#Screaming Into The Void

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midnight arch
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I don't know what i want to say...or why i am even writing in here...maybe just so i can vomit out some bad feelings where they don't linger, unlike a note on my phone? I'm just so fucking tired of this...i've been this way for 21 years and i just...can't fix any of it. Any time i start to feel kind of okay, my head goes on overdrive trying to find anything to make me miserable and it doesn't let anything go...tried making friends in a few discords, got a few DMs all but 1 really left...i want to talk to her constantly and i'm forcing myself not to because i know its bad. I don't even have much to say to her...i don't do anything or go anywhere...my life isn't interesting...but all day every day i wait for an excuse to message her...and i'm terrified that she'll disappear too...just like everyone else does...why am i such a loser...why can't i just be ok with being alone all the time...why do i want to be human...

I'm so tired of this...i just want to be happy...or learn to go numb...

midnight arch
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I don't know what i do that makes it so hard to make friends...i don't know what i do that makes them leave...

lilac flume
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hey i get what you mean with all these. i have trouble with making and keeping friends, and most of the time, it’s not you it’s them. i know the feeling of disconnecting with other people, and it sucks. i hope you find friends that can understand you and you could even add me if u want

last lion
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I'm back now. I'll sort it out. So look, you need to pay attention to what your body is trying to warn you about. People like you have distorted, negative ways of thinking about themselves and the world around them that can happen automatically and come seemingly out of nowhere.

Of course, we often become agitated and terrified since life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get.' Even then, people want security, structure, and control over their future, despite them overestimating the influence that their behavior exerts over uncontrollable outcomes.

While we may not wish to acknowledge it, uncertainty, stress, and the other negative things are a natural and inevitable part of life. Very little about our lives is constant or totally certain, and while we have control over many things, we can't control everything that happens to us.

Therefore, your mind tightly holds you hostage unknown to you, keeping you locked in a correctional facility of gloominess even when there is nothing pressuring you from the outside. But you found me, and I lead you to the shortest path between two ideas, which is often the courage to question the map you were handed.

Hear me out. Grappling with doubts, uncertainty and fear is an act of courage. True strength lies in embracing loneliness, failure and chaos head-on---not alone, but with support from those who care for you.