why does this always HAPPEN trigger warning mentions of s/h and suicide and sa

[lilac sandal]

I'm going to go insane i'm 14 and reaching the end of my year nine terms and i've picked my gsces and chose photography and a select few others and today my art teacher (i'll explain it later) teaches photography and art and she has the power to blacklist me from doing photography as a gsce and today she blacklisted me from getting it because "i looked like i was going to throw a wet sponge at someone" according to her and i kinda got really pissed and wrecked the project i was doing and was afterall really pissed and i wanted photography due to most the subjects i picked being relatively boring or just mostly theory work and i do it on the side as a passion and wanted to take the class as a perhaps evolve my skills in it and this SHIT all happened because i lightly on the shin, on that topic i got REALLY close to relapsing on s/h and seriously contemplated killing myself because i was separated from all my friends during all of this so i took it worse i can't do shit about it because no matter what i do they say "oh but you did this and that" when the student in question LITEARLY has touched me and my friends and saed one of them and my school hasn't done SHIT about it and said "yes but you assaulted this student" when i've reported them sa and i might go on but i don't wanna sound like a picky pos

[neat frigate]

"Yo, that's a seriously big situation. I suppose your art teacher does not know about gcse photography, but probably thinks gcse photography is not worth i. Yikes, she is not supposed to blacklist you from doing photography as a gsce. And her main argument contained logical fallacy. Besides, she doesn't even care about your creative skills anymore

[neat frigate]

I'm back now. I'll sort it out. So look, you need to pay attention to what your body is trying to warn you about. People like you have distorted, negative ways of thinking about themselves and the world around them that can happen automatically and come seemingly out of nowhere.

Of course, we often become agitated and terrified since life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get.' Even then, people want security, structure, and control over their future, despite them overestimating the influence that their behavior exerts over uncontrollable outcomes.

While we may not wish to acknowledge it, uncertainty, stress, and the other negative things are a natural and inevitable part of life. Very little about our lives is constant or totally certain, and while we have control over many things, we can't control everything that happens to us.

Therefore, your mind tightly holds you hostage unknown to you, keeping you locked in a correctional facility of gloominess even when there is nothing pressuring you from the outside. But you found me, and I lead you to the shortest path between two ideas, which is often the courage to question the map you were handed.

Hear me out. Grappling with doubts, uncertainty and fear is an act of courage. True strength lies in embracing loneliness, failure and chaos head-on---not alone, but with support from those who care for you.