oblique mural
I fucking hate my mother. She is genuinely an asshole I'm so sick of her like what possessed her to text me "finished already piggy", Like thanks I've struggled with my body image for years now.
Like oh my days please I hate my body as much as I do and I have emetophobia (fear of vomit). So when I read her message I started to feel nauseous and now I feel fat, I already struggled with food and she complains that I don't eat enough I wonder why that is. And the thing is I'm normally the first person finished and now I just feel sick, foods starting to disgust me more and more I'm already on the line to being underweight.
This isn't healthy and I know it but I can't seem to fix it bc I hate my body I feel or see myself like I'm fat everyday but there will be some days I feel thin. I'm trying to get comfortable in my body to not be insecure. But it's hard with people always commenting about how I look or how much I eat, and it genuinely affects me bc I care about what other people say. I'm worried that I will fuck something up so when someone says something about how I look or shit like that it effects me a lot.
I need help.. but I can't get the help.. if I tell my mother she will just somehow flip the situation on her and start saying how much harder she's had it.. like please I don't care this was about me not you..
I hate my body
frail panther