lunar locust
So, I've been single since 2024 now, my relationship with my ex (m) was friends to lovers so after we broke up we stayed friends and moved on, i didn't question why she had broken up with me and until recently everything had went very well with us.
But now she has a new gf which also happens to be another friend of mine (a), seems normal right? Well, one thing that kind of bothers me is that i feel like they openly rub it in my face that their together, especially what bothers me is that (a) always tries to make (m) stop talking with me just so (a) can talk with her again. It feels like she's trying to distance (m) from me. And they also openly show me what they do when one of them is at the other's house (i wont tell due to guidelines of this server)
I've ignored this even tho it hurts me a little because it feels like their doing this on purpose to make me feel bad that i don't have a partner..
I've also found a friend who i really like and we play online alot, and i kinda started to catch feelings for him because he's very kind and funny and we share some favorite things, but now he also told me he's got a gf so...
I honestly wish i can eventually find someone because I absolutely hate how seemingly everyone i know is flexing their relationship while im here with no one, and it's making me jealous, like i envy their happiness. Im not saying that im not happy, i am but i also want to be happy with someone. i know i shouldn't waste my energy on things like this, i just don't wanna be alone forever...
hexed perch
