break me or i might just continue to ||cut myself|| until i just cant feel it anymore. Or until I forget about it. I fell face first so getting back up and stepping back is going to be a bitch for me when they’re all the affection I’ve known since…forever.
This is kinda pathetic but i just needed to get it out man
native wind