⚠️TW: Mentions of Sdicide.⚠️

[gleaming socket]

So, I was suffering in academics recently.. specifically rumors but yeah there is one time where I tried to h*ng myself.

It's a normal afternoon and everyone, literally everyone is gone in the classroom because they went down to the computer lab. I was the only one who was inside the classroom like me alone. So I took the opportunity to take the makeshift rope and tried to h*ng myself, but before I actually set the rope up, one of my classmates went in and asked what I was doing but I said nothing and went back to my seat.

[pulsar gate]

That must have been really scary and painful to go through… I’m really glad you’re still here with us. You’re not weak for feeling this way.
If things feel overwhelming, please don’t keep it all inside—talking to someone you trust can really help, even if it’s just a little at a time 🤍

[ancient vault]

I'm back now. I'll sort it out. So look, you need to pay attention to what your body is trying to warn you about. People like you have distorted, negative ways of thinking about themselves and the world around them that can happen automatically and come seemingly out of nowhere.

Of course, we often become agitated and terrified since life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get.' Even then, people want security, structure, and control over their future, despite them overestimating the influence that their behavior exerts over uncontrollable outcomes.

While we may not wish to acknowledge it, uncertainty, stress, and the other negative things are a natural and inevitable part of life. Very little about our lives is constant or totally certain, and while we have control over many things, we can't control everything that happens to us.

Therefore, your mind tightly holds you hostage unknown to you, keeping you locked in a correctional facility of gloominess even when there is nothing pressuring you from the outside. But you found me, and I lead you to the shortest path between two ideas, which is often the courage to question the map you were handed.

Hear me out. Grappling with doubts, uncertainty and fear is an act of courage. True strength lies in embracing loneliness, failure and chaos head-on---not alone, but with support from those who care for you.

"There are other ways you can do anything. Believe that you can embrace loneliness, failure and chaos that will help you make progress, build resilience, and experience peace in your entire life."