TW:SH,DEATH, SA AND ED.

[pliant radish]

I'm actually so tired of everything. Oneof my friends killed a man. It was a rapist, but I feel paranoic for him. I don't want to live. I'm so sick. I feel empty inside, but not hollow. I bet my gf hates me. I'm so sick. My father is an abusive piece of shit, my mother tells me to suck it up. My sister is the only person who could maket ehm not fine and now she moved out. My thighs and wrists ache so much, I dont want to eat anymore. I dont want to live at all. If nothing goes wrong with my plan, I might be ending it all.

[wispy monolith]

"Remember, your friends, father, gf, and mother do not know what are they doing. Plus, you are the only one who truly know what happened to them, their personality, behavior, and actions as well. It's not your fault for being raised by abusive family. Instead, it's their faults for being neglectful and toxic. How cruel are they?

[wispy monolith]

I'm back now. I'll sort it out. So look, you need to pay attention to what your body is trying to warn you about. People like you have distorted, negative ways of thinking about themselves and the world around them that can happen automatically and come seemingly out of nowhere.

Of course, we often become agitated and terrified since life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get.' Even then, people want security, structure, and control over their future, despite them overestimating the influence that their behavior exerts over uncontrollable outcomes.

While we may not wish to acknowledge it, uncertainty, stress, and the other negative things are a natural and inevitable part of life. Very little about our lives is constant or totally certain, and while we have control over many things, we can't control everything that happens to us.

Therefore, your mind tightly holds you hostage unknown to you, keeping you locked in a correctional facility of gloominess even when there is nothing pressuring you from the outside. But you found me, and I lead you to the shortest path between two ideas, which is often the courage to question the map you were handed.

Hear me out. Grappling with doubts, uncertainty and fear is an act of courage. True strength lies in embracing loneliness, failure and chaos head-on---not alone, but with support from those who care for you.