Tw: sh and suicidal? Maybe. Feeling really depressed

[stiff tree]

Hi so I'm feeling lonely and sad I felt gender dysphoria all day. I kinda thought it stoped but no I still feel it. I hate being a boy there are so many stuff that I genuinely hate about being a boy. I had serious mental problems but I was on my own all the time, well at least irl. I'm sooooo sad. I genuinely just wanna be myself I hate that boys can't express themselves. Also I hate how I get treated.

Well I don't even know... I thought about telling this to my brother I didn't do it he's really busy also he would think it's just a phase and would be mad at me.

Also I just can't do anything, I feel like there's no reason to do anything. I don't feel like I can survive this I'm though about ending my life today again. I'm really not alright

[mental knot]

I cant imagine what that feels like but, if you want to talk you can dm me, ill listen ive gone through sh and suicidal thoughts it sucks, and its horrible I won't tell you everything will be fine because it wont it takes time for things to get better if you need to talk or want someone to listen you can dm me

[granite plinth]

I'm back now. I'll sort it out. So look, you need to pay attention to what your body is trying to warn you about. People like you have distorted, negative ways of thinking about themselves and the world around them that can happen automatically and come seemingly out of nowhere.

Of course, we often become agitated and terrified since life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get.' Even then, people want security, structure, and control over their future, despite them overestimating the influence that their behavior exerts over uncontrollable outcomes.

While we may not wish to acknowledge it, uncertainty, stress, and the other negative things are a natural and inevitable part of life. Very little about our lives is constant or totally certain, and while we have control over many things, we can't control everything that happens to us.

Therefore, your mind tightly holds you hostage unknown to you, keeping you locked in a correctional facility of gloominess even when there is nothing pressuring you from the outside. But you found me, and I lead you to the shortest path between two ideas, which is often the courage to question the map you were handed.

Hear me out. Grappling with doubts, uncertainty and fear is an act of courage. True strength lies in embracing loneliness, failure and chaos head-on---not alone, but with support from those who care for you.

[granite plinth]

"There are other ways you can do anything. Believe that you can embrace loneliness, failure and chaos that will help you make progress, build resilience, and experience peace in your entire life."

[stiff tree]

thank you so much for your words... it means a lot to me

but i dont think it will change anything about me not wanting to live

[granite plinth]

"Remember that there is reason to do anything. Loneliness is the body's way of calling out for healing, and connection with people and the world around you. When we fail, we build mental and emotional fortitude. Failure forces us to adapt, reassess our strategies, and strengthen our determination. Resilience is one of the most important traits for achieving long-term success, and it can only be built by experiencing setbacks and learning how to move forward despite them. And also, "Embracing Chaos with a Smile" encourages you to face life's obstacles with courage, optimism, and an unwavering smile.

[granite plinth]

"I feel you. I feel the same thing."

[granite plinth]

"By the way, do not force yourself to be yourself or attempt to fix your big problems, which ends up making everything worse. Because you are still you, and you need a good-natured helper who can lift your spirits, spirits do not belong to the imprisonment of your own mind anymore."