flint river
I actually fear people don't like me like I try my best to speak to people to put my input on things when needed and comfort people when they vent or just talk to me if they're in need but whenever I try and do that I'm ignored but everyone else who does gets a reply and stuff and I just don't know what to do bc I want to be heard and understood and I just don't know why I'm ignored and it lowk kinda hurts icl bc wdym no one wants to talk to me if I'm not to text first then I probably won't be spoken to I keep going on apps like Snapchat, discord just anywhere someone can contact me just to see no one has contacted me while my other friends are constantly keeping streaks with others and just talk to everyone like I understand I have social anxiety but it's from lack of communication to people and yk what sucks even more one of my friends theyre very toxic but I can't seem to leave her ass she was jealous of me all bc I'm friends with her boyfriend but thing is i was friends with him before they started dating her boyfriend even said that he thinks she's jealous bc i make things seem more fun that's only bc Im comfortable around them and I'm outgoing but it actually fucking hurts that no one wants to talk to me like I got a boyfriend yesterday and we talk a lot but before then any form of communication is dead I think my friends don't like me maybe they don't answer me bc I yap too much or they think I'm annoying but I just want people to talk to like yeah I will say I will get overwhelmed if too many people are talking to me at once but I just want someone to talk to me bc I'm that fucking lonely and bored that I have nothing to do
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